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a lot has been happening in the state I live towards transgender individuals

So i drew some jayvik as a comfort for myself

Please keep fighting. We're here, we've always been here and always will be here. You are loved. You have a community. Stay safe.

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Actually kind of love the idea of Crystal growing old beside the boys. What a journey it would be, her relationship to them changing and deepening as she matures and grows, experiencing things they never have or will. I mean, I see a lot of the default assumption that it would cause her pain to get old while they stay young, but I think that comes from the same place as all youth-worship/age-terror and it doesn't ring true to me. The inverse of that hurt in the boys, where they watch her grow up and live a life they'll never have, is much, much sadder. Crystal is not Esther, and my guess is the older she gets (and finds out what that actually means beyond getting crow's feet) the more acutely she'll feel the tragedy of Edwin and Charles' lives being cut short.

They'd eventually be older than each other in various ways. The boys with more time on earth, Crystal with more lived experience. The boys with more investigative experience, Crystal with more practical wisdom. There would be so many overlapping, swirled together dynamics, richer and deeper and more intricate as years pass.

The boys getting a front-row seat to what it means to travel through time, Crystal experiencing the strange way time travels past the boys. Adventuring with them keeps her young, walking through life with her keeps them dynamic, connected to the living world.

And then Charles and Edwin would have to face her death. The pain of loving something that doesn't last forever, losing it, and then carrying their ever-shifting grief, the way memories become a presence, how they change and fade and turn to gold. And what an inescapably human experience that is. What an elemental part of life.

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oh they are burying themselves into my mind

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in some alternate universe

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Fave Jayvik headcanon:

Both Jayce and Viktor are trans. But they both are stealth and don't know the other one is.

Viktor who fought hard to transition and pass, who had very little to work with in Zaun, but did his best and mainly passed through socially transitioning well enough that nobody questioned him. Getting on T when he had money and before that it was so on and off, from sketchy people, he wonders if it had done anything.

Jayce who also socially transitioned mainly, but did it a lot later on, bc his mom already had so much on her plate. So he transitioned with all the bells and whistles when they were in Piltover. He loves working out and was so glad when he started T and saw his workouts were working twice as well, and working out helped him pass so well nobody would think twice. When he'd giggle or act super soft to women nobody questioned him. And it felt like such a relief. And his mother being so supportive and his rock, genuinely happy her son is so happy and thriving.

Viktor and Jayce meet.

Both envy the other, not knowing the other is trans.

Jayce sees Viktor who stands so confident regardless of his height or stature. That he talks slow and with a deep voice, that his presence commands a room. That he has that calm masculine vibe that Jayce always so excited and happy go lucky could never master.

(I still feel Vik is autistic and Jayce is Adhd it brings me joy)

And Jayce envies it, Viktor doesn't have to work out, he doesn't have to tone down his excitement and laugh when it pitches too high.

Viktor on the other hand envies Jayce. He's massive, so tall, so buff. Has muscles for days, handsome, has a five o'clock shadow most days than not, has a higher voice and still sounds masculine and smiles and giggles. Nobody questions it. He has a girl best friend, he moves around and flits places. He thrives in public settings so effortlessly clearly not thinking about how people perceive him (a lie but Vik doesn't know yet).

Both so envious, then... they both find out.

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modern au t4t jayvik that is still marinating in my brain idk what to do with them can i get any ideas pleaaaseeee

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bugs when you lift up their rock

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the smartest men in piltover

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So I'm finally watching Arcane because I need the lore to write fanfiction and I am absolutely 158% positive that all the angels up in heaven and the demons down in hell(nod to Good Omens there) heard me screaming "THAT’S MY BOYS!!!" when Jayce and Viktor were first on screen together. It was like a fucking adrenaline rush I swear. I'm so normal about them(not)

Literally me whenever I see one of them on screen 😭😭:

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cozy

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Also dragons rising inspired us to start binging the original series too and my half asleep mind was inspired

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from the fic the line is covered in jellyfish by @yunuen

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𓆝 𓆟 𓆞

post/artist

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sometimes you just have to sketch a silly snek

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stay a little longer (wip)

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not in another universe, but in this one 🩵🩷

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Stop thinkin' about it