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“are you finishing that or…?” ( give the poor boy food pls )

I CAN’T REMEMBER WHICH MEME OOPS | accepting regardless!

    SPRINGING UP WITH CATLIKE REFLEXES, she makes a fence around her plate with her arms– protecting her precious, precious food like a dragon protecting a treasure trove in a fairytale. While her small stature isn’t telling of how much she��s capable of eating; she isn’t one to be underestimated where food is concerned. Futaba is already attached to the aroma of the curry in front of her, envisioning the way it would taste on her tongue; the tingly, happy feeling of bliss that followed any stellar meal. When she shoots a glare in Yusuke’s direction, however, she immediately wishes that she hadn’t. Because the LOOK on his face tugs at her heartstrings; it compels her to be a good person, to be a friend.

    Under Sojiro’s roof, Futaba is well aware of how fortunate she is; well-fed, always taken care of under a watchful, fatherly eye. Food is not a luxury to be taken for granted and she knows FIRSTHAND what it’s like to curl up on the floor with hunger pains. Yusuke’s situation is not one to laugh at, not one to turn a blind eye to. Begrudgingly, her stubbornness dissipates to sympathy and quietly, she mourns the food that she’s about to give up.

     With a heavy sigh of surrender, she pushes her plate towards him. Her glare is still intact; albeit it lacks it’s usual fire. As much as she persists with her childish huffing and puffing– this FEELS like the right choice.

    ❝Hopeless Inari.❞ Futaba chides, ❝Ask Ryuji next time, okay?❞

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Justice

                                   ❆ MEME: Tarot Cards!  |   ( still accepting!! ) ❆

Justice: What’s something your muse has been dying to admit or confess?

It is less a thought he desperately wants to share but rather something which is slowly consuming his inside if he’s bearing this secret all alone, telling no one about it. And yet, at the very same time, he has no intention to share it with someone, knowing that it would only evoke pity or hurt his own pride. Yusuke had actually never been confident about his skill concerning art; not even when his view was still purer and also blind under Madarame. Naturally he enjoyed it to paint; and he also enjoyed it to study the different techniques, colors and paintings – but none of it actually also meant that he truly possessed any talent. Whilst the ‘Sayuri’ made him admire the mastery of art from a very young age on, he never actually believed to ever obtain such skill to ever create anything comparable to it. Albeit Yusuke knew that it was certainly foolish to simply measure his own talent by comparing himself to probably the world’s most valuable piece of art of the past centuries, his pride told him so nonetheless. Yet his pleasure whenever he held a brush inside his hands and also the joy he felt when accomplishing something new, creating a new piece, made him to still believe in the positive side of it.

After Madarame’s change of heart, however, his view on this also drastically changed. In the very end he became even less confident about his so-called talent; worried of losing his scholarship at any given moment. The sudden pressure and his already lacking faith in himself are not exactly helpful for him to continue, no matter how his heart truly felt. Ultimately he never feels more alive than when he was able to convert a thought, a picture onto canvas – but believing in his own abilities was quite difficult for him when all of it depended on it. In particular after learning the truth about the Sayuri – and the very fact that his mother had been the one to paint it – Yusuke started to feel responsible to carry on her heritage so that she may be able to rest in peace.

It is a silent burden he has to bear; and not wanting to let the others think that he might regret to have ever learned about the truth, he also keeps silent about this.

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                                          ❆   Yusuke’s expenses and money issues ❆

In the many years in which Yusuke had lived with his foster father Madarame, the young man was never troubled to make any living. Truthfully, he had never possessed much –particularly due to his lacking interest in anything besides the mastery of art- but he never had to  worry about the meals he had to eat or about the clothes he wore on his body. Albeit Yusuke never took much effort into choosing his clothes despite of his good looks – which he’s actually unaware of -, rarely ever wearing something unless it is extremely comfortable or appealing in some way or another, he soon found out about the dire necessity of replacing them as the season changed. Still being in his growth spurt, his old clothes are slowly becoming too small for him – and yet he had been completely unaware of this very fact before having to do the urgent math for himself.

To be precise, Yusuke had never thought much about the money he received – in the very end he had lived a very modest life just like his sensei seemingly also had – and the older man also always paid for all he wished, in particular necessary art books to continue his studies which were not part of his scholarship. He never needed a lot; especially since his own art tools and utensils were also part of his scholarship so that even his former sensei did not have to pay for his expenses later on. But all of this abruptly changed after Madarame confessed his crimes and was arrested. Naturally all of his possession was confiscated; and whilst Yusuke had been well aware since the very beginning that this also meant that he would have to leave this very place he had called home for so long, he had actually not thought about anything. That he lost the whole foundation of his life in only one day.

Knowing that his school dorms would always accept him with his skills, he had believed to easily being able to accustom himself to his new life – yet he was not. It all fall slowly apart; and realizing that the solitude he had lived in was gone forever, the young man found himself to be overwhelmed. He had usually tried to avoid his peers as much as possible – not because he necessarily found them unpleasant or even annoying but solely to keep his focus on his own studies of art – but now this had become quite impossible. In fact, he needed them even. His scholarship of art was the sole reason why he could even properly live at this point, being an orphan with no living relatives or any other supporters besides his former sensei; but it was scarcely enough to even call the life he had as such.

In the very end he never had much money left after his common expenses were paid with it; leaving only very little for food per month – let alone for anything besides it. Yusuke is well aware that he is in the dire need of a part-time job – however, due to his constant fear of losing his scholarship and lacking time due to the Phantom Thieves activities, the young man finds himself unable to make a living on his own. He could not allow to let his school grades drop; and at the same time he was also not allowed to let his his artistic improvements stagnate. Due to all of this he tried to find other solutions to keep on; for example by only eating twice a day, accepting any invite of a friend for a meal or only buying food during sales.

All of his closer friends, the group of the Phantom Thieves so to speak, are uninformed of his desperate situation, however. In the very end Yusuke had learned to be modest and even take pride in what he is doing; and the least he wanted is to become a nuisance to his friends. Instead he always tried his very best for them, giving his all during infiltrations and exploration; trying to give decent hints and advices during investigations and overall become a good asset after all they had done for him. He is not speaking openly about his financial situation; and if asked he would simply attempt to brush it off. Yet this does not mean they do not take the hints; his rushing to sales of grocery stores, his fast eating and also his hunger which can easily be heard. In the very end, all he wants is to stand on his very own feet - albeit he has to learn it the hard way first that this also meant to no longer being able to solely focus on his art. Over the months he is growing more mature and more responsible - although his habit of rather making use of his money to study his art instead of eating something proper never disappears. Their leader probably has the best idea about his situation; considering that Yusuke was sleeping over at Leblanc for only one night after his life had fallen apart. It was the time had desperately needed to calm down; and perhaps even Sojiro had noticed Yusuke’s change of heart in the morning. The heart of a young man who was determined to overcome his own shadow and facing the reality. 

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               ( I’ll publish an headcanon about Yusuke’s common issues with                  money and the reason of why once I am done with raiding.                  It makes me somehow... even sad, considering that he’s a bit                  like a lost sheep once he lost his sensei/foster father                   until he got used to it. Remember how he was moving to Akira’s                  attic for a whole night? His whole life had simply crumbled; he had                  nothing left and had to face reality for the very first time.                  He learned the lesson that he could definitely not be picky. That he                  could not avoid his peers forever like he was used to. It took him                  one night to overcome it; and starting then he’s growing stronger.                  And that by himself, and not while standing in the shadow of his                  former foster father. But nonetheless his life is quite harsh as an                  orphan and I just...??? Want to write his struggles down??                  Because he really deserves some appreciation for it. He’s not                   simply someone whose heart is seeking to become a decent artist -                  but he’s also a young man who finally travels his own path.                   And he learns so well...??? )                  

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Drabble Memes

Rain — I’ll write a fluffy drabble of our characters kissing in the rain. Kill — I’ll write a angst drabble of my character violently killing yours. Love — I’ll write a drabble of my character admitting they love yours. Lust — I’ll write a drabble of our characters making love together. Date — I’ll write a drabble of my character taking yours out on a date.   Defend — I’ll write a drabble of my character protecting yours. Fight — I’ll write a drabble of my character fighting with/against yours. Death — I’ll write a drabble of my character with yours on their deathbed. Mourn — I’ll write a drabble of my character mourning yours. Pet — I’ll write a drabble of my character buying yours a pet. (specify what kind.) Wash — I’ll write a drabble of our characters showering/bathing together. Pool — I’ll write a drabble of our characters swimming together. Beach — I’ll write a drabble of out characters at the beach together. Sing — I’ll write a drabble of my character singing to yours. Snow — I’ll write a drabble of our characters building a snowman together. Game — I’ll write a drabble of my character playing videogames with yours. Movie — I’ll write a drabble of our characters watching a movie together. Shop — I’ll write a drabble of my character taking yours shopping. Cook — I’ll write a drabble of our characters cooking together. Sleep — I’ll write a drabble of my character snuggling in bed with yours.

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               ( Now that this fandom has a Sojiro, I’ll await the day when I                  ship with a Futaba just to let him be completely reverent                  with his bow -just like he was taught-  being like this:                   Yusuke: “Please allow me to go out with your daughter.”                  Futaba: “u serious.” )

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Put a tarot card in my inbox and I'll answer the question!

The Fool: What is the stupidest thing your muse has ever done?

The Empress: What would your muse name their children?

Judgement: Would your muse ever go back to their most recent ex-lover?

The World: What has been your muse's greatest success?

The Sun: What was the happiest moment of your muse's life?

Wheel of Fortune: Does your muse believe in luck?

The Hierophant: What is one rule or law your muse would never break?

Strength: Name a time when your muse had to be strong in the face of danger or trouble.

The Star: If your muse had one wish, what would it be?

The Magician: What would your muse draw if given paper and markers?

The Emperor: Name a time your muse has broken the rules.

Death: If your muse had to change something about themselves, what would they change?

The Chariot: If your muse ruled the world, what would they change first?

The High Priestess: What is the smartest thing your muse has ever done?

Temperance: Would your muse remain calm despite the worst circumstances?

The Lovers: At what age did your muse first fall in love?

The Hermit: If your muse were trapped alone on an island, name three things they'd have to have..

The Moon: Has your muse ever had something unexplained happen to them? If so, what?

Justice: What's something your muse has been dying to admit or confess?

The Hanged Man: Name a bad habit your muse can't give up.

The Devil: What was the worst relationship your muse has ever had?

The Tower: What event would trigger your muse's breaking point?

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I swear I love the randomness that goes on in the squad chat.

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           ( -THROWS THIS IN FROM HER OTHER FANDOM-               Okay, Matthew Mercer is singing this...So...technically Yusuke. )

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Persona 5 // The Day Breakers //

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          ( WHEN YOU FIND OUT THAT MATTHEW MERCER IS YUSUKE’S             ENGLISH VOICE ACTOR. For some reason I always end up              roleplaying muses who he voice acted??? I’m...hopeless. )

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                   ❆ Small Starter Call!  | @truemedjed like’d for a small thought! ❆

                                                                   This SMELL… SWEET YET SPICY – and unique smell he could recognize even from his seat.

                                     ‘Is this…?’

INDEED…! The INSTANT RAMEN which was always sold out in the grocery store near his dorm! Ninety yen full of exploding flavors of different sorts, raising his spirits to new, unknown levels! Or at least it was supposed to be like this, considering that he did no longer know when he had last enjoyed a warm cup of ramen. In the very end he could not hope to find anything like this in the stores, mostly hoping for SALES of any kind to somehow live with the little money he had at hands.

BUT THE CURRENT SITUATION WAS CLOSE TO BE A TORTURE. Not only was his stomach slowly throwing a tantrum for him not eating anything for two days, but knowing Futaba she probably had no intention to end his SORROW as well. In the very end she had yet to ever share her meals with someone – or at least with him. Yet the young man indeed had some remaining PRIDE to not straight beg her for food; albeit he could not ignore such cruel action.

               ‘How frustrating…!                 I assume you have  n o  INTEREST                 to share your ramen with me, do you?’

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                      ❆ Small Starter Call!  | @hibiikki like’d for a small thought! ❆

                             ‘No…! That’s not it! ”

EYEBROWS FURROWED WHILE HIS GAZE still lingered on his inspirational object, a young woman dreamily holding a book in her petite hands, merely to become even more displeased about her IGNORANCE. How could she…? Moving into the wrong ankle of the sunlight so that the rays of shining bright hope no longer reached the black-leathered back of the book? The mysterious moment of the nameless face had immediately faded and the untold story of her thoughts were gone in this very moment, joining her former beauty in oblivion. What a SHAME.

PERHAPS HE SHOULD TELL HER that the enormous shadow on her face was not helpful for her to look any pleasant; but this was not what he was here for. Yet there was still the possibility that he still failed to see the truth with his very eyes despite having learned so well about this important ASPECT. No, he had to stay positive. Even then he could still take good notes of some rough sketches; but without any COOPERATION it was almost hopeless. Fortunately, however, he had invited a certain person to fill in.

                           ‘Ah…yes…                             IKKI. I need you to hold onto this for a moment.’

LETTING OUT A SMALL, MISCHIEVOUS CHUCKLE, one only meant to fuel his very own CREATIVITY, Yusuke simply held his sketchbook in front of the other’s nose.

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            ( Urgh. Our heater is not working so it’s icy cold in our apartment.               Thanks to Easter this won’t be fixed any time soon and I am still sick.               So if I’m slow it’s due to this - I’m feeling like eating dozens of               small daggers for the whole day again and I doubt it helps that I’m               freezing. I can’t properly focus on writing in English at the moment, to be honest. )

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          ( Yusuke has artist’s hands. He always makes sure that his finger nails             only reach a decent length, ensuring that they would never get into his             way when painting. Since he was taught to keep them clean ever since             being a child, his hands are quite dry for someone of his age without             any common issues with his skin. In fact he is so used to wash them             that even putting on lotion would not help to make them soft. In the very             end his hands are a tool he uses to give his paintings life; so he uses             them quite often. Therefore the tips of his fingers and in particular             those spots in which he usually holds his brushes and pencils are             hardened and rough. This being said, a touch from him would not feel            as pleasant as people would probably imagine when looking at his pale and            soft skin. However, if one took a proper glance on his right hand they would notice            that he is also separating his fingers quite unusual - due to him often holding            something with it. Overall he is extremely flexible with them unlike many.             This is indeed a great contrast to other parts of his body;  having a            rather soft skin even for a young man.              

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FASHION/APPEARANCE STATS

BOLD (applies to all verses) what applies to your muse

BODY.

Long legs. Short legs. Average legs. Slender thighs. Toned thighs. Thick thighs. Muscular thighs. Skinny arms. Toned arms. Soft arms. Muscular arms. Toned/defined stomach. Flat stomach. Flabby Stomach. Soft stomach. Six-pack. Beer belly. Lean frame. Beefy/muscular frame. Voluptuous frame. Petite frame. Lanky frame. Short nails. Long nails. Manicured nails. Dirty nails. Flat butt. Toned butt. Bubble butt. Thick butt. Thighbrows. Small waist. Thick waist. Narrow hips. Average hips. Wide hips. Big feet. Average feet. Small feet. Soft feet. Slender feet. Calloused hands. Soft hands. Big hands. Average hands. Small hands. Long fingers. Short fingers. Average fingers. Broad shoulder. Narrow shoulder. Underweight. Average weight. Overweight.

HEIGHT ( click here to convert to feet ).

Shorter than 140 cm. 141 cm-150 cm. 151 cm to 160 cm. 161 cm to 172 cm. 173 cm to 180cm. 181 cm to 190 cm. 191 cm to 2m. Taller than 2 m.

SKIN.

Pale. Rosy. Olive. Dark. Tanned. Blotchy. Smooth. Acne. Dry. Greasy. Soft.

EYES.

Small. Large. Average. Grey. Brown. Blue. Green. Gold. Hazel. Doe-eyed. Almond. Close-set. Wide-set. Squinty. Monolid. Heavy eyelids. Upturned. Downturned. Red. Black.

HAIR.

Thin. Thick. Fine. Normal. Greasy. Dry. Soft. Shiny. Curly. Frizzy. Wild. Unruly.Straight.Smooth. Wavy. Floppy. Cropped. Pixie-cut. Shoulder length. Back length. Waist length+. Buzz cut. Undercut. Bald. A bit below the jaw length. Mohawk. White. Platinum blonde. Orange blonde. Golden blonde. Redhead. Dirty blonde. Blondette. Ombre. Light brown. Mouse brown. Chestnut brown. Chocolate brown. Dark brown. Jet black. Ginger. Auburn. Copper. Dyed red. Dyed any “unnatural color” (Grey/two-toned?). Thin eyebrows.Average eyebrows. Thick eyebrows

TATTOOS / PIERCINGS.

Full sleeve. Thigh tattoo. Neck tattoo. Chest tattoo. One tattoo. A few here and there.Multiple.No tattoo. Monroe piercing. Nose piercing. Septum. Nipple piercing(s). Genital piercing(s). Industrial piercings. Earlobe piercing. Prince Albert piercing. Eyebrow piercing(s). Tongue piercing(s). Lip piercing(s). Tragus piercing. Angelbites. Labret. Stretches out ears. Navel piercing. Inverse navel piercing. Cheek piercing(s). Smiley. Nape piercing(s). No piercing.

COSMETICS.

Eyeliner. Light eyeliner. Heavy eyeliner. Cat eyes. Mascara. Fake eyelashes. Matte lipstick.Regular lipstick. Lipgloss. Red lips. Pink lips. Dark lips. Bronzer. Highlighter. Eyeshadow. Neutral eyeshadow. Smoky eyes. Colorful eyeshadow. Blush. Lipliner. Light contouring. Heavy contouring. Powder. Matte foundation. Shiny foundation. Concealer. Wears make up regularly. Wears it from time to time. Uses only light makeup. Never wears make-up.  

SCENT.

Floral. Fruity. Perfumes. Aftershave. Cocoa. Moisturizer. Shampoo. Cigarettes. Leather. Sweat. Food. Incense. Marijuana. Alcohol. Cologne. Whiskey. Wine. Fried food. Blood.

CLOTHES.

Jeans. Tight pants. Overknee socks. Tights. Leggings. Yoga pants. Pencil skirt. Tight skirt.Loose skirt. Tight/formfitting dress. Cardigans. Blouse. Button up shirt. Band-T-shirt. Sports T-shirt. Sweatpants. Tank top. Fur. Faux fur. Leather. Designer. High street. Online stores.Thrift. Lingerie. Long skirt. Miniskirt. Maxidress. Sun dress. Tie. Tuxedo. Cocktail dress. Highslit dress (business events). T-shirt. Loose clothing. Tight clothing. Jean shorts. Sweater. Sweater vest. Khaki pants. Suit. Hoodie. Harem pants. Basketball shorts. Crop top. Corset. Ballerina skirt. Leotard. Polka dot. Stripes. Glitter. Silk. Lace. Leather. Velvet. Chemise. Patterns. Florals. Neon colors. Pastels. Black. Dark colors. Uniform.

SHOES.

Sneakers. Slip-ons. Flats. Slippers. Sandals. High heels. Kitten heels. Ankle boots.Combat boots. Knee-high. Platforms. Stripper heels. Barefeet. Loafers. Oxfords. Gladiator shoes.

tagged by: @diamondkaito

tagging: !! whoever still wants to do this!