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I thought we were different

I thought you were different

I became different to stop being your difficult

You became difficult to try and show me I wasn't different

I thought it was growth

It was just a filter

You want to be different but I can't change what you see

I want what I could see in you, but did I even see that?

All I see is black static

I'm blind

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Entangled

Suffocating

Gasping

It's all just me

Hopeless

Hopeful

Never ending

Worthless

Priceless

Nothing

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Empty as the first time you pushed over my cup

I've grown to try the ways you've always asked

Guess I'm to late

There's no more love to spill from me

That last drops are evaporating waiting on what ifs

I started wanting the things you said I should

Even that's been looked over

As the last drops dry from rage

My cup will break

Never to be filled again

You'll over look it

Like you have me

But I'm to blame for this

Because

Who would care to look at an empty broken cup .....

Except to throw it away

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Days

No nights

Just days

I can't sleep

I can dream, but their just nightmares

I wanna wake up

-AENE

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I tried so hard just to be a failure.

I really loved you.

Things changed.

Maybe they didn't.

I'm lost in regret.

The end.

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Numb like novacain

I can't feel my heart

Beats echo inside my empty chest

The void inside my body growing darker

Warm as a corpse

Six feet under my emotions

Lost in a graveyard of people who uses to love me

Mourning the person I used to be

There's no hope for me

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I hate crying

Tears of liquid disgrace

Nothing but an empty heart

Chemicals playing tricks

Numb voids that swallow me whole

I was never human

An object meant for the trash

Joke without a punchline

No ones laughing

It's all so funny

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I'm sick

Choking on my self esteem

Throat sore from words I don't mean

Nose stuffy from smelling my disgust

Headache from trying to communicate

Chest raw from a sore heart

Aches and pains from everything in between

No medication to cure me

I'm sick

I'm sick of me

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‘pierrot and the cat’ - théophile steinlen (1889)

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🦇 Starry Night x Halloween by Aja Trier 🦇

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