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Everybody shut up I'm sinking into a daydream universe where I'm loved and nothing is wrong

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3dblr who’s brave enough to tap in?

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i should just fucking kms honestly

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I’m hungry… lemme just.. (hits vape aggressively)

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I hate my life

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probably gonne jinx it by posting but finally escaped the 190s plateau after 2 months of fighting it

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Skelly by CursedRabbitComics

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sorry I’ve basically gone radio silent - I’m trying to remember how to starve myself properly🫶🏻😭

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im such a fucking failure in every god damn way ffs

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worked out until muscle failure tn, been doing pushups everyday for a week now hoping to burn more as i slowly get back into my old routine

i refuse to keep being a lazy asshole, chronic pain can eat shit

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even if i only make it to 160 with a low bf% like this by nov-dec i will be content

Oct 10 - Body Check

New cw: 165.6 lbs

I may not see it but apparently ive lost 4.6 lbs over a day and a half (y e e t) and im finally back down to, actually lower than, what i weighed in June (was 167 lbs)

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i havent been posting here bc ive been too depressed to post any updates on my progress considering ive been stuck in the low to mid 190s for over a month

but i'll probably post more now that i have a huge motivation to lose most of my weight by the end of the year

im not expecting to hit my ugw bc if i have too high expectations ill just kms by new years if i havent hit it

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hw: 196

lw: 191

cw: 193

same shit different week

but i need to be smaller. NOW.

after a month of month of maintaining then gaining and then maintaining im finally losing and am now down to 193 lbs (hw this month was 199 lbs)

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after a month of month of maintaining then gaining and then maintaining im finally losing and am now down to 193 lbs (hw this month was 199 lbs)

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struggling but losing so theres that

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the update for may is

ive maintained 196 lbs this whole time

ive been sick on and off for almost a month and strving hasnt rlly been an option

maintaining has made it easier to cope with eating meals that my body needs without logging i have no idea what my avg intke has been

i need to see a doctor for non-ed related health issues soon but yeah thats it

idk who actually cares or reads my posts but ty for sticking around