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❤️ Happy Holidays, Cubs ❤️

It has been a tumultuous year for us. I’ve said from the beginning of 2024 that my family - kiddo, husband and I - have our health and we have each other, which we couldn’t ask for more. But when you have older and elderly parents, times can start to look different, the norm has become a new landscape that we’re still navigating. 2025 is looking to help settle our situation down, and we can see the light at the end of this long and arduous tunnel.

That being said, I have one final story to share to wrap up 2024.

Learning to Walk II - preview chapter is live on AO3 ❤️ I can’t thank you all enough for the attention and love you’ve shown this story. Over 111k words, 11 chapters and nearly 11 months of dedication - 1s and 11s are lucky numbers for me ❤️ I have a lot to share with this story in 2025. Part II will start posting in early 2025.

On another note: I mentioned before while writing Donuts & Coffee that working with modern AU characters is sometimes tricky. The tone of the stories is much different from the tone of post-apocalyptic story. There has to be a balance between the canon characters we love and the modern story that I want to tell.

I have not abandoned “am i the one” - in fact I have several chapters outlined and partially written, but the tone of the characters is escaping me right now as I long to focus on LtW. Much like the break I took with D&C, I just need a break from it until their voices return and I can tell the story. Thank you, always, for your patience and kindness.

I’m taking the rest of the year off to spend the holidays with family, do a little traveling with kiddo and husband, and plan to return to a writing routine after January 6th - when kiddo returns to school. My asks and DMs will be open, I just may be slow to respond! I wish you and yours a Happy Holiday Season and a Happy New Year!

💜 See you in 2025! 💜

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Sweet anon cub, I hope you’re still here reading this - we’d love to talk more, even through anon asks! Don’t be a stranger - oh, hey @olldtimerbuckley see what I did there? 😉😏

Hey Mama Bear, I just need to vent. I'm so afraid of doxxing. I'm afraid that even if I make separate accounts, people I know in the fandom will still find me, and it's just hard. 😭 I just want to write the fics I want to write!

Hi, sweet cub. I can understand this, empathize with this, and it’s complex and it’s disheartening.

Doxxing is nothing to joke about, people can be mean and dangerous and vindictive or just plain crazy. In fandom there are different ways to dox other members of the fandom.

I suspect that you write or interact under one pen name, but want to write in another part of the fandom - like the forbidden ship - but are afraid that your writing style will be recognized and people will point that out, make the connection and out you. You would not be the first person to have multiple personas in a fandom, it’s literally how people write what they want to write - hell, famous authors do it all the time. However, in fandom it can be devastating for a writer if someone outed them and destroyed their reputation on both platforms! Over the summer, when there were writers in the TLOU/Pedro fandom that were being outed and shamed for what they wrote, I was shocked when I saw some writers that I like shaming other writers for certain tropes, kinks, etc. That is a whole other topic of venting and ranting.

The other way you might fear being doxxed is your pen name being brought into the real world. This is the one thing that holds me back from getting close to other writers, readers, etc. This is the reason I have limited my social media interactions over the past year - I’m afraid someone will put the pieces together and hate what I write about enough to reveal who I am. This can be understandably terrifying for anyone.

If you wanted to dip your toes in another fandom or ship, I would suggest staying off social media with your second pen name. Make an email address that’s exclusive for that name, and get an ao3 account that’s dedicated strictly to that email address - if you try to use one email for multiple pen names, ao3 will clump them together and all of your pseuds will listed. You need a second email in order to stay anonymous. I personally don’t trust the anonymous collection because I don’t know who controls it.

AO3 is a much more diverse and welcoming community than any other fandom platform. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen straight up hate in comments. Now, this is also assuming the writer isn’t deleting hate comments, but I guess that’s another issue. You, of course, can filter comments and lock your stories or block anonymous comments. There are plenty of ways to protect yourself on ao3 as opposed to social media platforms.

Sweet cub, don’t be a stranger - even if it’s just anon asks, come back to continue this discussion. My DMs are also open, and your identity would be safe with me.

To anyone reading this who isn’t the anon cub, I welcome more feedback and suggestions for this ask. We don’t want people to shy away from writing what they love, but we also need to protect each other and suggestions are encouraged and welcome.

The rest of you know the rules: antis, bullies and harassment won’t be tolerated.

I have spoken.

🫶🏻

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Did I laugh way too hard at this? Yes.

Where is the lie though?

Between the wannabe cowboy Miller brothers and the feral knife child, Maria holds any and all brain cells

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Eyes up, cubs.

Learning to Walk is officially a series on ao3!

The original story, which is now part 1, also has a new title: Never Worse But Never Better remains live and complete on ao3.

Look for updates soon: a preview chapter will be posted soon. Yay for my beta reader looking it over. There will be some detail changes in Part 1, nothing that changes the main storyline, just details to the mountain cabin/house where Joel was living in Chapter 1, and is mentioned throughout the story. I will make mention of changes here and in Part 2.

I’m excited to start sharing the next part of Joel and Ellie’s adventure with you, starting with a preview chapter to celebrate 10k hits on Part 1.

Coming soon!

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Cubs, Mama Bear is crying this morning - tears of joy and gratitude and just this overwhelming feeling of belonging and community and just overwhelming goodness. It’s a lot and I wasn’t sure I was going to be able to see it when it flipped, but here it is.

After less than a year, y’all have helped “Learning to Walk” reach 10,000 hits. This is so incredible, and words are just failing me. Now listen, I understand what this means - it means that there has been at least mild curiosity 10,000 times since it was first posted. Nothing like this has happened with my other stories and this one… this one is different. And I honestly didn’t think it would take off like it did!

The initial concept of this story was born during November 2023 while I was struggling to write another story. Reading “Flying to Wyoming” also planted the seed for this concept: what if Joel met Ellie when she was a little older. In FtW, Joel internally comments several times that he wished she was just a little younger so he’d never look at her, or just a little older so he wouldn’t feel overwhelming guilt when he looked at her.

Enter the first chapters of LtW. 16-year-old Ellie escapes the burning Denver QZ and seeks refuge in an abandoned radio station in Wyoming. She’s recused by Joel who’s been living in the mountains outside of Jackson, trying to escape his own problems.

111k words and nine months later and LtW has turned into a multi part series that I’m planning to resume in early 2025. And with that in mind, I also want to celebrate LtW’s 10k hits!

I’m currently writing a portion of a chapter from the second story that I’m going to share as a sneak peek in the coming days. It will give a glimpse into Joel and Ellie’s lives as they navigate their future while living in and repairing Joel’s mountain cabin. Joel is helping Ellie while she struggles with her PTSD, Ellie is trying to move on from her attack, and a visitor comes to the mountains as winter fades to spring.

Thank you all for reading, loving and commenting on this story. I have loved sharing it with you as well as discussing my writing process and analyzing the characters and plot along the way. I hope you’re ready for more because another adventure is coming!

🫶🏻

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The algorithm is algorithiming today with these writing memes

The eight stages of writing :

- this is awesome

- this is slightly less awesome

- this is shit

- I’m shit

-oh god oh fuck what the hell am I doing

-wait this might not be that bad actually

- How the fuck is this working

-This is awesome

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Something I’ve learned - and try to pass on to other writers: you write for yourself, and about 6 others. Everything beyond that is whipped cream on the spicy sundae.

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"Would anyone want to read --" Listen, imma stop you right there. Yes. YES, someone would want to read that. You write that weird little fucked up story. Or that domestic little slice of life story. That drabble or that 300k monster.

I promise someone wants to read it.

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And yet somehow, it eventually comes together - just not now… not today.

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Hey Mama Bear, I just need to vent. I'm so afraid of doxxing. I'm afraid that even if I make separate accounts, people I know in the fandom will still find me, and it's just hard. 😭 I just want to write the fics I want to write!

Hi, sweet cub. I can understand this, empathize with this, and it’s complex and it’s disheartening.

Doxxing is nothing to joke about, people can be mean and dangerous and vindictive or just plain crazy. In fandom there are different ways to dox other members of the fandom.

I suspect that you write or interact under one pen name, but want to write in another part of the fandom - like the forbidden ship - but are afraid that your writing style will be recognized and people will point that out, make the connection and out you. You would not be the first person to have multiple personas in a fandom, it’s literally how people write what they want to write - hell, famous authors do it all the time. However, in fandom it can be devastating for a writer if someone outed them and destroyed their reputation on both platforms! Over the summer, when there were writers in the TLOU/Pedro fandom that were being outed and shamed for what they wrote, I was shocked when I saw some writers that I like shaming other writers for certain tropes, kinks, etc. That is a whole other topic of venting and ranting.

The other way you might fear being doxxed is your pen name being brought into the real world. This is the one thing that holds me back from getting close to other writers, readers, etc. This is the reason I have limited my social media interactions over the past year - I’m afraid someone will put the pieces together and hate what I write about enough to reveal who I am. This can be understandably terrifying for anyone.

If you wanted to dip your toes in another fandom or ship, I would suggest staying off social media with your second pen name. Make an email address that’s exclusive for that name, and get an ao3 account that’s dedicated strictly to that email address - if you try to use one email for multiple pen names, ao3 will clump them together and all of your pseuds will listed. You need a second email in order to stay anonymous. I personally don’t trust the anonymous collection because I don’t know who controls it.

AO3 is a much more diverse and welcoming community than any other fandom platform. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen straight up hate in comments. Now, this is also assuming the writer isn’t deleting hate comments, but I guess that’s another issue. You, of course, can filter comments and lock your stories or block anonymous comments. There are plenty of ways to protect yourself on ao3 as opposed to social media platforms.

Sweet cub, don’t be a stranger - even if it’s just anon asks, come back to continue this discussion. My DMs are also open, and your identity would be safe with me.

To anyone reading this who isn’t the anon cub, I welcome more feedback and suggestions for this ask. We don’t want people to shy away from writing what they love, but we also need to protect each other and suggestions are encouraged and welcome.

The rest of you know the rules: antis, bullies and harassment won’t be tolerated.

I have spoken.

🫶🏻

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THE scene 💔

THE LAST OF US TV show 1.06 “Kin” | video game

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The essence of the forbidden ship

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I feel attacked

There’s no lie, but it still hurts 😵‍💫

me as a writer

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JFC @olldtimerbuckley - why does he stare like that? Like, sir. I cannot with him, look at him glaring like… “hi big boy? Oh, what you don’t like that? Fuck, I’ll do whatever you want.” 😵‍💫😵‍💫 fucking game makers.

I can take him (not in a fight)

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@olldtimerbuckley - I have thoughts. I can’t write them, but I have thoughts 🤭😉

I can take him (not in a fight)

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Girl dinner

@elliespuns

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Because I am up WAY PAST my bedtime watching the final show of the Eras Tour - here’s a “fun” fact:

The Eras Tour kicked off March 17, 2023 which was 5 days after we saw the season 1 finale of TLOU. 👀

We’ve been waiting for season 2 so long that the ENTIRE Eras Tour took place since the season finale and the tour’s been going on for 21 months.

I’m going to bed now 😭

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Oh dear god, he’s a mess. That freaking neck and that peek of his bicep. I’m on the floor 🫠🫠

PEDRO PASCAL as LUCIEN DE LEON The Uninvited (2024)

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When I say episode 1 rewrote the code in my brain - this is what I’m talking about.

This man. Right here. This man right here.