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missing her and them too much

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Are you not drawing gureshin any more?

im. im sorry. The 6 year burntout finally hit me. i dont think ill ever leave but i am taking a break!!!

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do u think noir!peter ever let his curiosity get the best of him to see felicia unmasked??

I can definitely imagine a scenario that would work for him seeing Felicia without her mask, but I don't think that curiosity about her appearance with her scars is a factor in that bringing that situation about.

For Felicia's part in this situation, the major conflict is obviously between her guardedness (something that she's had from the first time we encounter her in Noir, which is a big contrast to early 616!Felicia, a total romantic) and her vulnerability. The mask is a literal barrier between them, and she's going to use it to shut him out until she's ready for anything else. I think that they'd have to re-establish some form of a close relationship before she'd be willing to be that vulnerable with him again, which is what I was exploring in some of my art from a few years ago. There's also the factor of her own personal relationship to her appearance, feelings of desirability, which ties to both by their early relationship and her own individual backstory & previous relationships/work. Crucially though, I think that she also wouldn't take her mask off if she expected his reaction to be pity - that's never been something that she wants from him.

(Spider-Man Noir: Eyes Without A Face #1, 2010)

From Peter's side of things, I think that a major emotion he'd bring isn't curiosity, but guilt. Noir!Peter's relationship to guilt is pretty different from 616, where the whole story really kicks off when he holds himself responsible for failing to prevent his uncle's death - meanwhile Noir!Ben Parker's been killed before the series starts, long before Peter gets any powers, and Urich's the one who's carrying shame for his role in it. (The other great detail here of course is that, because Noir!Ben's death had nothing to do with gun violence, Peter is comfortable carrying and using a gun - thanks @traincat for pointing this out). So his general relationship towards guilt, and his feelings of responsibility towards others, stem from universe-specific sources and events. In this case, he obviously blames himself for Felicia being attacked by the Crime Master, and the scars on her face are the most visceral reminder of that.

(Spider-Man Noir: Eyes Without A Face #4, 2010. The second image is most directly about Robbie, but applies to Felicia as well)

As a sidenote, a 616 story that's got some similarities to this situation is when Felicia was injured/nearly killed by Doctor Octopus in Spectacular #75-76. It's interesting to read these side by side and contrast their relationship dynamics in each story - they're pretty dramatically different.

(Spectacular Spider-Man #76, 1983)

So those are the reasons that each of them would struggle to get to a point where Felicia would remove her mask in front of him. The reasons that she would do that are, I think, relatively straightforward; desire, intimacy. Those are much easier things for him to express than her, because she's much more cynical and emotionally guarded than he is in this universe. The ideas I was working with in this sketch are mostly about how they might negotiate that before she's fully willing to be seen by him - the blindfold means that he can't see her of course, but also that she doesn't have to feel the vulnerability of eye contact, and gives her a lot of control over the situation. On the other hand, like this he can still feel her scars - arguably far more intimate than seeing them.

Personally, I'm of the opinion that Felicia taking off her mask to show anyone her face should, for the sake of the story and the drama of it all, be very unusual and only in highly specific circumstances (and even then, we as the readers don't necessarily need to see! But this is is more a matter of how a scene is framed and how much is left to imagination.) (I'm not really into the direction the Noir story has gone post-Eyes Without A Face since the Spider-verse stuff started happening, and I for one did not enjoy that we ended up first seeing Felicia's face unmasked in a Spider-Gwen comic of all places. That's a character she has literally no connection to! Ugh.) Any moment when she first decides to take her mask off is going to be really fraught and vulnerable for both of them, but I think it's clear that it's also a necessary step if they're going to be able to have the truly close relationship that they want with each other.

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Come back, I have to tell you the plot of a fic I’ll never write and get you excited about it so we can all be disappointed with me later

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'he would not fucking say that' maybe he would if he knew he was starring in his very own porn fic for the sole purpose of delighting some freaks on archive of our own dot org. maybe he'd play it up for the cameras. ever consider that

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HE HOP ON MY MARVEL TIL I RIVAL!!!

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*dressdd in ragged and torn clothing, on my knees, cupping hands* do u… maybe… have more felicia artwork…

you're in luck anon, I have a wip that I'm working on right now because the other day I was suddenly seized by the need to pull out my old pens and do some traditional art

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The broken bones are mended, her damaged organs have recovered.

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doodling instead of writing my assignment >>>

🖤 inspo from art by ArtofLilibith on X

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thank you @slightly-crimson-tornado for commissioning me to do this pair of portaits! 🕷️😻

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oml i eat up your art style EVERYTIMEEEE

youre asking for drawing requests i beg you to draw guremahiiii🙏🙏just a smidge for your local stan

the puppeteer

sorry if you wanted something fluffier, one day i'll draw u baby guremahi lol💕

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one day I realised that in different shinya’s memories it always rains in his heart. and when he remembers guren at 24 it rains too. but when he remembers guren at 16 it is just a clear sunny day. when I tell you all I HATE gureshin I mean it

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Between shift shenanigans

Bonus!

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Oh my goodness i can log in

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This

hi guys! it's me again on my way to throw some salt because i'm starting to believe guren belongs in a retirement home to be treated for early onset dementia.

so i'm reading the chapter, and it's all fine and good, i love it, go krul, go ferid, whatever. and then even guren shows up! i was waiting for that. but then i see this

and it's like, uh, yeah, weird thing to say considering she literally is the person that caused "everyone" to die for her own goals, but this isn't a new thing. he's said some shit like "if i had just let myself die along shinya, mahiru and the others" before, and it was odd then, it's odd now. anyway, then comes this

and i'm like?? hello???? this is a hundred times worse than "dying together with everyone", because it takes his friends out of the equation entirely and gives the image of someone who doesn't even care if they left them behind, who just wants to go and die together with their murderer. which does not fit the image i have of guren at all.

you may know that this notion itself is also not new, since he did try to die with mahiru by throwing himself and her out of a window in catastrophe (hence the "back then"). the thing is, she had not killed his friends at that point. to him she was just a broken girl and if he could end her suffering by dying alongside her, his saviour complex ass would have done it. he also hadn't yet come to the realisation of how much he loved and needed his friends. but to say this now??? i feel personally offended on behalf of guren squad, lol. imagine if he fucking died and left them to spend their last 2 years alive wondering about all the lies and the hurt, having no way of knowing their end is near, probably blaming themselves for not being able to help him even though he brought it upon himself willingly. it just makes me want to. urgh. it's horrible, and it makes no sense.

and yeah, i'm not going to pretend that i'm not also offended because of this.

did this just mean nothing?? this shit was so emotional, the original scene, the fact that he still remembers exactly what shinya told him eight years ago, for THIS? for him to say the same exact thing TO THE PERSON WHO KILLED HIM? sach mal hast du lack gesoffen oder was??

the dissonance between him shedding all those tears over his friends' deaths and then acting this way towards mahiru, i just. i do not get it.

and like, i hear the people saying that he's just pretending, he's only staying so calm because he has his own plan, he's going to betray mahiru, and i want to believe that, i really do. it' the only thing that would make sense. but as awesome and fitting of a plot twist as that would be, i will not set myself up for further disappointment and believe it.

maybe we're just doomed to watch guren and mahiru get married and have 5 kids that they name in honour of his dead friends, who knows.

salt over

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one day i’ll finish this half assed art of gureshin as the romeo & juliet painting