whollydevoted

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having so many doubts about this now siigh

genuinely whyd i have to get lied to multiple times and then have it brought up when it clearly upsets me. if im gonna be lied to at least dont let me know about it

[whollydevoted]

words mean nothing, without action. you love me? okay! cut that person off. wake up at this time. text me every day. turn on your location. let me meet all your friends. give me the passwords to your accounts. always be honest with me. let me make rules for you. you love me, so do all that for me. you want to show you love me, right?

[whollydevoted]

if you want to cradle me. say it soon. say it soon.

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definitely something wrong with me rn because why am i feeling like theyre suffocating me again

UUUUGH AND THEN MY 'FRIENDS' WHO DITCH ME AS SOON AS I DONT TALK TO THEM FOR A DAY . left for a second and suddenly theres 4 new people in your life whateverr all my relationships suck and i need to die

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feeling backed into a corner like a scared dog . run , i have to run away . need to run and be dragged back and held . everything is telling me to run .

[whollydevoted]

Kind of want to prove everyone right and kms

[whollydevoted]

shutting down is the only way out

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you know what i need ? reassurance . you know what im not getting ? reassurance . you know what i hate having to beg for ? reassurance . none of that bullshit is believable anyway

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theres like 6 people simultaneously stressing me out so everything is blurring together and driving me insane

[whollydevoted]

definitely annoyed by the fact im totally gonna get replaced

now im feeling insecure

now i quite literally dont want to talk to anybody

[whollydevoted]

"i love you" then show interest in me. ask me questions about pointless things, text me good morning and good night, check in on me, tell me how i remind you of things, write about me, make note of the things i like. do you love me or the idea of me?

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went on a mini hiatus and came back to a bunch of porn bots in my followers 😭

[whollydevoted]

i think im going to be alone soon

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when i stop talking to people for awhile my feelings for them start fading and fading and fading until nothing is left. i feel like if i had a sanity bar that you have in horror games itd be at 50% going down to 25%. i want to be pulled back but now im questioning if its even worth it

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tired of not feeling wanted

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i genuinely dont fucking know what else i can do . im doing everything i fucking can what else can i do

its never going to be enough .