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welcome death to the family!

hehe so happy to finally get Death from guillermo del toro’s pinocchio because all the lines she’s said has stuck with me since then. cried so much watching that movie. Del toro did it once again. Pan’s labyrinth has always been one of my favourite movies because of its fantastical & dark elements/magic & reality/ escapism concept to cope or understand the adult world.

Then as an adult, pinocchio was reimagined; explored facism, existentialism, war through the eyes of a young puppet child.. having alexandre desplat (composer of rise of the guardians soundtrack i fuxkccjcjjdjd love ))) using wood instruments to compose the scores in pinocchio,,, not only did it touch my soul, but the attention to details such as sound also makes me want to cry.. couldn’t really decide if i wanted death or the wood sprite, but chose Death in the end because i absolutely adore her design and voice and nail cackling on the hour glass like oooo yes asmr bitch… and her wings and horns, the two snakes of her tail!!!!

pale man by yomi @/0i0x0i0 on ig! death by crushed @/crushedclub

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pink hues from japan 2023

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on flanagan’s the midnight club

“and she was kind even when she was in a lot of pain. that’s hard to do”

'Grief is not selective. you'll be surprised what grief can grow on.'

'People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. At the point of death, pain is over.

"World's got a funny way of doing what it wants. You pull a rubber band, you can stretch it out. But sooner or later, it's going to want to snap back the way it was. Universe is stubborn.'

"It is not up to us. We don't make the rules, and we do not set to change the outcome. And when people try to find some shortout, some loophole, some advantage over life, over death. People can get hurt.'

"i hope you hear me when say, we're all with you there, and we always will be. You're not alone. Everything's going to be okay.

'It's going to hurt so bad if you stay. It'll be so hard. Life is so fucking hard. And it'll hurt. But I'm fighting for you.'

'Every single one of us is going to die someday. And before we do, every single one of us deserves love.'

‘Time has a permanent hold on us the moment we're born. It allows us to grow, to get big. We go to school, we find jobs, we fall in love. Time lets us do all of these things. But then, in the end, it kills us.’

'That's the thing about time. It brings only one thing with it. Change. It's the only thing certain in the universe. Add time to anything at all, and you get change. A little, or a lot.’

"i don't know if it's possible not to hurt the people you care about. It doesn't mean you have to be alone.”

‘A short, short life. It's not length of life but depth of life.’

‘Ralph Waldo Emerson, he had one more I've always liked. "It is the secret of the world that all things subsist and do not die, but retire a little from sight...’

“I really thought I didn't want to live. you know, depression is amazing like that. your own brain is trying to kill you. Your own thoughts are trying to kill you and I.. I listen to them. Then.. I thought I wanted to die. but I survived, and I realized how much I wanted to live. And I found out I was dying anyway.”

ok the fact that epitaph by merrit malloy is what reminded me of haunting of hill house, finding out that it’s being mentioned in the midnight club.. both directed by him it feels very dejavu

i teared up when illonka read the poem.. truly truly love how mike flanagan uses horror as a tool to explore the ideas of death, loss, time and grief

I might just be grasping here though, because the theme of dying with dignity but still grasping onto life resonates with me a lot

"i think it's that wonderful connection between a great love story and a great ghost story. The two are really the same thing how each of us when we fall in love is kind of like giving birth to a new ghost, something that's going to follow us for the rest of our lives."

flanagan doing heart wrenching horror.. how desperate everyone in MC was just trying to find something to believe in how nobody questioned illonka for what she wanted to do for anya,how every ghost in their stories are just them coping with their pain & disease..

how fantastical is it that they held onto something so tightly, but it slipped through. like the sunlight in the trees or the wind through the grass. at the end of the day all they wanted was each other to do better. to live.

how terrifying is it to know that you cannot live for much longer? to accept it? to let go of the ghosts and to simply stay present? how do you love and how do you lose? how do you accept loss? how do you grieve? how do you hold someone’s hand and not let go even when they do? how do you let someone go when they’re ready to but you’re not?

but death is an inevitability for all, some sooner than others, and seeing it depicted as something scary, yes, but also something we can gently approach meant so much to me. It feels less like giving up and more on placing our priorities on the depth of life than the length of it. On telling scary stories to friends in the dark while waiting for their ride to whatever comes next.

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今日のフィットチェック　🖤💗

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one of my favourite letimotifs.. whenever this tune comes up, i cry, my heart aches thinking about how much this movie and jack frost as a character meant to me when i was at my lowest. he really felt like a friend, watching the movie over and over again almost every night when i was 16, brings so much hope and comfort to my heart. the music is just spectacular..

i’m not sure what it is about jack frost that i found so familiar. was it the fact that he was so misunderstood? or that he carries a hard shell while being so soft and broken on the inside? or that he doesn’t want to let the guardians that he is indeed hurt but not being acknowledged for his deeds? or the fact that he sacrificed himself to save his little sister and the smile they shared was the very last thing before he passed. or how he protects children from nightmares. or that he spreads fun and joy to children. or that he talks to the moon about his purpose in life.

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today i learnt something new and it’s called a letimotif. it’s my new favourite thing ever in scores.

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been thinking a lot about this scene. the voice at the back of our heads reminding me i do deserve better. it’s like practicing self love, if u keep talking down on yourself, the little spark of positivity will start to lose its voice. Keep using positivity’s voice, keep using self-love and acceptance’s voices. Use them over and over again until they block the voices that tear u down, that doubt yourself.

i deserve someone who wants to protect my heart, as much as i want to protect theirs. and i always always always protect everyone else’s hearts other than mine. don’t keep doing that, before u forget that u need just as much protection as u do for others.. pls don’t forget about your heart..

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how to never stop being sad by dandelion hands. i knew our wavelengths were different when he said he interpreted the last line as depressing while i interpreted it as liberating.

the last line, it’s so kind. talking to your loneliness.. it’s so kind. idk how to explain it but it feels like this. art by christineowensart on ig

because who else is going to talk to you and understand you the best other than yourself? that loneliness, it’s your inner wounded child, inner wounded teenager, so talk to them. parent every version of yourself again. and ofcourse present you still has a lot to grow and learn, in the mean time let present you talk to past you’s.. i see it as being kind to the parts of myself that’s hurting, not punishing them, not blaming them for the people i’ve lost. it just screams pls be kind to yourself because you’re in pain.

so when, he said it was depressing to him.. i knew we weren’t the same anymore because the first time i heard this song, it struck my heart with so much comfort and familiarity

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fall in love with places, fall in love with ur friends, fall in love with how rain smells, fall in love with how u look in your favorite clothes, fall in love with urself, fall in love with ur barista, fall in love with background stories, fall in love with concepts!!! appreciate every bit of love that brings u joy even if it’s just a tinie bit!! it doesn’t have to be romantic !!!!!! aaaaaa <33