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Coming Soon

I am not even mad at all

Just sad

That you think you had to lie

That you felt the need to treat me

So poorly

But I forgive

For you are hurting

Way more than I can grasp

Way more than you even understand

You hold tight to your demons

When will you learn

They do not love you

They're killing you

I loved you

And I still do

But I release myself from you

I feel the day coming

When I finally stop feeling the need

To write or think or feel anything about you

I just want the best for you

But that's no longer my concern

Nor am I yours

The end is here

Its fizzling out

Soon theyll be nothing

But residual damage

That Ill have to clean up

Like Ive been doing

But I won't allow you

To hurt me again

I said I would never leave

But you made me

So here it is

The end, coming soon.

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My words aren't meant to hurt you, they're meant to heal me. Bleeding out all the sickness you inflicted in me.

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Sick

I feel sick

Headache, nauseous

So hungry!

I can't stop eating

Either I am pregnant or falling into a depression

Either or is caused by you

Lord I am so sick

I just want to be done with this

Done with you!

When I feel better

I won't ever come back

I am hitting the road, Jack!

And I won't be coming around here no more!

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When you hurt a mother

When you hurt a mother

You hurt her child

Zapping her energy

She retreats in the room

To cry where she can't be seen

She tries to be joyous

Not to worry her little human

But he sees its something

Upsetting his mommy

He tries to make her smile

But she is far gone

She's so hurt and torn up

She says "baby we have to start a new life"

He cries

Not understanding why he has to leave his friends

His home

Everything he's known

He just wants things to go back

So does she

See when you hurt a mother

You hurt all that is relying on she

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How The Tables Turn

When I first met you

I thought I didn't deserve you

When I hurt you

I felt so ashamed

But now I see

Its my love you never deserved

And anything I ever did to hurt you

Was a reflection of the hell

You put me through

And I am through with it

Through with putting myself through it

Allowing you to bully, abuse and lie to me

I would of loved you sweeter than anybody

Now I take the love I wanted to give you

I am giving it to me

You will never see or speak to me again

I am washing my hands

All I ask of you

Is to wash your hands of me

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Final Ending

the last lie 

was the final piece i needed 

to see exactly who you are

the last words you said

were the daggers i needed 

to put an end to my heart

you killed so much of me

and my image of you

but now i feel free

thanks to you