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☆彡Things to do instead of eating☆彡

Play animal crossing

Bong rip

Calculate calories

Meal plan

Showers

Wait 15 minutes

Clean room

Look for clothes online

Sleep

Chug water

Chew gum

Journal

Chat with buds

Re- decorate/orginaze

Brush teeth

If you need to eat eat something you don’t like or enjoy

School work/language studies

Watch nikocado avocado

Stretch

Meditate

One person Dance party

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Perks of Losing Weight

Some of the things i have noticed 

- Hair doesn’t get greasy anymore, it just doesn’t 

- There is less to wash, exfoliate, self tan, etc. (Honestly really notice this one in the shower, i used to have 20+ lbs more in my legs) 

- Moving with more ease 

- Food is cheap. Hello water over cocktails and an apple over spaghetti bolognese 

- Generally feeling smaller is a bit euphoric especially wrapped in blankets or trying on old clothes 

- Skin clears up because theres less oil production 

- Barely sweating (even while exercising or on a hot day) 

- Sunglasses/glasses are more flattering against a more angular face 

and when i reach my goal weights, i just feel fucking invincible. 

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“Losing weight won’t make you happy”

Oh really? I tried on one pair of jeans that I was struggling to fit in since spring 2016, and they finally fit me. I’m really happy, God, I would run down the streets and yell that those jeans finally fit me.

And guess why? ‘Cause I lost weight. I’m happy because I lost weight.

“Losing weight won’t make you happy” my ass

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how i gained 8kg vs how i've lost 12kg

Remember…

eating two bags of cheese cheetos for dinner ? 🤢 and now you pamper yourself with delicious looking salads 🌸

how you were spending so much money on food 💵💸 and now you saved so much money due to planning meals and eating wholefoods 🌱

how you were embarasing yourself on parties drinking beers and eating unhealthy snacks ? 🤦🏼‍♀️ and now you’re spending time developing your hobbies and improving in general ? 🎗

how you has all the ugly pimples due to eating too much shit and fat ? 👀 and now your skin is flawless and everyone complements it 🕊

how you were always bloated due to irregular, too many meals ? 🤰🏼 and now youre just almost always flat, even on your period 🎉

how your bf made fun of your big calfs, double chin and big arms ? 🙍🏻 now he tells you to eat because your ribs are visible 😉

how your only exercise was going grocery shopping and you were tired while climbing 2nd floor ? 😓 now you are flexible and able to walk for hours because of your condition 👌🏻🙌🏻

how you were insecure about your grades, always felt worse and compete with others ? 🤔 now you couldnt care less because they can only be jealous of you because you not only study good but look good 💎

how you were standing next to thin, well looking girls and felt ugly ? 🙄 now you are one of those beautiful girls 🌸

you came so far. dont waste it only because some people think ’ its too much ’

you are going to fucking slay.

fragile. petite. delicate. but first will. strenght. power.

I can. I know I can. Ive been there before. Only few kgs left.

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black and white thinspo

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🎂 skinny birthday imagine 🎂

you’ve been restricting and fasting for months and you just got your birthday dress delivered, size 0, a size you thought you’d never be. your going out with your four closest friends tonight and you look amazing. as soon as you meet your friends they fish over how well you look, saying things like “you look soooo good” and “omg tell me how you lost so much weight so look bomb!” you go to the bar so order a skinny cocktail and and a total hottie comes up to you to hit on you. you get to chatting and you give him you number. you return to your friends and party all night long with no worries because you’re finally your ugw and feel absolutely amazing!

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Things i want to wear when i loose weight ✨🦋

Nude clothes without feeling like a whale ✨💕

To finally be able to wear shorts whiteout my tights rubbing together until I get wounds on my tights

All of those dresses I never wear because I’m scared of showing my body to anyone

Jeans without feeling like I’m gonna eksplode them every time I sit down

All of the cute crop tops that I bought but never wore

To be able to wear bike shorts and feel comfortable in them

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‪🎄 Skinny Christmas Imagine 🎄

‪as i wake up i see the sunlight beaming in, warming my room. i swing my legs off the bed barely making a dent due to weighing so little. i go straight to the the bathroom to brush my teeth and weigh myself and there it is my ugw 50kg! I smile uncontrollably and decide that today it’s ok it eat some unhealthy things but no go over board. i go back to my room and put on my leggings and at this point they’re baggy i also throw on a sweater. i practically, fly due to how light i am, down to join my family at the christmas. pictures are taken and i smile and join them inside of hiding and when i look back on the picture i look stunning! my christmas was amazing i got what i wanted my UGW! ‬

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reasons not to eat ❀

i can wear big sweaters when it’s hot and not be warm

i can wear platform boots and looks like all the outfit inspos i see 

my thighs won’t inflate when i sit

i never have to be embarrassing of eating

my parents (or anybody) never has to tell me to “slow down on the snacks”

i can make all the girls at school jealous

i wear crop tops without worry of my stomach looking fat

my breasts actually stick out further than my stomach 

i can be someone’s thinspo

i can gain self-control

my fingers look dainty instead of clunky and weird

i can see my bones without having to stretch

people can pick me up really, really easily

i can be skinnier than my skinniest friend

i can wear a bikini without feeling self-conscious

i can wear long sleeves to cover scars and not feel hot

he will finally like me

people will become concerned

every bite i don’t eat is one step closer to my ugw

for not feeling like shit when i eat

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Things not talked about (as much) in the ed community

(For anybody who can still turn back and needs a reason to, or someone who just wants to be like “Yes! I’m not the only one!”)

It gets harder to lose the skinnier you are

You know how you feel when you have a high fever? Shaking and cold and weak, a special kind of weak that’s closer to fatigue than weakness? That comes with the ed, too. What a great package deal.

People will talk about it. I dunno about you guys, but I hate to be the center of attention, but I feel like I am every time someone brings up my eating habits, even in a passing comment.

On that note, being known as “the one who never eats” is great and all, but it also makes you feel pointed out, like the spotlight is on you, like everybody knows all of your secrets

Compulsory excercise. Even when you’re bone-tired and just want to climb into bed and get the day over with, you had just a couple too many calories for dinner and so you’ve got to work it off before you can think about sleep.

The food OBSESSION. This IS talked about, but I don’t think it’s represented accurately. Although, a lot of times, it’s like “OREOSPEANUTBUTTERCOOKIESCAKESANDWICHPOPCORNPANCAKES F E E E E D M E E E E” When it isn’t doing that, though, you’re wasting time googling calories for totally random things you’ve never eaten and never will eat, you’re trying to find creative ways to skip meals or have as little as possible, or trying to find the best excercises to burn calories in as little time as possible, or SOMETHING. I can’t remember a moment in a very long time when I haven’t been thinking about food, or how to avoid it. (Side note: if you are in school, your grades will likely suffer.)

Your “fear foods” will most likely also be your favorite foods.

Stop telling yourself you can stop when you’re skinny. You won’t be able to. A) You’ll probably never see yourself as skinny, because of body dysmorphia, and B) It’s not as simple as something you can pick up, use until you’re finished, and set back down. It stays with you.

Green tea and black coffee is disgusting. Absolutely revolting. They are a plague set upon this earth by the ED gods.

You get tired of water.

Your ed will make itself a part of you. This not only means that you feel as if you need it in order to feel right, it also means that you feel as if nobody can completely know you or what you’re like because they don’t know about your eating disorder. And you’ll feel like you can’t tell them about your eating disorder, because they might try to take it away from you.

Anytime the word “calories” is mentioned by ANYBODY outside of the ed community, even in passing, you will probably panic. (Or at least, I do)

“1000 cal workouts” and “Quick 500 cal workouts” never amount to that. It’s extremely difficult to burn that many calories. Look up excercise calculators or use an app with your stats to see which excercises burn how much, and make your own workouts.

It’s actually pretty easy to “let yourself go” for the holidays and birthdays and such, but it’s much harder to forgive yourself for it later.

♡ That’s all I can think of for now. Feel free to add on, I know I missed some. ♡

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People: *motivation can’t be bought

Me: *ordering clothes I definitely can’t afford as a motivation to lose that fuckin weight

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You could have: • thin arms • a cute butt • a flat tummy • slim calves • boney hands • visible collarbones • no double chin • thin legs • hipbones • (slightly) visible rips • a thin body

Don’t binge.

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Oh god, I want back these old days, when my biggest nightmare was someone killing me or stealing my things.

Now it is gaining weight.

And it isn’t only a nightmare anymore.

More like 24/7mare.

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Everyone still says to me: “If you don’t like yourself the way you are now. You won’t like yourself when you’re skinny either.”

Let me say this one thing:

That’s

Freakin

Bullshit!

Always when I lose some weight I feel like a damn queen. Then I feel good and satisfied even if I’m losing no more. I just don’t feel confident and pretty with some weight up. When I lose I really like myself.

So let me do my job, biiitch.

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3 months

It takes 3 months to make a drastic change to your appearance. By September you can be at your goal weight. By October you can dress in that Halloween costume you were waiting to wear until you lost the weight. By November you can wear big sweaters and cute socks and look ADORABLE. By December you can actually enjoy the holidays and not be concerned about that extra fat you used to carry around. By January, you can cross out “lose weight” from your New Year’s resolution because you were disciplined enough to get to your goal weight a long time ago. Just imagine where you could be if you just stick to your plans for the next 3 months.

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ive realised that one of my main motivations for getting skinny is so that people worry about me, i want my coworkers to notice how much thinner i am, i want my classmates to be worried, when i have to walk back into my old school at christmas i want my teachers to be shocked by how much weight ive lost. why is my disorder so motivated by attention seeking behaviour????

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I don’t care about what my closest friends think anymore.

I was trying to hide it. I was denying it all the time. I made up at least trillion excuses.

I was scared they would leave me if they know that I’m in this shit again.

They are pretty strict and don’t understand these feelings.

They would be angry on me. They would ask why I’m doing this to myself again. That I am stupid and weak.

Now I’m saying: DO IT.

JUST DO IT.

Judge me. Cut me off. Leave me. Hate me.

Whatever.

I have been broken already.

I just can’t stop doing this, cause this is the only thing that keeps me alive. Only thing that gives me power and desire to live and keeps me going.

It is the vision of better me.

At least something in my life is finally going to be better.

Maybe I’m lying to myself.

But I need to try.