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[unlearninglove]

Endless gratuity and hospitality,

I will offer the world to my most loyal guest

The hotel of my heart, but a stop on your quest.

You once told me I'm not very witty

Or pretty, or nice

Those might not have been lies

But as your visit came to an end

I could only pretend

To care about what you have said

I checked you out and read

Your review of the stay

"2/5, too far away"

[unlearninglove]

Don't panic

All these feelings are organic

Boneless scraps of empty promises

Free-range thoughts nobody misses

Meat from a happy cow

As I am now

Fully content with the illusion of life

[unlearninglove]

I saw glimpses of sunshine on the other side

And thought of all the smiles we could have had

If only I knew the rules by which you abide

Maybe it all wouldn't have been so bad

I let you in close and trusted, and cared

Was it all worth it for the memories we shared?

You seem to forget what kind of person I am

I may be forgiving, but now I hardly give a damn

You lead my heart astray

Looked into my eyes and with full conviction

Left me to become a stray

I just wish heartbreak was a thing of fiction

[unlearninglove]

What are friends

If not a relation that ends

Is the anguish I'm feeling

Making me more unappealing?

As a friend or a lover?

Because I don't think I can ever recover

The bitterness of betrayal,

Even if just my mind's warped portrayal

Of what really happened

Could it really be the end?

[unlearninglove]

Oh Mister Winter, that's pretty cold of you

To not share your jacket even if you didn't want to

Mister Frozen-hearted, how bold of you

To reject my offer of a cup of tea or two

I've invited myself to melt down your walls

Free you from this self-imposed jail

What you see everyday is not hail

Just parts of a wall willing to tear away

Wanting to fall just like snow falls

On a winter day

The distance you've created around yourself

Is less of heaven and more of man-made hell

It's only natural for it to occur, well

One only wants to keep to oneself

You can warm your ice old fingers in my hand

And together we can wait for your misery to end

Let me just brush the stray snowflakes from your hair

All the warmth you could've needed was always right there

[unlearninglove]

The silence can only be broken with a sigh

Without you, I can’t do anything, but cry

Nothing in life will ever be the same

What once was love quickly pain became

  I could never deal with love afresh

As you said happiness I will never gain

All I will do will be in vain

And the Word was made flesh

  Do forgive me all the pain you went through

On your own accord

Half-truths, you swore weren’t lies to the Lord

  Neither of us will ever know peace

As we have both fallen

Thinking love was bliss

Lives forever solemn