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         her lips turn upwards involuntarily , without a second thought . and god , how she loved anybody who wasn't a man ! ' oh , come on , i don't believe that . surely you've got the longest line of suitors waiting for their chance to even catch a glimpse . ' a small suck of her teeth , disbelief , came out . val's head will tilt to the side slightly , eyes lighting up - the quickest way to her heart is through her looks ! ' you know , i would never lie to you , so yes i've been told quite a few similar things , but just between you and i ... i like it much better coming from you . ' reign it back in , girl ! ' now tell me ... how's life been treating you these days ? '

           “  that  is  honestly  the  sweetest  thing  i  have  ever  heard  !  ”  lips  turn  up  into  a  small  smile  at  the  compliment  .  a  genuine  smile  at  that  .  for  nalini  is  a  girl’s  girl  and  there’s  always  something  about  women  (  and  non-men  )  complimenting  each  other  that  always  gets  her  feeling  some  type  of  way  .  “  has  anyone  told  you  that  you’re  absolutely  breathtaking  ?  like  just  show  stopping  ?  ”

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         eyebrows raise , feigning ignorance ( but the words inflate her already well established ego ) . ' well , if that's what you think , then ... ' femme shrugs , her lips upturning ever so slightly . eyes him as he comes closer , curious . ' you should probably just get closer then . or maybe invest in some glasses . ' and she's always one for jokes , never lasts long with sincerity ! ' i'm never in need of receiving compliments , let's start there . you simply felt overcome by my beauty , you just had to get it out . i'm used to it . ' okay , now she was genuinely pushing her luck - and presumably his patience .

              smirks   ,     the   kind   that   barely   curls   at   the   corners   of   his   mouth   .              “        like   what   ?     a   fuckin’   princess   ?          ”              and   leans   in   just   a   bit   ,   as   if   to   get   a   better   look   at   her   face     (   not   because   he   needs   to   —   he   just   wants   to   )   .              “        you’re   tired   ,     huh   ?     doesn’t   show   .     lookin’   pretty   damn   perfect   from   where   i’m   standing   .         ”               blue   eyes   linger   on   hers   .              “        you   sure   you’re   not   just   fishing   for   compliments   ?         ”

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*   closed   ,   @eclatdefille   .

         ' sometimes i want to fire my makeup team for making me look like this . ' she gestures to her face where she looks nearly ... perfect . no mistake in sight . ' do you want to fire them for me ? i'm so tired . '

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𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝟎𝟎𝟏 ,   dying to see you ...

𝑨 𝑽𝑰𝑺𝑰𝑶𝑵 𝑰𝑵 𝑾𝑯𝑰𝑻𝑬 :   valeria white bear appears as an angel for this years halloween party !

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*   closed   ,   @f0rtunes   .

         ' hold on , hold on ! you got shit on your cheek . ' tips of fingers reach out , a brief moment of silence as they swipe the foreign object away . ' there , beautiful as always . '

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*   closed   ,   @imb3rs   .

         ' i'm just wondering if anybody's ever told you that you're ethereal . ' says it so nonchalant , one might mistake niceties as a common occurrence ! ' because if not , well ... you are . '

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*   biography   ,   pinterest   ,   spotify   .

full name , valeria waseskwan white bear . nickname(s) , val . name meaning , to be strong . age , twenty9 . date of birth , november 19th . place of birth , rocky boy's reservation , montana . ethnicity , chippewa cree , black , white . gender , cis woman . pronouns , she / her . sexual orientation , bisexual , but has only ever been with and dated women . religion , christian , non - practicing . occupation , musician . education level , high school diploma . label(s) , the philophobic , the spitfire , the rags to riches , the prima donna , the opaque . positive traits , dauntless , authentic , tenacious . negative traits , frivolous , impulsive , guarded .    

faceclaim , khadijha red thunder . career / voice claim , jorja smith . hair color , ever changing , currently darker honey blonde . hair style , every changing , currently natural and curly . eye color , brown . height , 5'9" . build , slim , athletic . tattoos , n/a . piercings , single ear piercings . clothing style , feminine , edgy , always trying new things , x x x . distinguishing characteristics , high cheekbones , statuesque figure , sharp tongue . signature scent , costa brazil aroma , melts into the skin and offers up white jungle flora , brazil orange oil , pink pepper , and grapefruit zest with opposite notes of bourbon , vetiver , musk , and patchouli .    

diagnosed disorders , anxiety , depression , cptsd . physical disorders , n/a . allergies , dogs , cats , pollen . sleeping habits , stays up late , wakes up early , an attempt at a sense of control . eating habits , limited , snacks throughout the day , never completes an entire meal . sociability , does not like to physically be alone , but appears to not actively enjoy being around people due to consistent negative outlooks . addictions , iced flat whites with oat milk , instagram live , private and secret tiktok account . alcohol use , regularly , if not daily due to lifestyle . drug use , whenever available , multiple times a week . cigarette use , rarely , does not like the taste lingering .    

likes , the moment when the first note strikes the air , filling the silence with a euphony of possibilities / the solitude of midnight , when the world falls silent , when most authentic thoughts spill onto the page , raw and unfiltered / the wild joy in unpredictability , in chasing the next adventure , fueling an insatiable spirit . dislikes , the chains of expectation that weigh heavy on damaged spirit , resisting the urge to fit into unspoken molds / the oppressive quietness that only reminds one of a suffocated childhood , now feels like an enemy in which their only weapon is emptiness and a memory of a house devoid of warmth / showcasing a true self , gambling with vulnerability in a world built off of facades , feigned authenticity illicit the same reaction regardless of earnestness .    

fears , the specter of inadequacy looms overhead , stifling in an attempt to get one to misstep , unraveling everything that's been built to escape the stranded youth / fading into obscurity keeps one always on alert , chasing fame not only for the recognition but to ensure name lingers on others lips far after the legacy retires / the idea of becoming stagnant , of losing ones drive to look better , do better , be better , feels as if death was enveloping a soul , complacency robs one of the only fire that's stayed lit . habits , pen is put to paper , ritual set in stone that helps ease the habitual mundane routine of the day , previous chaos ruminating can finally halt / when the stress and feelings begin to overwhelm ones internal system , a retreat into solitude comes next , craving the comfort of ones own company over the repetitiveness of half - strangers / earnest nature comes out when it relates to collecting mementos , significant moments often captured in photos from others , but concerts tickets , notes , and trinkets serve as reminders of how one has been shaped .    

mother , mariana rojas ( 48 ) . father , francis white bear ( 50 ) . sibling(s) , sebastian ( thirty - two ) . significant other(s) , has not been in a long - term relationship . longest friend , jana thompson ( met in high school a few months before she first released music ) . children , n/a . pets , n/a . primary vice , pride . primary virtue , diligence . weather , overcast , slight wind , mid 60°s . color , burgundy . music , r&b , soul , pop . movie , the hunger games trilogy . book , the giver , lois lowry . sport , tennis . beverage , mimosa . food , any fine dining , no preferred nationality . animal , elephant . season , middle of autumn , when most of the leaves have turned .

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vigilantefm — fame is a vapor , popularity an accident , and riches take wings . only one thing endures and that is character .

*   valeria " val " white bear   ,   introduction   .

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from The Fran Lebowitz Reader

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Perfection is not just about control. It's also about letting go. Black Swan (2010) dir. Darren Aronofsky

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Jane B. par Agnés V. (1988) // dir. Agnés Varda

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*   khadijha   red   thunder   :   victor   hong   berries   #128   |   khadijha   red   thunder   .

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