tvehyun

[tvehyun]

*insert here teletubbies ending theme song*

so .. i’m not quite emotional, but i’m emotional rn and u can’t judge me for real !! short story .. u’all know i’m a five year old ( i have a feeling i say this in every ooc post i made, but it’s so accurate ) so living by myself turn out in a disaster and i’m back at my parents home has a few weeks, actually. that’s why i was so inactive the past days. it’s another country, another culture, i’m trying to adjust myself @ uni again, etc, etc. but i’m struggling, to say at least. right now, the last time i took a nap was 24h ago :// BUT I’M OKAY, now i’m okay. but i’m having to do this so :// not everything’s perfect. i tried to keep going but i’m feeling like i’m holding back on something and this, the rp thing, is a good thing until it start being a burden. so i’m dropping taehyun, but i really wanna to say THANK YOU because in these months i felt so welcomed and so appreciated regardless the time i came here and i never felt this way in any other group i joined. u guys are really a family, u don’t judge, u support and that’s awesome !! i’m so sorry for the plots i’m leaving behind, but i loved all them. every one of them. and i’m glad I could be here. anyway .. my kkt is @ 96khyun if you want to find me.

i wanted to say a special thank you to @artisvn @cjihve @ephemeralshq @yoo-junsun @mcnkyos @bbyji @txxil because any time i logged in here you guys put a big smile on my face and i’ll never forget that. you did so much for me and i’m really flattered that i could have meet such special souls like yours :’)

stay hydrated fam & don’t forget that i lov u all ♡

[tvehyun]

c j i h v e

———   「 ✿ 」      “ well, if the kids say you look like a rabbit, then it must be true … i don’t make the rules, ” retorts the teacher. her tone is light, reminiscent to that of her favorite clouds adorning seoul’s bluest sky. she glances upwards, eyes peeled from the snack situated between them and it doesn’t take long before her body beings to dance, shoulders bouncing with a giggle of her own. she offers a silent ‘ thank you ’ to her mother above ( it’s a thing she does whenever she’s in the company of her best friend, and every night when she prays ). not only does taehyun  c o m p l e t e  her, he’s also responsible for helping her grow into the person she is today — she owes a lot to the orange-haired male seated with her. how was she ever to pay it all back ? it’s a question she’s still trying to answer, but for now, she’s decided annoying him until the end of time is a great place to start. “ you’re going to give me more cavities than a million of these muffins with how sweet you are, stop~ ! i love you more than life. ” hands are brought to either side of jihye’s face, a flush warming her fingertips and she brightens at his proposition. it’s an idea she’s always entertained, until she was blessed with a roommate of her own. “ can that really become a thing ? ” excitement drips from every word, “ i mean, not right now, because i have laon at home with me and i love him too much to just leave, but as soon as he grows tired of me or moves on to a place of his own, i’d be willing to become your roomie that evening ! ” hands are clasped before her, eyelashes kissing the top of her cheeks every time she flutters her doe eyes. “ i’d love to really be stuck at your side ! ”

             time brought the answer that junsun and jihye were the o n l y things he really needed on his side. to someone who had spent untiring long two years wandering around with no direction, looking for something he didn't know what it was --- having two people who were PERFECT to fill him almost filled the heart of taehyun with just joy. and it did, though. knowing that he had gone around the country, almost from end to end and had found the two so close seemed to be almost s u r r e a l; but he had learned that things came with the time they had to come, and that eventually all the lines would make sense no matter how many messy they were ( it was a thought he wanted to believe, but he didn't ). ‘ are you really making that dumb question? ’ so it was obvious that the allusion of being one day with his two favorite people in the world would be WONDERFUL. not that taehyun was spending enough time with the children he cared to have the fantasy of a perfect world, but sharing the same house with his two best friends just sounded like the s a f e s t thing he'd ever heard. ‘ aish, seriously !! i'll get you some milk and leave you wondering how unnecessary this question was, miss, ’ though his eyes narrowed toward her, he had a tone of amusement in his voice. tae got in line to make his new request, wasting time looking around and was already going to try to get jihye attention when he saw it. his mouth went dry immediately and it was as if the whole world had been silenced around him. the woman with a child on her lap while flipping through a magazine on the table had the s a m e face of the woman in all his dreams since taehyun had understood that she would never return to his side. the child, a girl clearly, who played with a piece of cake seemed O B L I V I O U S to the fact that she was taking his place. a place that had once been his. it was all he needed at that moment, apparently. the needed point to push him once and for all to what seemed to be the bottom of the can in his memories, a place locked in seven keys that he wouldn't allow himself to open. not there, though. not when those memories were right there in front of him and she didn't seem to mind his presence. she had n e v e r cared. when he returned to the table he shared with jihye, he was AWARE of his own appearance. the face should be blank as well as the fingers that clenched into fists on the side of his body --- tae was making the biggest effort in the world to just not c o l l a p s e right there. ‘ jih-ah .. c--can we go .. home ?? ’ voice came out in a murmur that barely existed, dark distant hues passing away from his friend but didn't have the guts to wait for a confirmation. marching out of the coffeehouse, he could feel his eyes BURNING, he just had no more tears to waste on it anymore.

[tvehyun]

t x x i l

         ⁕° ❆ ——— whether that was the truth or not was none of taeil’s concern, but he appreciated a response to his question anyway. taeil sent him a gentle smile and a nod of his head, “i can only imagine,” was his first response, because taeil understood that an empty home was sometimes a restless home. it was definitely a big change for taeil a year ago when he moved to seoul from a home full of family. now he spent nights ALONE, too, in front of a computer with his fingers typing away at a dream he didn’t know he had to achieve by himself. but taehyun apologizes, and taeil finds himself frowning a little, because the other thinks he is messing up his sleep. taeil puts on another small smile and shrugs his shoulders, his hands diving into his pockets to keep them from the chapped early morning air. “don’t be sorry for anything,” he tells the other. “at this time every day i’m still awake anyway, it doesn’t matter what i’m doing.” and such is a bit of an invitation, one saying that taehyun can ask to spend time with him at this time all over again if he needs to. without confirming his next words, though, taeil starts off, hoping that taehyun will follow him. if he was to be honest, he would be content with walking around the block a few times with the boy if he had the chance, because that was the kind of thing taeil did at this time of day. but taeil liked taehyun, and that was why he was so WILLING to go anywhere with him at one in the morning if he really needed someone to comfort him. plus, bungeoppangs sound quite good right now. “i’m following you tonight, taehyun, so you better find me the best bungeoppangs at this time of morning.”

              appreciated the way taeil didn't push the subject. he didn't ask what was behind taehyun's thoughts and didn't seem to c a r e so much about how he didn't look so COMFORTABLE talking about his time alone at home. that didn't mean the other simply didn't care, though. only that he wasn't one to get involved in other people's a f f a i r s and, god, taehyun couldn't be more grateful to himself at that moment for having just gone in search of someone who wouldn't question his m o t i v e s for being awake that time when it was so out of character for him. ‘ okay, i'll keep that in mind, ’ as he followed the other, a soft smile twitched the corner of his lips and he realized it was good to be with someone else. beneficial to be in the presence of someone who wasn't part of any MESS inside his own head, as if he had to make room for just taeil there and that was great. wonderful for a r e s t l e s s mind in the last, what it seemed, to be Y E A R S. ‘ i can't promise you the best, but we can work with it, ’ he cocked his head. ‘ anything gets okay with soda, ’ not that anything would be good in his own mouth now. taehyun was thin. along with his hunger, had also gone the usual flush of his not-anymore chubby cheeks. ‘ were you writing something ?? it seems like you don't have your share of sleep for a while too, ’ diverging his thoughts, tried to focus beyond looking at his own mind on the boy who walked beside him. seemed to be his only healthy choice. ‘ but that's kind of what authors do, isn't ?? guess i shouldn't worry this much. ’

[tvehyun]

b b y j i

             her pink nails running through her hair as she laughed at the others actions. every piece of paper that surrounded them was important to her, she was struggling through artist block and bringing fresh ideas to the flower store was somewhat of a challenge for her.  the family business stayed open for so long because her grandmother was a c r e a t i v e person and she saw the same energy within in ji  — giving her the shop was the biggest achievement in her life. her cheeks turning red slightly at the mention of his camera, “ you didn’t bring it today? that’s so unlike you. not that i’m complaining though! i didn’t doll myself up today, maybe it’s a sign. ” of course everyone had their insecurities, ji was one of them. she had her off days and sometimes she didn’t like the image she saw in the mirror. she was viewed differently due to her actions and childish ways, never being seen as a woman  — only as the child. “ no, please stay. i was lonely and felt myself getting frustrated with these paper. i’m glad you came over. ” 

             there was a lot of i s s u e s running athwart taehyun’s mind. he knows that his act of ignoring them is only childish and stupid, no matter how much time he spent during the day neglecting his own thoughts, it wouldn't even wait SECONDS for him to have a mind full of them at the moment when his head lay down to the p i l l o w that night. then he was glad to have found someone, to have found ji --- who presence was enough to keep such thoughts in the back of his mind. ‘ normally, when i'm working i don't hang with it around, ’ only on rare occasions, he knew. the children he worked with were also GREAT models for his photos. but it had been some time since taehyun couldn't see the urge to take his camera out of the box where it was stored inside the back of his wardrobe. ‘ it's not like you need to doll yourself so i'm annoying you with my camera, ’ which was true. r e g a r d l e s s of the moment, if he had ji and one of the wonderful arrangements she worked back to her store, the orange-haired male would already be satisfied with the result. ‘ okay, i think i can stay a bit, ’ he grins warmly towards her. ‘ what are you trying to do, though ?? taking some time to think by yourself or trying to catch on some inspiration ?? ’

[tvehyun]

if I was a flower I’d be a rose somebody stepped on a few times

[tvehyun]

a r t i s v n

          the cafe he resided in provided a bit of solace where he currently couldn’t find any; his apartment wasn’t nearly as lonely as it used to be ( though it seemed as though every time he was home, his roommate wasn’t— and vice versa ), but the artist had found himself seeking the comfort of places other than his living space for source of inspiration. so that’s why he had papers scattered ( though, organized, if you had asked him. he knew where everything was ), across the coffee table, figure hunched over in a more than uncomfortable position as he worked. an empty coffee cup lay somewhere amid his things, signaling he wasn’t there for no reason at all— but it had been rather l o n g since he had the taste of caffeine touch his lips and tongue. there was a start that came from the artist when another voice interrupted his thoughts, a slight jump that made one aware that he was a bit on edge; god— when was he not ? eyes darted up a mere second, taking in the visage of taehyun standing over him. ‘ oh, ’ he breathed, gaze reverting down once more. ‘ hey, taehyun how— ’ but before painful awkwardness could leave his mouth, the elder was a s k i n g to see what he’d been working on; and he could only fidget slightly. ‘ i … uh– guess ? ’

             taehyun knew that when sehyun was working; he was r e a l l y working, not a piece of his mind out of what he was creating and he found it STUNNING to watch. but it seemed that the last time he had seen any of the other's drawing seemed to have been years ago, a lifetime ago and the feeling was b i t t e r s w e e t under his tongue. he leaned across the table to see the drawings with caution dangling in his gaze. a mess of lines and lines that went everywhere and what taehyun didn't understand ----- had NEVER understood. but that didn't put him in a position where he couldn't examine art and have the knowledge of how all that was just delightful. ‘ gosh--- i missed your drawings a little too much i guess, ’ the words slipped from his lips before he could do anything to stop them, a soft almost not there laugh coming together. he was, yes, missing sehyun but his drawings were as part of a routine that the older male thought was RIGHT to follow it ( before at least it slipped through his fingers so easily ). ‘ this never fails to amaze me, ’ g e n u i n e n e s s, adorning taehyun's soft features when again he stared at the youngest for a few seconds before glancing at the table again. their coexistence didn't have to be something utterly AWKWARD, they didn't have to push it to a fate of single failure. ‘ um .. how are you ?? i haven't seen you in a bit now, ’ enough time, the lines between the words shrieked.

[tvehyun]

✉ imssg ⌇→ firecracker 💥

minkyo: WHAT ?? i like how you spend your time thinking about me as a puppy

minkyo: ): are you doin okay ??

minkyo: write about how sad you are bc you didn't get to write about a dog humpin' someone

taehyun: you're the only?? one?? who?? brought?? the subjetic?? up?? tf

taehyun: i am, yes !! i guess, at least

taehyun: i'll try to get back my routine this week and work more and get my mind out of it !! but we def should catch a movie or anything sometime

taehyun: i miss your pretty face :)

taehyun: THAT'S NOT FAIR i'm not sad okay ?? i'm the bliss in a human being

[tvehyun]

[tvehyun]

             wherever taehyun is going to have c o f f e e between his fingers, this just meant how his mind is troubled and that he needed rest as fast as possible. however, the bitter liquid in his hands warmed the tip of his little fingers and brought a sense of COMFORT that he was struggling to achieve lately. his bed looked like it had been shaped for a person with a completely d i f f e r e n t body because every time he lay there it was as if he were being pushed to the floor. his house was so EMPTY he swore he could feel the echo of his feet on the floor as he moved from one room to the other. the lack of a routine ( because now, everything seemed to be just a mess ) had just begun to leave him even more out of his mind. so he goes to some coffee ----- because the last time he had the savor of coffee in his mouth things had seemed to start to fit into s o m e t h i n g, even it wasn't from a g l a s s he had tasted it. when the taste touched the tip of his tongue, and it stiffened his whole mouth, it was the feeling of déjà vu that forced him to throw the untouched cup of paper in the nearest dump without even regretting the money he had lost in that. ready to leave the cafe, was when he caught SIGHT of the other. bent over some papers that would bet his life on being drawings and attentive to what he was doing like every other time he had seen him. taehyun sighed. one. two. three times before his s t u b b o r n feet made their way to the table sehyun occupied. ‘ hey, ’ he greeted him in a lower voice than usual, the lack of anything in his hands could be a little s u s p i c i o u s, but he chose not to care about that now. ‘ can i see what you're working on ?? ’                                                                                  *˚. ★ @artisvn​

[tvehyun]

c j i h v e

               fingers drum atop the wooden table, a wide cheshire grin is directed at her best friend. there’s a soft laugh tumbling from red lips as her head shakes in response, “to make fun of you? i won’t never!” the words are spoken despite knowing his carried no serious weight; she still felt the need to confirm her own feelings. “because of you, however, is another story. you know, i don’t really care for anything carrot, but ever since you, and what seems to be everyone else, associate you with them…” the teacher leans forward, taking a small piece of muffin onto her eating utensil, “i decided to embrace them. and, for the record, orange bunnies are adorable and i’m very proud of those kids. they certainly know how to butter you up, don’t they?” golden hues sparkle underneath the incandescent lighting inside the cafe as she watches taehyun — the way he speaks, his mannerisms, even the way he fixes his tea. her smile seems permanent ( it always is when she’s around her other half ) and her next sentence is spoken into the air between them with no real rhyme or reason, other than she simply wished to tell him. “i really love you, did you know that?” there’s another bite brought to her lips and jihye rocks side to side in enjoyment. it really isn’t her taste, not usually, but it doesn’t seem too bad in the company of the other. “and i highly doubt the gods would be punishing you like that. or for anything, if we’re being honest. you’re made completely of their biggest blessings, remember? they wouldn’t do that to you.” the mug makes contact with her bottom lip, the familiar heat igniting the bloom of comfort now spreading throughout her being. despite the bitter characteristics of coffee, it was a staple in jihye’s life — she’s unable to function without it ( blame her sleeping patterns, or lack there of ). “it’s really nice to see you, pooh.” yet another statement spoken without reason. “and you wanna know what i think? i think, even if i were attached at your hip, that statement would still be as true as it is right now.”

             the eye roll has no real annoyance there; just because it's jihye and he can't really get angry at anything that comes from her ----- that whole thing from the person being too special and being in your life too much for you to care so much about it when the m o c k e r y comes from them because, who better in the world to really know him than the female sitting on the other side of the table ?? NEVER in a million years. ‘ hilarious. i don't look like a freaking rabbit, ’ he pouted just to give more v i v i d n e s s to his act, but the low chuckle soon dragged out of his throat against the the warm tea was beginning to warm his whole interior at once. the reason why taehyun would always stay with hot and non-cold drinks ----- they had enough strength to make his insides warm even when there had nothing inside to feel indeed, it was the kind of m e t a p h o r that also worked well on why he was always attached to the jihye. she would ALWAYS make him smile no matter how bad his day was. her sudden choice of words forced taehyun to have his dark hues up to her beautiful face again, a smile beginning to dominate the corners of his lips and without even asking permission to get into his eyes making them into half moons. an automatic reaction to anything that the other would say; but the show of affection had really reached his heart this time. ‘ this is really good to know, thank you, ’ pretending as if to stick to it, reached out to be able to pinch the carrot dessert of jihye and bring into fingers to his mouth. ‘ oh !! i love you too. how can't i, right ?? you're the only one eating this horrible, not yummy thing because of me, ’ graceful his words with FONDNESS that could be felt by anyone outside, he knew. but it wasn't like taehyun cared about that, if anything, he really w a n t e d people around to know how much he appreciated the other female there. ‘ you really should come and live with me and junsun. i doubt he would care about that, really. we can arrange a way, i can share my room with you !! we would have pajama parties every night, jinnie. ��

[tvehyun]

t x x i l

         ⁕° ❆ ——— the sleeping schedule of an author always varied around the book they were writing, and with taeil, he was cramming, trying to write as much as possible before he passed out. he had gotten good at functioning on little hours of sleep, he called it crunch time, and once he had finished the best part of the book, he would take a few day break. he was only halfway through the climax and he guessed it was a bit of a saving grace when he heard his phone go off to break him away from his HEAVY thoughts. taeil sits for a moment to take in that the notifications were, in fact, REAL, and it’s then that he picks up the device, seeing it’s a dear friend of his. taehyun was waiting for him? and taeil suddenly feels eager to meet up with him, so he pushes himself from his writings and goes to make himself look decent in a timely manner. it may have been a bit past one in the morning, but taeil is okay with that, because the smell and the feeling of the seoul air in the brisk hours of the mornings always eased him ( and, honestly? he could feel his hand cramping up, too. )

[ 01:15am → taehyun 🍊 ]: dont get so worked up over it [ 01:16am → taehyun 🍊 ]: i’ll be out in just a minute [ 01:16am → taehyun 🍊 ]: i could use some time out now anyway

         and it proves to be true when taeil shows up outside of his door in some sweatpants, a plain t-shirt, and a long coat to cover it all up because he knows how the breeze can get this early in the morning. he sends taehyun a blissful smile and says, “are you okay? i thought i was the only one who came out this early.”

              his friends had no business with his own insomnia, so taehyun felt at least a little guilty of being disturbing one of them while the sleep didn't i n v a d e his mind as he tried to close his eyes in the dark of his room. he couldn't call junsun every night because although his best friend's voice was the BEST way to put him to sleep, the other was out for a p u r p o s e ----- he needed to work. taehyun believed that his lack of sleep came exclusively from how his schedule had diminished in recent days, but not for any specific reason ( the parents he worked for had continued to recommend his services as usual ) but he had STOPPED answering calls. refused some offers and even though he knew that staying home at a time like those wasn't his smarter choice, the forces for anything else just seemed to not exist. returned taeil's smile the moment the other male stepped in front of him, feeling relieved that he didn't look so annoyed at being bothered so early in the morning. but his first question caught taehyun by s u r p r i s e. was he okay ?? he couldn't remember what it had been the last time he had slept PROPERLY, but found it totally unnecessary to throw that kind of concern over his friend. ‘ i think junsun has been working for over twenty-four hours now. my house seems empty, i just needed to get out of there, ’ he sighed softly against the cold breeze. ‘ i'm sorry if i messed up your sleep, mostly... and to be honest, i can't promise you a fun night either, ’ taehyun giggled, this time, in a more sincere way. ‘ but i think we can still find some bungeoppangs down town. want to try our luck ?? ’

[tvehyun]

 b b y j i

             “i’m reenacting a scene from my favorite drama, actually. it’s called…the life of ji, so far, i’m doing a pretty good job at it.” she laughed.ji enjoyed nature and what it had t offer, maybe because she ran a flower shop or the peace it brought her when she felt down. there were journals placed around her, the sound of the pages turning slowly while the breeze blew them softly. in all reality, ji needed some kind of inspiration for a new set of flowers that was delivered recently— running dry of ideas always made her feel uneasy about the whole thing. she needed to leave her shop and breath the fresh air ( sitting outside was just an excuse to get a break ). “what are you up to? i didn’t expect to see you until tomorrow.” 

              ‘ whoa --- can i join in ?? sounds fun, ’ the e n t h u s i a s m that taehyun forced into his own voice came in the most playful manner possible. picking up one of the sheets from the journals around them, he had his brow furrowed briefly as he glanced at her briefly before turning his attention to the letters. ‘ you look good aesthetic here. damn !! i had to walk with my camera one of these hours, ’ one of taehyun's FAVORITE things was to take pictures of the girl while she was working ( or at any other time, really ) even if he hadn't her complete a p p r o v a l of it. wasn't going to do anything with those pictures anyway, sometimes the male just did it to show her how beautiful she really was ----- something she seemed to forget about it. ‘ i was with a child of mine, but their father came to pick them up, so i have the afternoon free for what it seems. oh, do you want to be alone ?? ’ a S U D D E N feeling that, maybe, ji wasn't looking for a company weighed on his conscience. ‘ i can leave if i'm bothering you. ’

[tvehyun]

h a - s e o n n i e

         It was one of Ha-seon’s few days off that he had chosen to stop by the arts and craftss store to buy paper. It wasn’t looking so good when he came out of the store with rolls of paper and the pouring rain meeting him. His feet ran to the nearest store with a roof and stood outside. Out of all the days he chose to buy paper, it had to be this one. One of his rolls of paper was already ruined and he wasn’t sure if most of them would survive if he kept running. He was startled when a sudden voice got him out of his head space. “What?” He said, shocked that a stranger was offering him a ride when he needed it the most. “Why?”

              the stranger seemed to have been taken by surprise, which elicited a s h o r t laugh from the bottom of taehyun's throat. he expected that kind of reaction, if only to be honest. not having met many people in the noisy, busy streets of seoul who would offer him any help if him really needed it ----- that sort of thing always came with some SECOND intention behind the offer ( only the thought made tae shiver in d i s d a i n ). people shouldn't be that wicked. ‘ because, ’ shrugged briefly, not even knowing how to build some kind of argument for his good deed. usually that kind of reaction came automatically from the bottom of the male's CORE, he didn't mind having motives for being gentle. ‘ you kinda need help there. unless these papers are magically waterproof, everything will be ruined in a few minutes. ’

[tvehyun]

l o n - k j

LON: Yeah that’s the guy !! LON: I know right? he’s a badass LON: you’re welcome bro LON: it does actually LON: people do that to lower your self esteem and to like make you crave their approval LON: especially towards good looking people who are used to others chasing after them LON: like imagine if you’re used to being able to pick ad chose and here’s this one person who suddenly isn’t impressed by you like the rest LON: does that make you want their approval real bad? heck yes it does 

TAETAE: what kind of low thought is it ??  TAETAE: that doesn’t make any sense, tbh TAETAE: you don’t need to live your life waiting for someone approval about it or you. you do you.  TAETAE: if someone’s into you, they should support you and cherish you in any ways possible !! TAETAE: seriously .. that’s pretty much why people are so cold this days, right ?? you shut yourself so no one get close, but you deadly want someone to be there to you. TAETAE: so f up, honestly

( SNAPCHAT ) → all.

[tvehyun]

✉ imssg ⌇→ firecracker 💥

minkyo: nothing is wrong w/ being a dog, i just prefer being human over an animal tbqh !!

minkyo: why so ?? your turn to explain

minkyo: a GOOD ONE actually, i don't want smth based off me getting humped by a dog no ty

taehyun: well you're an animal anyway !! you'd look good as a puppy tbh

taehyun: idk ?? it's nothing major, ig. it's just insomnia

taehyun: so about what i'll write my novel now ?? that's just sad, really

[tvehyun]

✉ imssg ⌇→ firecracker 💥

minkyo: ew, no. i'd never want to be an animal, of any sort !! not even a dog !!

minkyo: sleepy ?? why don't you take a nap tae ??

minkyo: enough of this nonsense, i am not supplying your imagination anymore

taehyun: 'not even a dog'

taehyun: care to explain???? what's wrong on being a dog?

taehyun: :/// idk, i'm sleepy but i can't sleep? well

taehyun: MINKYO what kind of friend are you seriously

[tvehyun]

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