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May God Reward Me With You

Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Fandoms: Kingdom Come: Deliverance (Video Games) Relationships: Hans Capon/Henry Characters: Hans Capon, Henry (Kingdom Come: Deliverance)

Additional Tags:

Porn with Feelings, Post Game, Anal Sex, Anal Fingering, Teasing, Sexual Frustration, Love Confessions, they're both idiots but we love them, Multiple Orgasms, Making Love, Oral Sex

Summary:

"You apparently don't understand how irresistible you looked doing it! All covered in sweat, muscles bulging, groaning every so often, making the exact sounds you do when I'm fucking you. So I decided to pay you back."

"By torturing me?"

"I prefer the term, retributive justice." - Hans decides to pay Henry back for being too sexy when working the forge by teasing him to frustration all day. - Read on AO3

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Writers tag game

Thank you, darlingest @armoredinmoonlight! I'll tag in @crittadownunder, @postboxrose, and @inquisimer if they might like to do this!

Heads up this is bummer town, especially below the cut! I'm struggling right now. I want to get these answers down and posted because I'm hoping when I get back up to level or beyond I can return to this, look these over, and be like "tulip, honey, do you see that these attitudes are just blocks and blocks and blocks? silly. don't return there, it does you no good."

Do you prefer writing...

on your computer or on your phone | one-shots or multichapter | <5k or 10k or >10k words per chapter | chronologically or jump back and forth | planning things out or winging it | drabbles or plot or character study | dialogue or action | romance or comedy | mystery or horror | alternate universe or close to canon | writing new content or editing your work | finishing a WIP or starting a new one

so many of these preferences have me snorting at myself because I do most of my writing on my phone, I really might give a tit to be able to write through instead of frogger around my own ideas, always have to go back and put dialogue in, I don't have the mind to write a mystery, I spend way too much time editing (and still don't get it perfect! what am I doing? DITHERING, the MIND KILLER), and finishing a WIP sure sounds nice, wonder who she is, what's she like?!

Extra questions:

How long on average do you spend writing 1 chapter?

It's three days-ish to do the bulk of the writing for chapters. Less time writing than editing. I go through these wretched cycles of feeling like I have something worth putting on the table and I just need to refine it, and then somewhere in the refinement stage I lose all steam and self confidence. I put it away for a week. That turns into multiple months. I go back and wonder why I ever stopped. Rinse, suffer, repeat!

How long do you spend editing?

Ages. Months. Way more time editing than writing. There is a flow state for editing that actually feels fantastic where I'm taking the words I worked hard on and faceting and polishing them and feeling like I'm making something worthwhile. I'm so grateful in those moments that I am doing the edit, because things feel like they go from good to really special and worth putting out for people to find. So even though it takes forever and it's hard and I don't end up with work that feels perfect despite all the effort, I like editing so much more now than I used to. I know it improves things. And it improves all that comes after it, even though it is humbling that there is so much room for improvement. But it takes forever because I keep stopping, and then I get stuck and can't move on from a paragraph, and then I stop. 🤡

Favorite thing to write?

Nature references and metaphors, characters observing each other, stacked meanings (double good, triple GREAT), characters holding back. Anything that fills up or in a little pocket off the plot, or offers an answer for a why.

Hardest thing to write?

I realized a bit ago that the reason I enjoy AUs from others but don't have any compulsion to write one myself is that I don't think I'm enough to hold up that setting; I'm not worthy of doing it. 💀

Fic/story you are most proud of and why?

The one that has held up as feeling right the entire time (MONUMENTAL THING) is i pay my dearest costs by silk of silver, or milkweed, or dandelion kites. It came out fluidly, editing was also very smooth and mostly free of self doubt... it feels like I was meant to write that, and it was how I wanted it to be, and when I reread it I feel content. I think part of this is that FenHawke is a much quieter ship on my social media, so-- while there are MANY, MANY incredible writers-- there is not as much to get in my own head about. But even when I am in my head about this one, that's okay, being there is okay instead of a hall of "why didn't you THINK OF THIS" mirrors. I know about this like I know about no other fic of my own that if I found this by another writer it would move me and make me happy.

And only her hand may anoint her brow is very dear to me, I don't know how satisfied I will feel with it in the end but I feel like I am doing something that deserves to be done. I am not writing it to change the Solavellan ending (a part of me will always long to honor the pillars of canon, and see the AU note above) but to fill in and hopefully offer "enriched possibilities" for Lavellan's time between Trespasser and the Redeem ending. I consider it my spackle fic. It might be the closest I ever get to an AU. I am trying to be thoughtful about it without killing myself. The effort is mostly satisfying.

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A preview of what I've been working on for @worldofthedas-vol3 !! Lots of fun channeling Emmrich and Johanna

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WHOOPS

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maybe growing up is just becoming who you were at 14 again but learning how to love her this time

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Presenting to you my writing cycle

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josie 💛

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King Cailan when the beacon lights up at Ostagar:

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dragon age: inquisition - SUITS PART I [class: mage]

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Still alive, summer is just kicking my ass and I am real creaky when it comes to readopting tumblr! I have stuff to post (and repost) for Dragon Age Annual, and fic wips (mostly the next chapter of only her hand may anoint her brow and my Solas POV of the Trespasser reunion).

Have gone through a DELIGHTFUL “read too much good fic too fast” self esteem plummet but I took stock of my values about how all fic is allowed to exist and that includes mine, so I’m workin’ at it between the summer surviving. ♥️

xoxo,

tulip

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song tag game

merci merci sweetest @virshiral ! I’ll tag in @armoredinmoonlight, @riftings , @mishwanders , and @rat-spit-village if they might like to participate. 🧡

one song for each letter in your Tumblr name, with a lyric or two for flavor/to yank your friends, if you wanna!

TYG - Megan Thee Stallion (featuring Spiritbox)

I’mma test you if you pussy, I go hard in the paint!

Underneath It All - No Doubt (featuring Lady Saw)

And you give me the most gorgeous sleep that I’ve ever had/And when it’s really bad, I guess it’s not that bad

L’amour parfait - Yelle

Quand l’amour part/Quand l’amour parfait

I Get Around - Dragonette

Seconds to your elevator from the station/how can I resist that kinda invitation?

Paris (Ooh la la) - Grace Potter & The Nocturnals

If I was a man I’d make my move/If I was a blade I’d shave you smooth

Angel Band - The Stanley Brothers

Oh, bear me away on your snow white wings/To my immortal home

Transcendental Cha Cha Cha - Tom Cardy

Spacetime (gravity)/Champagne (reality!)

Heaven, Iowa - Fall Out Boy

But me, I’m still a sunbeam

You Can’t Hurry Love - The Supremes

For that soft voice, to talk to me at night/For some tender arms to hold me tight

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five sentence friday

It's not friday anymore, but still!

Thanks to the wonderful and beautiful @virshiral for tagging me <3

This is from an undefined chapter in an undefined future of Some Lies You Print. Some You Bury, but no spoilers, not really. Freshly out of Ellana’s pen.

There is something about him that refuses to come into focus, as though he stands half in shadow even when the sun is at its height. He is a man of passion—that much is obvious at once. You see it in the way his face twists and reforms, flaring with a thousand expressions that vanish as quickly as they come, like sparks from a struck match. It is as if his mind runs ahead of his body, racing beyond the reach of his own muscles, leaving only the scattered traces of his thoughts for others to glimpse, but never to grasp in full. His passion is in his stance as well as his speech.

Tagging @theriothag, @alice-dead, @tulipathy, @postboxrose and whoever else wants to join! No pressure, obviously, and I know I'm late! Sorryyy

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You can now get my tevene font [Here] !

They were all hand written so they wont be 100% 1:1 but I hope this will help the community in their tevinter adventures :-)

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Turns out after discovering fanfiction I still must participate in society. Devastating news.

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WIP Wendsday

Spoilers from Some Lies You Print. Some You Bury. This is from chapter 4 :)

Solas is a mean little shit. I want to punch him in the face (this is no spoiler).

THANK YOU @theriothag, my heart! Tagging @tulipathy @virshiral @alice-dead <3

Black rivulets of makeup trace her cheeks, bleeding into the delicate, curling lines of her Vallaslin. And he almost feels something. Almost. Until he remembers. A snort rises before he can stop it. There she is—sitting on that bench, waiting for them—dishevelled and broken. Right. Because it must be so unbearable being rich, and famous, and adored by strangers who think your voice speaks the truth. Draped in fine silk, sipping white wine at rooftop parties, making a fortune off someone else’s pain and calling it art. Now she’s crying. Touching, really.

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kissing your forehead because i love your weird brain