whollydevoted

[whollydevoted]

0 thoughts running through my mind right now . its like i completely short circuit when i think about him .. uugh i need to be hit and euthanized . why do all my thoughts always melt away

[whollydevoted]

im so tired 😭

[whollydevoted]

ive always just been a temporary obsession in everyone's life . who loves me ?

[whollydevoted]

arent i special ? arent i your favorite ? dont you care for me more than the others ? if all that is true .. why do i still feel so small compared to you ?

i dont feel like a favorite . cherish me , adore me , listen to me , love me , keep me .

[whollydevoted]

on most days my thoughts lead me to believe that id much rather know people instead of knowing people . this world is full of ill mannered individuals and almost everybody either disgusts me or lets me down somehow . or both . it gets hard to respond or want to speak to someone so .. stupid .

dishonest scumbags

[whollydevoted]

OH LORD HAVE MERCY HES GONNA KILLME

[whollydevoted]

[whollydevoted]

words mean nothing, without action. you love me? okay! cut that person off. wake up at this time. text me every day. turn on your location. let me meet all your friends. give me the passwords to your accounts. always be honest with me. let me make rules for you. you love me, so do all that for me. you want to show you love me, right?

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if you want to cradle me. say it soon. say it soon.

[whollydevoted]

feeling backed into a corner like a scared dog . run , i have to run away . need to run and be dragged back and held . everything is telling me to run .

[whollydevoted]

Kind of want to prove everyone right and kms

[whollydevoted]

shutting down is the only way out

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you know what i need ? reassurance . you know what im not getting ? reassurance . you know what i hate having to beg for ? reassurance . none of that bullshit is believable anyway

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theres like 6 people simultaneously stressing me out so everything is blurring together and driving me insane

[whollydevoted]

definitely annoyed by the fact im totally gonna get replaced

now im feeling insecure

now i quite literally dont want to talk to anybody

[whollydevoted]

"i love you" then show interest in me. ask me questions about pointless things, text me good morning and good night, check in on me, tell me how i remind you of things, write about me, make note of the things i like. do you love me or the idea of me?

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went on a mini hiatus and came back to a bunch of porn bots in my followers 😭