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After my shift ended, I was starving and craving my favorite beef burger. I opened the ordering app, only to discover that my favorite restaurant seemed to have disappeared. My heart sank, and my disappointment was immeasurable. I realized that the last time I had the burger might have been my final time, without even knowing it. There was a dull ache in my stomach, probably more from hunger than sadness, but the pain was real.

Then I realized I had selected the wrong location. After fixing it, I was relieved to find that my favorite restaurant—and my beloved burger—were still there.

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"A steadfast heart stands unshaken by life's trials, for only shallow roots are torn by the storm."

Stress

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I've always dreamed of drawing and painting. When did I lose the motivation? When was that last time I set down my pencil, thinking I’d pick it up again but never did? There are so many vivid dreams waiting within me, ready to take shape on paper—through words or brushstrokes, they need to be released. I'm going to start again, and I know it will be beautiful.

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In retrospect, everything becomes clearer. You didn’t know any better while you were navigating those experiences, you had to figure things out as you walked the path. It’s only now, with a broader perspective, that you can fully understand it all. So, don’t be too hard on yourself. Instead of feeling upset for being naïve then, take pride in the maturity you’ve gained now.

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There was a time when I wanted to give it all up. I was tired of reading, tired of studying. The pursuit of knowledge, once so fulfilling, became exhausting. I used to love books. I had stacks upon stacks, so many that I’d use them as weights for my workouts, since my dorm didn’t have a gym nearby. But one day, it all started to feel so redundant—so meaningless.

I just wanted to escape.

It wasn’t until I found myself in a situation where I couldn’t diagnose a patient, couldn’t recall a vital piece of information, that I realized how wrong I had been. I shouldn’t have stopped. I should’ve kept reading, even if it was just one line a day.

Now, I’m back on track, and when a day passes where I haven’t learned something new, it leaves me feeling empty.

Knowledge is a delicate thing. You take one step away from it, and it leaves you ten steps behind.

And if I feel this way about worldly knowledge, I can only imagine how much I’m missing by not reading and truly understanding the Qur’an. May Allah guide me to deepen my understanding of His religion, more than ever before.

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A helpless boy who grew up dreaming of becoming a man. Now that he is a man, he can’t seem to stop being that boy. He was told to enjoy life, to take things as they came, that there would always be time to grow up. But he always felt the urge to grow up faster than anyone else, to chase the next big milestone in life. And now, as he looks around, he sees everyone running around, clueless of where they are going or what they are striving for. It frightens him because he’s still trying to make sense of it all. He’s struggling to keep up—with everyone, with everything. He longs for guidance, for someone to show him the right path.

But perhaps no one has it figured out. Maybe they’re just pretending. Perhaps the beauty lies in carving your own road. The freedom to create your own path comes at a cost—the weight of having to pave that road yourself. And maybe that’s better than the suffocating feeling of being a puppet, living someone else’s dream.

I guess I’m grateful to be alive, for the blessings I’ve been given. The opportunities I’ve had for a good life are simply astonishing. Compared to many, I’ve lived a life of privilege. So, I’m not complaining. I’m just trying to figure out how to be better—so I can give back what I’ve been given, and then some.

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my grandmother just passed away. Keep her in your duas.

Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajioon

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At the beginning of the conflict, I expressed my concern to my professor, who was from the region. I told him I wanted to contribute and help in some way. He replied, "Don't worry. You don't need to go to Gaza; it will come to you. It will reach every doorstep of this Ummah because the doors have been shut for too long."

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I've realized that I can't remember the last time I was bored. I've felt upset, regretful, and sad, but boredom has never been part of it. Since childhood, I've learned to live contentedly with myself; there’s always something to explore within. I used to daydream a lot, and time would slip by without me even noticing.

Today, I felt upset again, as if something from the past tugged at my shirt, but then the sunlight touched my hand—an invisible presence, yet so warm. I still don't understand how people get bored. It’s something I don't get it at all.

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The knots in my heart have been slowly untying. If this continues, I might finally remember what it feels like to be free.

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I've been meaning to abandon the internet. It feels like I accidentally walked into a house and have been stuck inside for a long time. Every time I try to leave, something distracts me and pulls me back. I know stepping away would be good for me, but there's an invisible force keeping me here. I just want to leave and never return.

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It's interesting how lucid dreams can expose your deepest desires or reveal parts of yourself you've been ignoring for a long time. You might try to convince yourself to believe in something or adopt a certain idea, but when you're in a state where you're not fully in control of your surroundings or actions and yet you are aware of them, you may see yourself differently. In that moment, you might get a glimpse of what you truly want and how you've really felt all along.