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diary entry #2

i’m not sure if its new or if I've just been ignoring it. I've been stressed and sad, after the incidents at work, my brain has been crazy, i can hear the rational v trying to get through, but I’m pushing her back. after the stories he told me last night, i want to. january 2014 was the last time, but every now and then i still feel the want to, i think its for attention, what is wrong with me?! 

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Diary entry

recently this thought has been increasing in my mind, I’m thinking of it more and worrying about it. I’m lonely, not in the sense that i have no one, i have amazing friends and family that i love and (hopefully) love me back. I’m lonely in the sense that out of my 22 years on earth I’ve never had a relationship, i want  to be loved and held and wanted. I think thats why i have sex with basically anyone (I’ve only ever slept with 5 people), because in my mind they want me, even if it’s just for sex, they still want me. I don’t exactly have the best body, I’ve always been over weight, these last few years I’ve increased, in my mind I’m massive but i don’t think I am as big as i am (hopefully) I’m still below 100kg, just! 

but i don’t want to be like that anymore, out of all the times I’ve had sex, I’ve only ever once felt good afterwards, but thats another story! i want to sleep with someone who likes me for more that my tits and the fact that i will sleep with them! i want to be loved! 

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Live your life

Here’s how I’ll live mine

Go in a sensory deprivation tank

Learn to love myself

Fall in love

Use a Brisbane city bike

Visit the Moulin Rouge 

Learn to do and hold a handstand 

Live on my own 

Work for the body I’ve always wanted 

Visit Brooklyn and the US

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Not quite a hook up