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Things always get lost in my bed I just had to frantically pat search for my chapstick like it was a vape

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Fart

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Also I promise this isn't me being manic or crazy and delusional, I just have very strong feelings and I love expressing them, I hope he loves that part of me too

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I am indeed going to bed now though! I miss him and want to be up in the morning to text him :3 goodnight Tumblr, sorry I haven't been able to gush like that in a while.

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Hello Tumblr!! I really wish I didn't have a stupid mental illness that makes me overreact to literally everything so I could be normal and stuff but like I really enjoy the moments that aren't messed up by me being silly, though sometimes some really good moments can come out of those!! So it's very strange, but I'm very happy to be who I am despite it all. I wrote a poem today for the first time in a while, because past me made a poem when I had a different favorite person and now that I'm more mentally stable I can realize that poem didn't accurately portrait my feelings, it did show how delusional I was at the time though!!! It was a very rough period of my life and I really thought I was in love with someone when in reality I genuinely wasn't, which seems weird to say now because it's like well how do I know now but not then??? I know what love feels like now, and it isn't suffocating and unsettling, it's reassuring and cozy and sweet and I really feel like I'm in the presence of a warm light when I'm around him. I feel like im being held by an angel, and that's not me putting him on some bpd favorite person pedestal! He's not just my favorite person he is my boyfriend and he first and foremost really is the love of my life. I feel so welcomed by him and accepted and I know he loves me, and he loves all of me. It is genuinely insane to me how I have the pleasure of being with someone so truly special, I can see that he has "flaws" but even saying that he does feels wrong because they're so normal and I genuinely don't think there is a single part of him that I cannot love, its like I've gotten to see his soul and I've been able to love that too. But I know I haven't seen all of him, and he hasn't seen all of me, I can't wait to explore each other and the world together. I love love love my boyfriend 💙

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I'm hoping that nothing's wrong between us please

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I just wrote for not even a long time but my thumb is hurting SO bad. Like so bad wtf

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I wish I had tattooable eyes 😞

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It's our 5 months today super epic milestone :3 (ik it's not a big deal I just love the number 5 and love him way more :3)

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me when my boyfriends literally like an ethereal goddess of a man but also just a boy I love him so muhc

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Learning about basic hygiene things at 17 is kinda insane and extremely embarrassing help

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gojblow scatoru

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I wish I could put a bag on my head and live like that

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are you kidding me his bald ass is busted in a day

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I'm curious--how do you guys go about creating your OCs?

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Like I can recognize that people are attractive but I'm just not attracted to them at all and dear LORD PLEASE have that be how he is as well please oh my god

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I'm just hoping he's like me ya know and can't be attracted to other people now that he's dating, like I REALLY really hope so I know that's unrealistic expectations but im never ever asking him that bc im staying blissfully unaware and just assuming he's like me okay