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I hate bpd

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do you ever get this funny sting in your body the moment you remember something

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oh boy i wish someone would notice my cries for help! [someone actually notices] noooo i'm fine don't worry about me

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Please tell me I'm good, please just notice I'm trying, I want to be warm and caring but I scare so many people away, please just notice I'm trying so fucking hard.

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i can’t even bring it up because he already apologized. i don’t want to make him feel bad. i guess it just hurts

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isn’t it silly how much a single phrase said impulsively can affect someone. i feel selfish letting it still affect me.

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it was the one insecurity i was hoping you wouldn’t target

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“why do you treat my feelings like they’re a threat to you”

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tfw you spend your whole time trying to make sure you’re not a burden to him but once you get flashbacks he says “i ended up having to comfort you again” so you just feel like a total failure

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want to disappear

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Bpd brain really struggling with feeling loved because so used to abuse

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It’s fine I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care

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me when i shut down instead of communicating that i felt ignored and unwanted 😂

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well. i’m stupid

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What no babe why would I be jealous over something as trivial as that (I'm seething)

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I am so cool and so normal about things [rips hair out and throws phone at the wall] so cool so normal

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i genuinely do not understand my mind