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1 - 04/08/2025

wieiad - 1.133

breakfast: one slice of pie; one coffee

morning snack: some tortilla chips

lunch: ravioli with ricotta cheese and lemon zest, with parmesan + one slice of pistachio cheesecake

afternoon snack: salted caramel ice cream; one coffee

dinner: two steaks, one slice of bread, some tomatoes + one pie square

[B/P - L - D - E - SH - A]

[tabacco roll-ups: 12]

[TIPs: 0] [TAB: no] [steps: /]

random pics I was able to take

daily log

guys i really cant recomment Attack on Titan enough. like im as S1E7 and im loving it!!

all good today ! bit of an angst moment mid afternoon but it passed quickly thankfully !

today my girlfriend was like "i just realized you are eating what you want..." and ngl that... is cool. like it's so cool. she's my No.1 supporter and like that feels so foreign, i've rarely had IRL actually seeing me (??) but !! wa :D

all chill ! just packed my bags since tomorrow i'll go to the sea... i'll miss my gf....

gn!! love y'all !! <33

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ppl rly hate girls with eating disorders tbh. did anyone else notice this

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7 - 03/08/2025

wieiad - 1.132 - Week 4 Day 7

breakfast: some chocolate and almond cookies; coffee with almond milk

lunch: agnoli with broth, one slice of cotechino, one slice of lesso, one roasted rib (with its sauces and jams), homemade puré, two slices of caciocavallo cheese (with honey), two of pecorino cheese and one of brie, half a stuffed peach, some ice cream, one crostata square; one spumante flute

afternoon drink: coffee

dinner: piadina with one slice of turkey ham, one of cheese and some mayo + one slice of pistachio cheesecake

[B/P - L - D - E - SH - A]

[tabacco drums: 12] [cigarettes: 1]

[TIPs: 0] [TAB: no] [steps: /]

random pics I was able to take

daily log

most normalest lunch with grandparents here in italy lmfao... (and from what ive been told they usually make even more stuff lol)

hi! today was a cool day !! i met my girlfriend's grandparents today for lunch !!! (her father's parents, i have yet to meet her mum's mother) it was cool !!! i basically avoided thinking about it till i was in the car but i didn't panic !! i was nervous, yes, but it really was all oke and chill !! and im so glad !!!

im so glad i managed. im so glad i did it. no pics cus yeah, yk, it was the first impression, i didn't feel like taking them... and im honestly glad i went to meet them now that im more chill about food cus like ! i know it would have gone worse had i gone before, so... eheh, nice !!

other than that chill day ! we watched aot and i slept lol

gn!!! C:

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thank you sm !! and thank thanking also @whentheskiesturnpink !!<333

(cracks knuckles) @chibi-the-pancake @lyssieslife524 @mauvelsy @magicwafflemaker @daffodils-and-bluebells @qu1et-and-unknown @acupofselfcontrol @azzy-inwonderland @dimlro2xe @yourfavvvintj @porcelaineswan @perfectlesterx @standwithrecovery @luvlockett @sweetpotatough @goodnight-yall @sockssketchingshack @tryingtobeahumanbeing @overwhelmedfernfrond @sugarfreefairy @recoveryrambles @eat-anyway @sadstrawbee (i tried to tag all my moots but if i missed someone just know that you are here too. even if we never have never interacted or anything. i care about you all so much and i love y'all and i support y'all ........ <3)

(ah! no pressure tags these ones! dw !!)

favirote moots?

(People you tag have to reblog and say their favorite moots)

Okay wait

@ibrokeurheartbcuzubrokemine @foliverfalls @allyeilishh @addisonraesbaby @emiliesblohsh @bilsslut @noodleswashere @bilsbabyy @bitchesbrokenpromises @billsdollie

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thank you for the tag, sorry im late !! <3

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years

tagging @chibi-the-pancake @magicwafflemaker @magicwafflemaker @daffodils-and-bluebells @qu1et-and-unknown @sweetpotatough @goodnight-yall @lyssieslife524 @intothetwilight @cammomilletea @acupofselfcontrol @whentheskiesturnpink + anyone else who wanna do this !! <3

tyyy for the tag @track11

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two pierciyngs / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

NPT: @lfcforever @eli-evermore @elysiality @alvinjrsgun @scream4butcherqueen @planecrashjesus @vanpalmerdefender @turtlelulu

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thank you for the tag !! :3

this is allover the place,,, tagging @chibi-the-pancake @magicwafflemaker @daffodils-and-bluebells @qu1et-and-unknown @lyssieslife524 @cammomilletea @overwhelmedfernfrond @whentheskiesturnpink + open tagss C:

thank you so much for the tag @bradshawed baby ! this is very cute.

rules: take the last 5 songs you've listened to & make a poll where people vote which song is most your vibe.

no pressure tags: @soangelbaby @turnerrst @rotapathetic @hrtfilm @st6ined @inspiredangel @lavenderslace ♡︎

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thank you for the tagg :D

Favorite color: purple

Last favorite song: Bathsheba & Him by Bastille (i think, ive had it in loop since it came out lol so i think it counts)

Currently reading: nothing but im about to start the blue lock light novel in ita !

Currently watching: Hannibal (kinda..), Attack on Titan and The Summer Hikaru Died

Currently craving: nothing much apart from maybe a popsycle (a cola one) (im v hot rip)

Coffee or tea: coffeeee always eheh (tea makes me nauseous usually :(( )

open tags (fr ong, anyone who sees this is v free to add on!! :3)

Thank you for the tag @scoundrels-in-love!!

Favorite Colour: Baby Pink <3

Last Song: Lord Huron's new album https://open.spotify.com/album/6lpG635tVIMn2WAN2QG9Sp

Currently Reading: Nothing, reading has yet to come back from the war.

Currently Watching: Dandadan, Kaiju #8, Leviathan

Currently Craving: Mmmmmmm see I'm hungry, no pick only eat paralysis, I wish I had a craving.

Coffee or Tea?: Coffeeeeeeee! I used to take a lot of pride in not liking or drinking coffee but now I've acquired the taste and it's yummy. Drug of choice! I don't drink alchohol so I'm letting myself have this vice. Tagging @wickedlittlecritta @cadriona @vash-in-the-void @terkaterr @hashtagcaneven @defender-of-wilderness @coffee-without-aesthetics @neosatsuma

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6 - 02/08/2025

wieiad - 1.131 - Week 4 Day 6

breakfast: chocolate cornetto, strawberry yogurt and one banana; one coffee

lunch: thin meat slices and tomatoes + one slice of pistachio cheesecake

afternoon drink: coffee

dinner: takoyaki, rice bowl with asian ragu (?), bacon, spinach, seaweed and one fried egg

[B/P - L - D - E - SH - A]

[tabacco drums: 12] [cigarettes: 2]

[TIPs: 0] [TAB: no] [steps: /]

random pics I was able to take

daily log

today is my gf's birthday !! she liked my gift for her !!!! :D am happy eheh

all good today! nothing outta the ordinary, it was a good day! didn't have impulses thankfully so that's noice!! :>

good night !!

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shirt that says "NOT SUICIDAL BECAUSE I'M SCARED OF DEATH BUT THERE'S DEFINITELY SOMETHING GOING ON"

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5 - 01/08/2025

wieiad - 1.130 - Week 4 Day 5

breakfast: chocolate muffin, peach yogurt and one banana; one coffee

morning snack: cookies + more cookies idk

lunch: pasta with tomato sauce and ricotta salata cheese + a pasticcino

afternoon snack: peach yogurt and one banana

dinner: pizza with sausage and mushrooms

[B/P - L - D - E - SH - A]

[tabacco drums: 19] [cigarettes: 3]

[TIPs: 0] [TAB: no] [steps: /]

random pics I was able to take

daily log

existential crisis morning. tho i managed to talk w my gf about the alcohol thoughts, she got mad, but she reassured me that she loves me still. idk.

all good apart from that! i ate too much and i hate that. anyway. eh

gn !!! <33

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mass suicide on shblr got me thinking

my first ever boyfriend killed himself. wasnt entirely purposeful apparently but i dont think people usually take that much fentanyl and expect not to die. in that time, i was recovering from anorexia. when he died, i relapsed. id just lost my boy. i still talk about him and it was years ago. he was only 19. a few months later, i had a friend, they used to call me pecha, i have the pokemon berry sewn onto my trousers. they killed themselves after realising theyd never get my ex back, we'd never sneak out again or bake together again or just exist with each other. they were 14. the next year, i had 2 friende commit double suicide. a boy id known for years, he'd gotten through horrific trauma with me, and another boy who comitted because he was sexually assaulted. 3 days later his girlfriend also killed herself. they were all 14/15. i still think about them. on their birthdays i sit and i sob my eyes out missing the people i lost to suicide and couldnt help. youve never heard a scream as broken as a mother whos lost her child. abusive mother or not. their siblings lost them. their teachers lost them. their friends lost them. you arent going to be this age forever. youre going to get out of this but you need to seek help. you cant be saved if deep down you dont want to be saved. im not going to offer you a helpline because when ive been suicidal that didnt help me. i want you to think really deeply of your family. your friends. your pets, your teachers, the guy at the store you see every week. if you kill yourself they are now missing a whole PERSON that was part of their lives. you may find a permanent solution to your pain, but youve created permanent pain to them. i cant offer much but my dms are always open. ill send stupid images of my pet cat or ill ramble about snakes or ill let you vent, it doesnt matter. youve heard suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary issue and im sorry the temporary part has been so long. it wont go away today or tommorow and probably not next week. but itll go away. rest in peace aiden, ellis, dia, elias, alice, and everyone anyone has lost to suicide. you mean something to somebody.

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at least theres still listening to music while staring at the ceiling

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IL BENE NEL MALE is starting to feel like it describes our relationship and i am terrified. it used to be just a triggering song w/o connection to my life and now it's all we are

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i don't want her to leave me

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realizing that i did not actually resolve the alcohol problem but i just had another problem (ed relapse) that made me "pause" that one (scared of cals) was not on my 2025 bingo. i need to drink