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If I am going to offer my heart up on a silver platter once more I would at least like the courtesy of knowing mine is the only one on your menu.

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IT HAPPENED TO ME: I Waited Until My Wedding Night to Lose My Virginity and I Wish I Hadn’t [x]

This is a long read but it’s interesting. Really sad though.

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Who else suppresses their feelings in an attempt to make things less complicated but ends up just making them worse

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Shout out to everybody that apologizes immediately after they were rude, disrespectful or offensive.

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um no offense but whom'st’ve going to loveth me

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my favorite article from the paper today

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felt you look away

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Art of “ Oswaldo Cepeda ”

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The Relationship Hole.

The gaping hole in my chest feeling is a door only you can open and you have no intention of filling it. I spent a very long time stitching intricate patchwork over everything dark and black, I can’t appreciate you coming through and ripping through it with no regard for the delicate love that I had to put into myself in order to create that barrier. Please don’t make me want you to fill that space if you’re not 100% invested in filling it to the brim and then some with your love. Don’t make me desire a relationship after all this time without really meaning it. Please, I have no room for half of someone. The emptiness will not be satisfied by a mere drop from that cup, the abyss demands the whole bottle. It is better to leave me empty than to leave me with only part of something. This is an all or nothing deal.

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Could you paint me a Birmingham?

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“It meant nothing” does not make things better. Because if you cheated on me with someone you genuinely thought was your soulmate, which made you realize I wasn’t, then I can’t truly be that mad at you for pursuing that assuming I genuinely care about your life happiness, which I do. But if you cheated on me with a random girl you met at a bar, who you had no intention of seeing again and who you’d never want a future with and didn’t even find attractive, that’s just a clear cut case of me not being enough for you.

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Don’t put someone else through denial and anxiety and insecurity because you’re scared of being single. Just don’t.

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I would’ve killed someone just to know the truth. I am a forgiving person but lying and gaslighting for years was the absolute worst choice that guy could’ve put me through

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Do the right thing and tell them the truth

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Stop lying to them when you clearly aren’t happy

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IF YOU CAN STILL CHEAT YOU OBVIOUSLY ARENT READY FOR A RELATIONSHIP OR HAPPY IN THE ONE YOU HAVE SO BE SINGLE FOR YOUR OWN SAKE