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for me, having a special interest in music is half organic and half “my father also has a special interest in music and i needed a way to connect with him since he does not know how to talk about anything else”

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I don't care what your perception of the female body has been warped into by the media and advertising prevalent in culture. eat some goddamn carbs

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Trying to write realistic dialogue from deeply religiously indoctrinated characters is so tricky because like. I can't let this conversation in this book go in a circle for 20 pages but I also know for a fact how these people operate and that they don't genuinely engage with valid points. But I need them to engage with the points and not just keep repeating stuff because that's boring as hell to read.

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the author's barely disguised hobbies and interests

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in all seriousness it's very alienating knowing theres Something Wrong With You. like seeing your mental illness come through in your behaviour and thought processes and knowing it's irrational and unhealthy, knowing other people are reading you as weird or stupid, and not being able to do anything about it is such a lonely experience

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often the choice comes down to eat a meal and shower or kill yourself

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sometimes rereading your old writing is like having a cinematic reunion with an old friend by the sea and sometimes rereading your old writing is like pulling teeth and what they don't tell you is that sometimes these are both true for the same piece of writing

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Recently got to dispell the 'Men have less ribs than women' myth for my catholic-raised partner and it still baffles me that that's even a thing. Those fckers straight up lied to us about human biology and they keep getting away with it

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'what do we do now?'

Same thing you did before. Keep moving. Evaluate your risk, make your safety plans. Have a bug-out bag (you can find lists for them online pretty easy), and some money saved if you can. Lean into your communities, find volunteer opportunities, talk to your loved ones about your priorities over the next few years.

But most of all? Stay alive. By all means necessary. Frame it however you have to in your own mind- As an act of resistance, as an act of joy. But keep breathing. We need you. If you do absolutely nothing these next four years besides stay alive that will be enough. Because the next generation needs queer elders. They need disabled advocates and climate activists and everything else. They need us to do whatever we can for them.

So what do you do now?

Same thing you did before. Live. Now come on. Let's get going.

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So I recently had to get some medical records from a psych facility I stayed in and under my diagnoses they listed 'unemployment' which made me laugh my ass off. Like bro not only are you crazy you don't even have a JOB

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being a writer leads to a genuinely helpful but also very stupid kind of mindfulness where you'll be having a sobbing breakdown or the worst anxiety attack of your life and think "okay, I really need to pay attention to how this feels. so I can incorporate it into my fanfiction."

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Waiter oh waiter more salt in my wound please!!!

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"Time loop stories as an allegory for grief" is great and all but love love love when a time loop is entirely self-inflicted and it quickly becomes apparent it's a sort of anxiety disorder driven savior complex.

C'mon, save 'em all. You're the only one who can. :D

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election so bad you made my chemical romance wake up

[vaguely-human-man]

better keep a close eye on that wandering ravenous beast you call a heart