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I'm so fucking lonely dude.

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Ever get the urge to bash your head into a wall right before or during a break down? Like, yeah I'll give you something to cry about you pansy.

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How does one actually make friends??

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I wish I was enough

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Nothing makes me hate life more than being in a house full of sleeping people and having to get ready for work.

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I need to invent a pillow keychain so that people(ie me) can scream their frustrations into.

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Fuck mornings, fuck coffee-less days, and fuck people who try to talk to me rn.

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Thought I would show off some of my art

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I just really wish I knew how to convey how I feel in my art, and also had the time to actually work on some art.. maybe then I wouldn't feel so alone

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Even when I try I'm not trying enough

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I'm in over my head hahhaahahhaah ☠

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I'm an awful fiance and person, I know.

His dad died after battling cancer this past year, I am trying my best to be the happy person he says he needs me to be. But every day he tells me I am too moody or emotional, gets mad at me for having an attitude when I honestly don't mean to. Now he won't even cuddle at night, gives half ass kisses before bed, and refuses to really talk to me let alone show affection.

I don't know how to be the happy person he wants me to be while he is in this mood.

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My day:

6am get up for work

7:24am go outside for the bus

8am-4pm work

4:17pm walk to bus stop

5pm get home and use the bathroom

5-8pm take care of my lil baby

8pm/9pm put lil one to bed, probably lay down as well

Between 2-4am feed bottle and change diaper

His day:

7:30-8:30am wake up/feed baby

8:30am-5pm watch our baby

5pm-7pm cook dinner, maybe do dishes

7pm-10pm play video games until bottles need washed

Between 10pm/12pm feed baby and go to bed

I feel like the work load is completely uneven and if I even ask for time for myself after work I feel like I am in the wrong and he acts as if I have taken his entire day away from him.

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Living under a rock sounds very tempting.