untoldstoriesofoneself

[untoldstoriesofoneself]

[untoldstoriesofoneself]

16th April 2017 Dear friend, I think there is a quote like too much cheff spoils the dish. Just like that, im getting spoiled inside my head. At least 5-8 people personalities are there inside my head right now. I have no idea what to do and what not to. You would probably say, follow your heart, but how can follow when all these 5-8 people inside my head is me itself? How can I choose? Brain? One brain against 5 hearts? Nah! Brain losses. So back to Square 1. Now you may say "Talk to someone about it" and the question of with whom should I talk about it? I don't want to talk with someone who judge. There are around 5-8 people judging inside my head already. I don't need any more people. I don't want anyone who sit silent and doesn't respond. How can it help if the other person is stone silent? How can it help me to decide or remove confusion? Then there is one (type of) person with whom I can talk - the Godfather type. Whom I follow​ and or whose decision or ideas I consider as mine. But I don't have anyone like that! Anyone who knows exactly or did exactly what I'm doing? Nope. None. So back to square 1. These thoughts are actually shaping my mind and personality. I am writing in a time that i started to feel that I'm becoming a different person all together. Is it normal? I don't know. Perhaps its that way it is. Its the pain of another you forming inside your head. What if I don't like the new me? What if chose one heart and it ends me up with the Wrong me? Why do I am having theses thoughs/phases again and again? Why is life a infinite loops of repetition? I started to feel like the hobbies I had already started to leave me. Hobbies like making friends going out talking photos was actually less since I started to work, but it was there. Now I feel like I'm unable to Frame and think as smart as i used to. I don't know where it's going to end. But the only thing I know that I might be able to change my own fate. All I need to know which direction I should steer it. Hope I will find like in this dark tunnel. With love Jishnu Vediyoor

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you might not have been my first love but you were the love that made all the other loves irrelevant

rupi kaur; milk and honey (via qntidote)

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Good people are like candles; they burn themselves up to give others light.

Turkish Proverb (via quotemadness)

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In not sure what's happening with me nowadays. Either I lost my charm ( if I had any ) or its a part of growing up. I like to be around creative people and influencers. I think I always wanted to be a person who promote and bring new talents. But now, I feel like I lost that fire inside me

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You don’t forget the people once you’ve truly loved them, it never works out that way, you maybe old and may have forgotten your own number but you would still remember them. What you do is; You try to focus on other things, you try to stay away from memories or things that remind you of them, they stay inside you as a tiny heartbeat as time passes by instead of the ache waiting to explode. You never forget you just try to not remember.

Kriti.G @kriti-g (via sixwordssayitall)

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Rest your eyes. Rest your mind. Rest your heart, and your soul.

Sleep. Heal.

Begin again tomorrow.

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Ease your soul here

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Ease your soul here

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Nobody

Sometime I feel sad about all this. I'm not even sure if my existence is known to many people. My phone or news is never been published anywhere. I have never been loved. I have never been a first choice of anyone. I won no awards no birthday cards. I feel like I'm a proof that no matter how crowded you stand, you still can be alone.

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Ease your soul here

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One of my all time favourite scenes. Exhibited at the Embassy Tea Gallery, London 2015. Photography by Frederick Ardley

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