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me: hmmm what quote from 1984 should i put into my essay for class just to have more words

brain: welcome to tiny train world

me: absolutely not

brain: ENJOY NOT BEING ABLE TO CATCH A TRAIN ANYMORE

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Dispatch #65778 from FalconSAT-8 (CONFIDENTIAL)

1. Cottage of Legos 2. Cringe Firefly Silo 3. Viking Scissors Exhibit

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hello update i went to the social gathering except me and my boyfriend are maybe a bit stupid and didn't talk properly so i walked all the way there and then went home 👍 LOL

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ever.

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TYLER THE CREATOR | NOID

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Im either a genius or a idiot

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set up a bluesky for my art -_- tsk

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every writer in the world got nothing on this person!

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"america has been sliding into fascism since trump was elected" "america has been sliding into fascism since Reagan" the founding fathers owned people.

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brother maybe i should just kill myself

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and it's not even like other things we've done at his college where i didn't know anyone etc etc because all those other things i got plastered or at least a. little bit tipsy which doesn't count bc it's social interaction lube but also if i act like myself (aka autistic aka the type of person who says things and everyone goes quiet and looks at you funny and then ignores everything else you start to say for the rest of the evening) people can rationalise it like "oh haha it was drunk that's why it was so weird" but I CANT EVEN DRINK on these damn meds. and it's not even like, a drinking social gathering, so even if i could drink if i showed up drunk or tipsy i'd look like a freak anyway

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and the adhd meds are really great for me in terms of helping my adhd but they're also fucking wrecking my circulation my hands are fucking freezing and i struggle using my hands anyway bc dyspraxia and pain and other things and it's even harder right now bc they're so cold and it's making me freak out MORE

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im venting

i am trying so hard not to have a panic attack and it's about the most fucking pathetic thing ever. i want to go to a social event but i also really really don't want to go because i don't know who i'll know except my boyfriend and it's at a college i don't go to and im going to be walking in alone and im going to be awkward and sullen and make him look bad and everyone's gonna think i'm a freak. so i try to reassure myself like It's okay i don't have to go no one's forcing me jude will understand!!! and then i start panicking even harder because i keep letting my fucking anxiety ruin things for me and what if i don't go because i'm a fucking pussy but actually i would have really enjoyed myself if i had just gotten over it. and then okay actually i WILL go i'll walk there so that the cold air helps me rationalise things and then what if i get there and it's fucking horrible and everything i thought could go wrong DOES go wrong and then that further entrenches my instinct to listen to my anxiety and not do things in the future and then i become even more isolated and lonely and miserable and then what if i. and so on. im going to CRY i am so unwell

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outfit swaps

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I asked the bartender for a coffee with no milk and he said we're out of no milk and gave me a cup full of milk

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something you can do today is donate to an abortion fund in florida and to an abortion fund in south dakota since abortion rights measures failed there. you can find one to donate to in one of those states here: https://abortionfunds.org/find-a-fund/

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Do the right thing Baron