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[vgilantee]

still hurts the most that someone who's writing ive loved for 6 years blocked me because of something that should be been sorted in private.

anyway I'm considering making this blog password protected just to hide. coward's way out i know but I tried being mature so c'est le vie

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I'm still not back but I just wanted to let you all know that while I've turned off notifications for this blog, I do occasionally still check them. I've also paused privating stuff because my brain was melting so enjoy it while you can.

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reblogging this in case anyone missed it.

I've left that fandom, I don't feel welcome or wanted there so I've left to make it easier on everyone.

and I'm still pretty firm in my decision to stop writing. I'll miss it but it's for the best. if I end up privating everything, fics will still be available on ao3 because it still feels safe and good to have them there.

I had a good cry and a sleep and have decided that pretty much everything on this blog will be privated and I won't be writing for the foreseeable future. if I do it won't be posted to tumblr.

my safe space has been ruined and the only reason I'm not entirely deleting this blog is because im actually proud of some of the fics I've written.

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I had a good cry and a sleep and have decided that pretty much everything on this blog will be privated and I won't be writing for the foreseeable future. if I do it won't be posted to tumblr.

my safe space has been ruined and the only reason I'm not entirely deleting this blog is because im actually proud of some of the fics I've written.

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anyway I'm. I'm gonna take a break from tumblr I think. I honestly didn't mean to he such an asshole and I wasn't angry and at the beginning I forgot tone indicators and really I just all around fucked up I think.

im sorry.

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In your opinion, what difference does you going on a break make? Not trying to be a dick in any way, just curious.

I stop seeing stuff, people stop seeing me. the latter being the most important. it's easier for everyone if I'm not here :)

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actually one final post.

congrats. I'm officially done with writing for cod and probably reading for it too. I'll be privating all my cod stuff - original works and reblogs.

first time I've been pushed out of a fandom, so well done. 🙃

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You are allowed to be hurt by this person and whoever is snitching is a little pussy. They don’t have a right to be hurt when they hurt you doing this in the first place.

okay i wasn't going to answer this but this will be the last on this topic, and the last thing I post for a while:

I may be hurt but I am also willing to admit I am also at fault. I was pushy and being selfish and I should have just left it alone. I was indeed sub-posting, though my intention was to vent and avoid people going over to her and sending hate. whatever my intentions were though, that didn't happen.

and whatever i may think or feel, she definitely is allowed to be hurt be it because I was an ass or because being friends with me wasn't good for her mental health.

do I wish we were able to talk this out properly and in private? of course i do. I was never owed it because that's not how the world works, but i would have appreciated the explanation and reasoning- preferably sent in private but here we are.

again, I am not free of fault here. I forgot tone indicators and didn't realise that we were officially no longer friends and therefore I needed to be more clear when I was joking or being light hearted.

and i don't think whoever was screenshotting and passing along my posts was a pussy. I've got nothing else on that tbh I just want them to know I'm not upset at them (not that they probably care but hey. I'm just trying to be transparent with my feelings here lmao)

not that it's an excuse but I think my being so pushy for an answer and being so vocal about being hurt is because the last time something like this happened to me, I bottled it up and didn't say anything to anyone. again, not an excuse especially because it hurt her even further, but just a possible explanation as to why i reacted the way i did.

the next part is going to be in big font because i need people to see it

do not, under any circumstances, send hate to anyone involved and use me as an excuse. I do not fuck with that, I do not condone that, and as previously stated if word gets back to me that people have used my name in an excuse to send hate i will empty this blog

anyway. I'm exhausted just from everything and I won't be posting here or on my main, or on sins, for a while.

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it does hurt to be blocked by someone I followed for over 6 years and for an entirely different fandom though. was a big fan. sucks that a miscommunication and me handling it poorly resulted in this

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actually one final post.

congrats. I'm officially done with writing for cod and probably reading for it too. I'll be privating all my cod stuff - original works and reblogs.

first time I've been pushed out of a fandom, so well done. 🙃

[vgilantee]

You are allowed to be hurt by this person and whoever is snitching is a little pussy. They don’t have a right to be hurt when they hurt you doing this in the first place.

okay i wasn't going to answer this but this will be the last on this topic, and the last thing I post for a while:

I may be hurt but I am also willing to admit I am also at fault. I was pushy and being selfish and I should have just left it alone. I was indeed sub-posting, though my intention was to vent and avoid people going over to her and sending hate. whatever my intentions were though, that didn't happen.

and whatever i may think or feel, she definitely is allowed to be hurt be it because I was an ass or because being friends with me wasn't good for her mental health.

do I wish we were able to talk this out properly and in private? of course i do. I was never owed it because that's not how the world works, but i would have appreciated the explanation and reasoning- preferably sent in private but here we are.

again, I am not free of fault here. I forgot tone indicators and didn't realise that we were officially no longer friends and therefore I needed to be more clear when I was joking or being light hearted.

and i don't think whoever was screenshotting and passing along my posts was a pussy. I've got nothing else on that tbh I just want them to know I'm not upset at them (not that they probably care but hey. I'm just trying to be transparent with my feelings here lmao)

not that it's an excuse but I think my being so pushy for an answer and being so vocal about being hurt is because the last time something like this happened to me, I bottled it up and didn't say anything to anyone. again, not an excuse especially because it hurt her even further, but just a possible explanation as to why i reacted the way i did.

the next part is going to be in big font because i need people to see it

do not, under any circumstances, send hate to anyone involved and use me as an excuse. I do not fuck with that, I do not condone that, and as previously stated if word gets back to me that people have used my name in an excuse to send hate i will empty this blog

anyway. I'm exhausted just from everything and I won't be posting here or on my main, or on sins, for a while.

[vgilantee]

In your opinion, what difference does you going on a break make? Not trying to be a dick in any way, just curious.

I stop seeing stuff, people stop seeing me. the latter being the most important. it's easier for everyone if I'm not here :)

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I dont know how long I'll be gone. just that it's easier on everyone if I am. sorry again for... me

anyway I'm. I'm gonna take a break from tumblr I think. I honestly didn't mean to he such an asshole and I wasn't angry and at the beginning I forgot tone indicators and really I just all around fucked up I think.

im sorry.

[vgilantee]

anyway I'm. I'm gonna take a break from tumblr I think. I honestly didn't mean to be such an asshole and I wasn't angry and at the beginning I forgot tone indicators and really I just all around fucked up I think.

im sorry.

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I know you already have the screenshots and everything but I'm still deleting the posts.

I was hurting and im sorry that because of that you got hurt even more. that was never my intention.

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what if I made my theme Remy from ratatouille?

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it is 9:30pm with 86% humidity. I'm out. I'm done. I'm going to pass away