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Dead Blog!!!

Ok, so unfortunately you can't delete a main blog on Tumblr...or else all your other blogs are also deleted! I have grown more of a following on my writing account--@jasminesjournal...therefore I will be posting only on there because it drives me insane having more than one blog.

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The horror of doing homework at work when other people ignore call lights or just watch porn on their work computers🤦🏻‍♀️

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Right so I just got knee surgery yeah? Very very painful surgery to fix my fucked up knee because I cracked my patella and fucked up my cartilage and got a cyst. How did I crack my patella? What a good fucking question because I DON'T KNOW. I DO NOT KNOW HOW I BROKE MY KNEECAP. I have been living in fluctuating on-and-off pain for TWO FUCKING YEARS and I DON'T KNOW WHY. Google "fractured patella" and just scroll around at the pictures and tell me how the fuck I could have not known. How I could have lived with that pain for two years without help? Now I'm recovering from surgery and it all just hurts so much all the time. I want to die. I literally just want to put myself out of my own misery but morally I can't do that. And all I can think about, through all of this, is what the fuck happened? I remember the one time my dad threw a phone at my back while I was asleep after he found my texts about him to one of my friends and how I suppressed the memory for like two years. And how he gave me "boxing lessons" when I misbehaved and threatened to drown me when I was three and wouldn't sit still for a photo, and I only remembered after staring at the old photo for like ten minutes trying to figure out why it made me feel dread. So I cracked my patella, and I don't know how, except some part of me does. It's in there somewhere, what happened to me. What he did. And I can't find it, but I need to. Because a part of me is scared that I can't get better until I find it. I need to know.

I'm sorry to dump all this on you, but I just had to tell somebody. I kind of hope this is an orphan account or something so I don't ruin your day. If you are reading, I really appreciate you creating a space where I can get this out. God bless.

Wow, that truly sucks. On the bright side (because I like looking at the bright side of things) at least you can heal now because that's why you got surgery right? Keep strong, you got this!

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Maybe controversial but this happened two years ago. Uvalde dps most likely changed. A lot can happen in two years. It’s easy to judge and let emotions win over common sense.

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"The masculine urge" "the feminine urge" The Christian urge to buy a crucifix necklace so I can meditate on the Christ Crucified and wonder in awe of the incarnation and in horror of human violence and in utter confusion at God's self giving love for us that led him to die the death of a cursed blaspheming slave.

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Don't get it twisted. Jesus didn't hang out with prostitutes because He approved of their lifestyle. He engaged with them - He loved them! - because they were in desperate need of a Savior. Real love doesn't tolerate sin. Real love holds you in His arms and asks, "Child, why do you keep hurting yourself like this?"

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My boyfriend talking to his ex who accused him of abuse when he’s innocent.

Y'all ruin the sweetest people then call them crazy and "toxic" when they finally react to your bullshit !

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However, if you are claiming to be a Christian but you’re not following Jesus’ commands you’re not accepted by him.

“I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I am about to spit you out of my mouth” (Revelation 3:15-16).

God does not accept lukewarm faith. To follow Jesus is to turn away from your sin. That’s not to say we don’t sin, we sure do. But there’s a difference between living a sinful lifestyle and making a mistake.

Would like to reiterate that Christians cannot be possessed.

Christians receive the Holy Spirit based on the finished work of Christ alone.

This means the Holy Spirit never leaves us.

Not even when we go astray and get involved in things Christians shouldn't. Not even when we sin in a big way. I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Thank you.

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it doesn’t feel . right

So it feels left?

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"I can't stand the 'I'm not like other girls' trope!"

It's almost like we raised an entire generation of women to be ashamed of womanhood and then made fun of them when they behaved exactly how we taught them to.

If you teach girls that femininity is weakness, pink is for ditsy princesses, and that they need to "hustle" and be a "boss babe" to live a life that's "as worth much as a man's" they're going to do anything they can to make sure people know they aren't like "those girls."

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I think it was the Holy Spirit. Sure they were allowed to use their own words but they had to keep it to the Holy Spirit or else it’s not God’s word but man’s.

So... in the books of prophecy in the Old Testament... did the Holy Spirit dictate every word, or did the Spirit give the prophets a message and they articulated it using their own... artistic vision, for lack of a better term? Like, did the prophets choose to use certain words and imagery - sun and moon, for example - or did the Spirit determine everything they wrote to the last detail?

Hoping this question makes sense.

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I’m on Instagram!

I want to share the books I’m into in the Bookstagram community. Like I try in Tumblr, I honor God in my Instagram as well so the books I try to stick too will be clean!

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I don’t know what this means but ok. Nice vent bro.

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