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Being off my meds is so fun (in the most sarcastic sense) will I write literally my magnum opus spawned from my hyper awareness or will I crash out and knock down the carefully constructed gentle and ethical personality to express every bullshit extent of my desire knowing that it can never go 100% my way without being incredibly uncomfortable for everyone else, maybe I was built to be loved from far enough away that no one can tell the paint has lead in it

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yeah…

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We are a very very dumb, stupid people

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obsessed with jean’s colorful insults/descriptions so here’s a compiled list of them in order

you arrogant fool (abby)

you imbecile (kevin)

your ball-battered brain (kevin)

you feckless child (kevin)

those clowns (trojans)

pet goalkeeper (andrew)

the tiny bastard (neil) [LMFAO]

kevin’s pet monster (andrew)

the sunshine court [derogatory]

wholesome in an unsettling, unhealthy way (the trojans)

unhinged optimist (renee)

some plump shrink (bee)

that creepy little goalkeeper andrew minyard [PLEASE i was fucking DEAD he has no idea how funny he is]

you tedious malcontent (neil) [probably my favorite one]

an abominable cockroach (neil)

the wayward child (neil) [jesus christ he is not taking it easy on neil]

andrew’s twin

worthless trash bags (foxes, past tense)

a rabid little fox (neil) [hey. remember when neil described andrew as a ‘rabid goalkeeper’ ???]

annoyingly easy to look at (jeremy)

strange and misguided (the trojans)

the cruelty of these nonstop temptations (kevin, renee, jeremy)

the sunshine court [less derogatory]

“I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.” (lucas)

wretched beast (gr****n)

your ignorant mouth (lucas)

“Your apologies are as useful as perfume on a frog.” (lucas)

neil, being the person he was,

you ignorant child (neil)

miserable wretch (neil) [giving his everything to neil’s insults]

ok that’s all. unless i missed some. and if i did you have to add them it’s just law

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Every day I fight the autistic urge to forcibly explain my point until they understand

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People on twitter “omg I hope one day we get an Andrew pov.” I actually don’t want that ever bc I’m pretty sure I’ll drive my car to a lake and put a brick on the gas pedal

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Schedule won’t allow me to go to Renaissance Festival this year and I feel very normal about it

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I am such a chill person until the joking conversation turns even a little serious. The moment I cannot tell if we’re just being silly I start tweaking.

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Neil josten would take 2nd place for the first time playing the found family avoidance Olympics with me

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Being a part of a found family and picking your friend up when your flakier friend bales

Being a part of a found family and sitting in the same room doing separate actions

Being in a found family and being pissed off at them but staying because you’ve put them there before

Being a found family and learning their routines

Being in a found family and having family struggles and family beef

Being in a found family and talking about something at length and looking over to see them still smiling

Being in a found family and being asked clarifying questions

Being in a found family and never worrying that your interest is too niche to be cherished

Being in a found family and making dinner outside the dining hall

Being a found family and planning dinner in the dining hall

Being in a found family and talking over dinner

Being in a family and sitting quiet over dinner

Being in a found family and being asked what’s wrong in a million different ways,

From “what’s wrong?” To “I got you Pepsi,” to “🐛”

Being in a found family and seeing the healing happen in real time

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It sure don’t matter who it’s with, I’ll believe that Kevin is poly before I believe he’s strictly monogamous heterosexual (obviously he’s got a complicated grasp on his sexuality that reflects the complex trauma he’s experienced why else am I reading the books)

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sometimes I wish aftg were real because I know watching Kevin day switch his racquet to his left hand during the championship game would've felt like doing 10 lines of cocaine

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Mmmmm thinking about

“You’ve got that look on your face again.”

“My bad, I told you I’d get better at hiding it.”

…

“You know, sitting out on the back steps hitting your vape isn’t gonna fix whatever South End did to you. You’re gonna have to let me hear about it one of th-“

“It’s not even- it’s not about that. Not mostly”

“Then what is it about?”

“Can’t a guy just keep his cool mystique?”

“Seldom do men like that make lifelong connections, Star Slayer. Slayer of stars, if that even is your real name.”

“It is-“

“Of course it isn’t, no parent in their right mind would name their child Star Slayer. Someone in my sociology class told me your name is Emmett.”

…

“Are you a nic man, Emmett? Or is that THC in the little-holder-doodad?”

“Is that the scientific term?”

“‘Course it is.”

“It’s nic. I started at 16 and I really shouldn’t have. Too bad a fiend to quit now.”

“So what were you thinking of, then? If not the guys from your hometown?”

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It’s actually never too late to fake my death and move to a different state

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Real picture of me rn learning that me and my sister have the same fear of losing our resemblance to our mother in our growth and change