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ME AND MY FRIEND (wife??) COLLABEDDD!! :'D

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Bro I hate when people get mad at me for being impatient or over reacting, or other shit when like.. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO??!

Like bro, I'm not gone to apologize for my disability or disorders unless it was actually harmful.

I feel like I have to address my illnesses or else I'll get treated like shit. My own fuckin math teacher really told me to act like the "rest of them"

If I knew what I had back then, I would be like:

"WTF U MEAN REST OF EM?? DAWG I GOT PTSD FROM THIS DAMN SCHOOL AND YOU THINK IM TROLLIN'?"

You don't have to know rocket science to know a fuckin kid needs mental help. This nigga is so privileged to tell me to "be normal" what an asshole.

Anyways long rant but yeah.

(im gay no one will see this I love to lick toenails)

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Idk if I can be with guys tbh.

I don't care about what gender I'm with but it just sucks with most guys.

Mint doesn't like random guys (or people) and will literally do anything in her power to get rid of them.

She's amazing but damn.. kinda just sad watching it go down.

She usually prefers someone with lighter skin and is shy. (Pretty much the opposite of my family.)

I would say the only real problem, might be her using she/her prns instead of he. Which is kinda inconvenient since I usually talk to people..

Besides the point

She's still the best though, and I think she would be a great parent for us❣️

- idfk

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And all of them matter.

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You’ve got to forgive yourself for being traumatized and needing to learn how to function again. 

Recovery isn’t always nightmares and depression, it’s forgetting to eat, being scared of what others might see as completely normal things, it’s getting random panic attacks, not knowing how to take care of yourself, not knowing how to live like an adult, even if you’re twenty, thirty, forty, fifty, of feeling like you’re failing to function in a world where everyone seems to have their shit together. 

If you need help, ask for it. Go to forums and ask for advice. Take advantage of community resources. Buy pre-sliced veggies and fruits, eat instant meals if you can’t cook for yourself today. Hire someone. Ask a neighbor for a favor. Buy any item you think might make life easier, even if you feel like you aren’t ‘disabled’ enough to have it. 

Some of the depression posts (ie open your windows, take a shower, go outside, call a friend) are really helpful but they’re not always enough. I’ve found advice for spoonies, people with chronic pain or other disabilities have the best tips because they know what it’s like to be bedridden, out of energy, stuck in a brain fog. 

You may never return back to the energy you had when you were younger and you might always need to use crutches to help you through life. It’s the same with medication. 

Trauma is a real thing that happens to you, it physically alters your brain and it’s alright to have lasting scars. 

You’re not broken, your life is not over and you can still be happy. 

It’s not your fault.

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will i ever make it out? / do i even want to?

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A lil potrait i made for Keitri <3 He has a lil mustacheee!

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Self harm is not "skdeep beep"

Very very bad.

Keitri doesn't approve of THAT.

Instead, we bite our fingernails until it bleeds 💙

AND BY WE, IT'S TREVOR.

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Dawg I'm tired of people expecting me to do something I can't do.

If you don't want me to say "I can't mentally do it", then fuck off. <3

I don't cry on purpose, I don't neglect myself on purpose, nor do I tend to be rude on purpose.

Some people treat me like I'm a fuckin animal, istg.

I'm not a bad person, nor will we ever be. I haven't done anything that I don't regret doing, and I don't intend on hurting anyone.

- Keitri and Trevor 💜 ⚡ 💿

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Ableism is fucking everywhere. And it's so insanely normalized. I was watching a commentary youtube video about a pretty shitty person. And the person who made the video, someone I watch frequently, calls the person a sociopath, a psychopath and a narcissist. Over and over again.

We're people too, what the fuck? Having ASPD or NPD does not equal being a shitty, abusive person. I'm so fucking sick and tired of my struggles being used as a way to insult and label others as abusers.

I am not your fucking horror trope.

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Dreaming sucks.. like.. a lot.

Especially when you got PTSD and your brain thinks of the most violent option.

The amount of times I've died in brutal ways and have to feel the pain of someone shooting or stabbing me is crazy.

I used to have a fear of sleeping because I knew how bad it would be.

I just accepted my fate by then, but would at least play calm music that seemed to help at times.

Obviously someone in my brain hasn't got over the self harm and violent thoughts, so I'm just done doing anything about it.

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i was always your punching bag.