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I wrote a fanfic for the first time, be gentle ˚▱˚ !

Eva returns from the N109 Zone and is plagued by dreams of her companions. Unable to discern between dream and reality, she reconsiders her relationship with the four men in her life. Xavier is endgame, but she shares romantic and/or intimate moments with all the ML’s. Will contain suggestive themes/content as chapters progress (noted for each chapter in which it appears).

* Some chapters contain retellings of memory cards available in the game, but they have been simplified to avoid being repetitive for those who have played/watched them.

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i've never written fanfiction before but l&d got me going crazy.. I'm entering my creative writing era ?!

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My sanity leaves the room when it comes to this man

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stolen first kisses

pairing: zayne/mc, rafayel/mc, xavier/mc, sylus/mc

tags: first kiss, rafayel enchanted by mc, zayne shuts mc up, xavier is jealous, sylus thinks he lost you, mini scenario, sfw

zayne

"I just... I feel like you've been avoiding me. If you're mad at me, just say it." you confront Zayne, trying your best not to sound frustrated but you care too much, so you can't help it.

He listens to you attentively, nodding. "What makes you think I'm mad at you?"

A scoff escapes your mouth and you shake your head in disbelief. "Well, for one, you've been so short with me. You barely text me, never mind calling me-”

He averts his gaze away for a moment, furrowing his brows as if he’s processing the information.

“You reject my invitatio-” you pause abruptly, eyes widening when Zayne’s big hand cups the side of your jaw, leaning down to press his lips against yours. Your eyes close shortly and his hand advances to the back of your head, cradling it gently.

Your heart skips a beat and when he pulls away, your fingers dart to your lips, missing the sensation. He smiles faintly, taking a step back.

“Why did you kiss me?” your face feels warm. You weren’t expecting the sudden contact.

He straightens his posture. “Someone has been overthinking. I want to make sure they know that avoiding them would be a very difficult thing for me to do. Impossible even. I’ve been busy but…” he takes your hand and kisses it. “I’ll make more effort. I’ll call you at least once a day. Promise.”

rafayel

The ocean waves envelop you with pure relaxation. The sky is painted in warm colours by the sunset, the beauty of it reflecting in your eyes. You look breathtaking, mesmerised by the landscape. You don’t even notice someone adoring you, watching you smile.

“Isn’t it just so beautiful?” you ask him, admiring the ocean.

“Yeah… really beautiful.” your head turns before your eyes do as it’s hard to look away.

But once your glance meets his, the energy shifts. You’ve been lost in the nature, but this whole time he’s been lost in you. You smile softly, playing with a loose thread on your sleeve. It’s cute the way his ears and face flash red once something romantic happens between the two of you.

You’re thinking that maybe this is the first time he’s indulging in it. Usually he brushes it off. But this time his energy is reeling you in and you feel excited. Still, you don’t expect much. Or perhaps you’re nervous. The silence between the two of you is deafening and you’re about to speak up to break the tension.

He holds your wrist, leaning towards you and your lips quickly meet his. He brings your hand to his chest just over his heart and you’re surprised at his speedy heartbeat. His kiss is firm but soft and you wish he gave you more. It didn’t last long but it felt electrifying.

His smile is sweet and genuine once he pulls away. He fiddles with your hand for a moment before lowering it and intertwining his fingers with yours. “Let’s go for a walk, yeah?”

xavier

Of course you receive attention from other people, especially men. But why do you have to entertain them when Xavier is right there? No you’re not official and no he never made a move on you except a bit of harmless flirting. But still, why that guy?

He only came to this work night out for you. He wants to make sure you arrive home safely and obviously he wants to spend time with you. But you’re not with him.

You catch him staring at you and decide to make your way towards him. The hunter admires how well your formal outfit hugs your figure. You couldn’t have chosen better. He hates how these men stare at you, you’re not just some piece of meat. As soon as you’re near him, you’re surprised when his hand mindlessly makes its way to your lower back. You cock an eyebrow, trying to hide your smile. He seems somewhat unimpressed, judging by the look on his face.

His eyes scrutinise you. You chuckle, tapping your finger against his cheek in a teasing way and you see his features relax.

“What are you being so serious for?” you ask, tilting your head to the side.

The tip of his nose nuzzles into your shoulder before planting a bold kiss on it and goosebumps rise upon your skin. He takes the opportunity of your surprise to capture your lips with his, kissing you deeply as if he wants everyone to see that he’s yours.

Breaking the kiss, he gazes into your eyes. “So who do you like more? Me or that guy?”

sylus

For the first time in a long time, he’s scattered, desperately looking for a sign of life. He told you to stay close to him, but you’re always so stubborn and do things your own way. Don’t you understand that he wants the best for you? He wants to keep you safe, even though he knows you can take care of everything yourself. The smoke is almost blinding him and he’s never the one to panic but his heart is hammering against his chest. What is this feeling? Fear? He’s not sure. It’s unfamiliar to him.

“Mc!” he calls out your name, but to no avail. He’s telling his men to search for you immediately, snapping at them to hurry. He doesn’t even remember the last time he used your actual name instead of the annoying little nicknames he chose for you.

“Sylus?” he hears a distant voice and he recognises it instantly. He follows it, the further he goes the more the fog clears away.

There you are. All in one place, with just a little dirt on your clothes. You’re fine, you’re healthy. He doesn’t have to worry anymore.

He rushes towards you and before you can react, his fingers drape behind your neck and he pushes his lips onto yours. The pressure is nice, passionate and longing. He moves his lips, pulling you closer to him once he feels your reciprocation. He embraces you as if it’s the last time he’ll ever get to hold you.

Sylus’ eyebrows are scrunched once he looks at you. He seems… annoyed. You are flustered. He was just all over you, happy to see you and now it looks like you should run. Uh-oh you’re in for a lesson.

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i'm gonna use this account for my degeneracy thank you all for your understanding

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⋆˚࿔ 18+ Love & Deepspace NSFW Headcanons 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ feel free to ask any questions or offer any input! this is purely for fun :) This is my first time writing something like this out so be kind pls lol

Xavier -> Zayne -> Rafayel -> Sylus

hc's written with fem!mc in mind, but the majority of points here can be read neutrally :)

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Xavier

Xavier is extremely affectionate and clingy. Out of all the MLs, he is the most physical

Has the highest libido

Messy when doing the deed- will start out slow, gentle, but gets rougher or more intense

Can go several rounds, fall asleep, and then pick up where you left off lol

He's quite sensitive behind his ears.

Loves when you grasp and touch at his chest and abdomen when he's in you.

Is somewhat vocal- he'll start out quiet at first, with more breathes and grunting, but he'll softly moan and whimper as you continue.

LOVES when you're vocal, breathing and moaning in his ear

He's big on sensory stimulation! (See: no restraint memory)

Lots of heavy breathing and sounds bouncing on the walls lolol

His two favorite positions are missionary and having you on his lap. His hands grasp and squeeze your body, he buries himself in your neck, plants kisses on you wherever he can, and leaves very little distance between you two

Xavier is 1000% a munch. If he's not inside you, he wants to be devouring you.

Prefers hand jobs over blowjobs. I don't think he'd care much for blowjobs, but he would accept and enjoy it if you gave him one. He just prefers [previous bullet point]

Loves when you squeeze your thighs around his face, press his face between your legs, and tug on his hair while he eats you out.

He gazes at you constantly; watching your reactions

He likes to nibble and nip at your skin, especially around your neck and collarbone- he'll leave hickeys in a few spots; your collarbone, the space on your neck below your ear, and the nape of your neck, the dip of your shoulder ; areas with visibility. He'll say he didn't mean to like a liar

He likes to nibble and kiss at sensitive areas where you might be a little ticklish, to make you smile. If you do the same though, he'll smile but you'll be riling him up to keep going or want more

"Please?" ; "Tell me you love me" ; "I'm yours" ; "I love you" (over and over and over) ; "You're mine" [jealous/possessive] ; "Does that feel good?" ; "You taste/feel so good"

Loves when you hold his head, cup his face, etc!

He likes to cum on your stomach.. at times he'll place himself between your thighs, using them or his hand to get off and spill onto you.

He's a huge cuddler, and when you fall asleep he's happy to spoon or be spooned. But it's hard to leave his grasp.

He's in heaven when you just lay your entire body weight on him

He's not much for PDA, but he tends to maintain close proximity to you, and will lay his head on you. Will lock arms or hold hands occasionally, but I see his affection being more light in public, unless other people aren't around.

Zayne

Has the lowest libido.

He's likes to service you, but will switch so you can take the lead.

He enjoys servicing you, but he likes (and prefers) when you initiate intimacy with him.

You have had him tie your hands above your head or behind you while he explores your body- he particularly likes gently complimenting you as he kisses you softly. Besides this, your intimate life is actually very vanilla and soft

"Every part of you is beautiful" ; "You don't know what you do to me" ; "Does that feel good?" ; "This part here, and this part here... [as he trails is hands and fingers down your chest, stomach, and so on.. Planting kisses as he goes]"

Plays with your nipples the most, using lots of tongue stimulation

He's not really one for hickeys or leaving marks behind

He enjoys having you take the lead- when you straddle him, kiss his neck and chest, and tease him about if it feels good or if he wants more.

He's the most sensitive physically! His chest/nipples and stomach are particularly sensitive, and ofc his Peenus lol.

He's not very vocal, and instead breathes heavily and grunts a lot- but you can manage a moan out of him when giving him oral.

He's the most gentle out of all the MLs, he never handles you roughly and prefers the same from you. Your sexual relationship is best described as gentle.

He's not big on PDA, but when you two are alone together, he enjoys having you casually on him- on his lap, resting your legs on him, his head on your lap, etc. He finds comfort in the simple, but secure forms of affection that you two reserve for each other.

He views sex as a very intimate and personal act, and prefers to do it intentionally.

Rafayel

His libido is ??? He alternates between periods where he can go without sex / not care much for it, and becomes a sex machine.

Out of all the MLs, he is the most vocal in bed. He's not very good at hiding his reactions anyway, he gets shy and embarrassed.

He loves being teased. He's quite sensitive overall, especially around his ears and between his thighs. If you caress or fondle any part of his body, he's quick to blush

He's not particularly dominant or submissive. I think he can be quite forward and take the lead, but he just as well is willing to let you take initiative as well.

Rafayel is quite the romantic- he'll go out of his way to set the mood, set up candles and music, and even buy you lingerie.

He loves lingerie and having you straddle and tease him. Grinding on his hips and fiddling with his shirt until the buttons are undone, or sliding your hands beneath it. All the while, his hands grasp your thighs

He likes when you leave hickeys on his neck and chest.

Enjoys blowjobs and handjobs. If you edge him, he'll say you're bullying him.

Rafayel likes having you on top of him the most; on his lap as you grind on him or in cowgirl position. He'll play with your g-spot as you ride him.

Wants you to look at him while doing the deed, but he has a tendency of looking away himself since he flushes easily. He loves looking into your eyes though during and after.

He likes to kiss your face the most, and even gentle kisses with him feel passionate.

He enjoys bathing with you! Not necessarily as a sexual thing, but as a form of intimacy and comfort. It makes him feel secure and closer to you.

He's the type where you can laugh together while being intimate. You can joke and tease each other and not lose momentum!

"Hold me" ; "Please [xmultiple]" ; 'Kiss me" ; "You're everything to me" ; "You won't be able to forget me" ; "Please don't look away"

Sylus

His libido is also ???

He's not one to go out of his way to be physically affectionate with you normally, but he enjoys (and wants) you to cling onto him.

He's very dominating and loves to tease.

Sylus can go several rounds just to change positions or service a different part of you. He's a service top all around imo.

Does lots of nipple play and loves seeing you squirm with his fingers alone.

He likes to cum inside you or between your thighs.

If you gives him a blowjob or handjob, he easily begins to flush. he'll gently caress your head as you go at it.

He likes when you manhandle him a bit- holding his chin in your hand, caressing his lips, pushing his chest or hands down, things of that nature

Sylus is a biter. He particularly likes biting the side of your neck, shoulder, and between your thighs. He'll also leave hickeys on your chest and between your thighs as he nips at the skin.

He likes when you bite back- if he has you on this lap with his member inside you, he relishes the sting of you biting down on his shoulder when cumming.

He's the type to whisper sweet nothings to you, caress your head, and cup your face as he fingers or penetrates you.

He can be quite gentle when he kisses you- his kisses almost feel chaste. He'll trail kisses around your face, to your jaw, neck, and so on.

His stronger kisses are passionate- he'll nip at your lips, hold your jaw, and eventually stick his tongue in.

He enjoys having you sitting up on his lap, so he can see your face and hold onto you. He's 1000% the type to make you face him so he can see your reactions.

He also likes hitting it from the back and squeezing your thighs.

Like Zayne, he's not very vocal. Sylus just breathes and grunts lo but you can manage do get a light groan out of him if you edge him enough.

He will tease you about being too loud, telling you to keep it down- all the while pleasuring you to entice stronger reactions.

Sylus engages in sex intentionally. He doesn't always go all in, but if you're feeling horny, he's happy to entertain you with his mouth or fingers. He doesn't feel compelled to "receive" every time if he's not feeling up to it.

He'd be open to light BDSM, but I'm personally not too familiar or into it- I think he'd be open to try restraints or things of that nature, but I personally don't see him doing anything that could be potentially harmful. He wouldn't really be the type to degrade you either.

I'm thinking a gun would only be involved in the scenario where he would watch you pleasure yourself with a gun similar to that scene in Beef. iykyk lol

He'd totally use ice to stimulate you. He'd let it melt on you and rub it around just to hear your breath hitch.

He's a master of aftercare. He can go several rounds since his stamina is high, but recognizing that you're a normal person he's comfortable adapting to your limits.

He loves when you lay on his chest and rest your head on his heart. He'll often comb his fingers through your hair or simply rub your back and shoulders.

On the flipside, he'll 'allow' you to lull him to sleep if you do the same.

I imagine Sylus as quite the gentle lover overall, taking care to give you a passionate experience, and making you feel cared for.

"Good girl" ; "You're doing so well" ; "You like that?" ; "You feel so good" ; "I want you, I need you" ; "Tell me what you want" ; "Don't look away.." ; "I'm all yours / Only yours" ; "Relax, you can handle it"

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I did my best to remain true to the characters overall! I wonder if it's obvious Xavier is my favorite ₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎ I didn't want to emphasize a lot of BDSM/kink-play with Sylus, b/c even though his character is definitely freakayy compared to the rest, I'm just not interested in delving into it. Zayne's character is the hardest for me to write for since he's very reserved so I did my best ₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎ And Rafayel I am still getting to know.

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show, don't tell:

anticipation - bouncing legs - darting eyes - breathing deeply - useless / mindless tasks - eyes on the clock - checking and re-checking

frustration - grumbling - heavy footsteps - hot flush - narrowed eyes - pointing fingers - pacing / stomping

sadness - eyes filling up with tears - blinking quickly - hiccuped breaths - face turned away - red / burning cheeks - short sentences with gulps

happiness - smiling / cheeks hurting - animated - chest hurts from laughing - rapid movements - eye contact - quick speaking

boredom - complaining - sighing - grumbling - pacing - leg bouncing - picking at nails

fear - quick heartbeat - shaking / clammy hands - pinching self - tuck away - closing eyes - clenched hands

disappointment - no eye contact - hard swallow - clenched hands - tears, occasionally - mhm-hmm

tiredness - spacing out - eyes closing - nodding head absently - long sighs - no eye contact - grim smile

confidence - prolonged eye contact - appreciates instead of apologizing - active listening - shoulders back - micro reactions

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Stanislav Zhukovsky, Summer Meadow in Pobojka (c. 1938) | Mitch Welling via Twitter (2014), insp. (x)

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