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Week 81!!!

I've lost over 100lbs!!!! The only problem now is the intense heartburn I get without the medication. I'm excited but I feel like I will still never where shorts or short sleeves because of all the skin. It's not really a problem because I never wore them to begin with.

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People need to stop glorifying stretch marks and fat rolls. You can tell people their beautiful all you want, but you know what's beautiful? VS models. Tell your followers to get some coco butter or lazor surgery to look like them. Stop romantisizing imperfections.

These are your VS models

Before they’ve been 

altered and photo shopped

to where you can’t see

their stretch marks

or cellulite

or rolls 

but you know what? 

they’re still fucking beautiful

photos not mine - found on google images under “vs models untouched”

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The skin...

When I look down, all this loose skin just breaks my heart. I knew I'd have it but I honestly think it's gross and it makes me sad. I feel comfortable in long sleeves and long pants in the middle of summer. I can't wait to lose even more weight so I can get it all removed. The skin on my stomach has already started to give me trouble and discomfort...I just wish it was gone or smaller. I can deal with smaller. I love that I've lost all this weight but my skin hurts when I try to run or wear a sports bra. I just want to be comfortable.

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The low...

A few pounds below my highest high school weight and I feel great! I finally got my 200# deadlift on the first of the month. The weight loss has definitely slowed down a lot but now I know I just need to work harder. I still hate everyone watching what I eat and being under the "weight loss microscope" that most people seem to have. That not-very-supportive friend I talked about before is now on a new diet. I've chosen to be supportive of her despite the way she's treated me but I honestly don't think she's eating enough or the right things. She won't measure her food so it's clear that she's not eating enough of some foods and way too much of others. I don't want to tell her to start measuring because I don't know how far she'll take it. Any diet where you are not allowed to sweat doesn't sound like a very good diet to me.

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I'm so close to my highest weight as a high school sophomore!!! I feel like the weight just keeps slowing down but I refuse to give up and let myself down. I workout a lot more and I started this challenge so I'll see where I am in a month.

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Week 20!

Officially down 61#!!!!! It feels like I've slowed down so much though. It's definitely getting tougher a lot faster than I thought it would. I'll probably step up my excersise and find new ways of eating. I wish I lived alone so I could have complete control over food in the house because I haven't had any bad reactions to new foods which is scary. I don't want to fall back into bad habits and gain all my weight back before it's even been a year.

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Week 17

I still haven't told any of my friends about my choice and I'm not even sure if I feel close enough to anyone to tell them...other than my trainer. One of my friends right now just decided she wants to lose weight and it feels like she wants everything I have. My trainer, my clothes, my food, everything. We went to the mall and she was struggling to find things that fit and was clearly sad when I reached for a smaller size. I want to help her but she's always looking for a quick fix and I don't know how to help her. Every time I ask if she wants to go to the gym, it's either an excuse or stalling so she doesn't go with me. If we go to dinner, she watches my plate and me eating which makes me beyond uncomfortable and I just want things to go back to normal. I don't like feeling like I'm under a microscope. Does me losing weight really make people that uncomfortable? Maybe I'm keeping a secret that I shouldn't be.

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Week 12

I feel like time is flying!!! I haven't posted in forever but this is the best I've felt in a long time. I've been going to the gym and lifting weights for the past couple of weeks and I already feel like I'm doing better. I want to be stronger, not just smaller.

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Week...idk

Down in the 240s now!!! I'm excited and ready to move. I wish I could find my old trainer and start working out. I'm on my own for now but I don't mind. I just need to stay motivated. Started a squat and sit up challenge today haha we'll see how that goes.

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Running a 10 minute mile doesn't make you less of a runner.

Having to stop and walk doesn't make you less of a of a runner.

Having curves doesn't make you less of a runner.

Always getting last place doesn't make you less of a runner.

Not making varsity doesn't make you less of a runner.

Only being able to do a mile, doesn't make you less of a runner.

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A little late...

I kind of forgot about week 3 haha! Nothing crazy really happened but possibly noticing some early transfer addictions...I spend a lot of time watching other people eat large amounts and maybe it's because I can't. I really don't understand my own fascination. And online shopping without buying a thing! I'll shop and have a full cart of things that won't even fit me so I won't buy anything at all. Maybe I'm going stir crazy because I'm still stuck inside. There are so many limitations right now and I'm still trying to adjust.

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how do some of ur parents let ur bf/gf stay the night? like my mom get’s mad if i have too many cups in my room. wtf.