trauma-crow

[trauma-crow]

There comes a time when you realize you do not miss your mother, instead you miss a mother. Someone gentle and warm, who comforts you. Someone, who only yells in excitement, not anger. Someone you know you can trust.

Someone, whose hugs feel safe, not terrifying.

[trauma-crow]

the christian god is so funny like… oh eve you ate this fruit eternal damnation and pain for everyone you’re related to!!! why? because i have no choice.. i’m all powerful but i have no choice you’ve tied my hands… only way out is to kill my only son :| all because of you.

[trauma-crow]

we all know the “clearly they hate me” thing with bpd but can we talk about “clearly they’re dead” thing because it’s such a horrible feeling when you’re sat there, heart racing, already starting to grieve because you fully believe that they might have died and then they respond and you have to pretend like you weren’t just mentally attending their funeral

[trauma-crow]

I can’t do this anymore dude

[trauma-crow]

i almost fucking flipped out at this until i saw the last line

[trauma-crow]

Furiousgoldfish / furious-goldfish is a TERF

@furiousgoldfish (alt is @furious-goldfish) who primarily posts resources for victims of trauma, reblogged and made an addition to a gardening post from her TERF blog (@balkanradfem). She has since deleted the post, but here is an archived version of it:

https://web.archive.org/web/20210314173244/https://furiousgoldfish.tumblr.com/post/645647744457981952/balkanradfem-i-found-these-2-new-trees-planted

Transphobia and transmisogyny have no place in recovery circles, especially given how many trans people are victims of abuse or made vulnerable to abuse by familial rejection and social vilification. As a victim of abuse, as well as a trans person, I am disgusted with @furiousgoldfish / furious-goldfish and how she sees the world around her. There is no reason for a person to treat others like this and being abused is not an excuse to be a part of a hate group.

This is not the first time @furiousgoldfish​ / furious-goldfidh has been called out; she supports the forcible sterilization of mentally ill people who show the “wrong” symptoms (ie. literal, textbook eugenics). I am linking to another callout on this subject, however this post will be specific to her behaviour as a TERF.

https://neo-bushnell.tumblr.com/post/623824161529266176/dont-even-fucking-look-at-me-if-you-support

Screenshots of the posts on her TERF blog are under the cut. Tw for transmisogyny and misgendering. This post is okay for cis people to reblog.

Keep reading

[trauma-crow]

Did anyone else never lose the shadow of that vague, half repentant and sulky child who wasn’t wanted, and knew it, who watched from deep inside the body rather than join in? I think the reason I connect so much with the trend of calling yourself feral is because I was a very lonely child. A feral animal is one that might have been domesticated but wasn’t. Becoming socialised is very hard when you are an outsider among your peers. I think it’s something that stays with you a long time; the child, playing in the muck, reading, watching, but always in solitude. Living a life almost as separate as if there was a difference of country and culture between you and the rest of your age group. I think a lot of people can relate to that.

[trauma-crow]

[trauma-crow]

I hope I dont chicken out this time lol everything is just shit

Lol wish me luck im gonna kms this week

[trauma-crow]

Lol wish me luck im gonna kms this week

[trauma-crow]

[trauma-crow]

light filters in poem show//caroline kaufman

[trauma-crow]

This is like trauma speaking but I definitely feel more like a creature than a person lmao

[trauma-crow]

Just found out my abusive rapist pedophile ex got "good behaviour bond" and didn't serve any time for child grooming... I wanna die actually

[trauma-crow]

[trauma-crow]

Genuinely feel like top surgery is unobtainable I want to kms

[trauma-crow]

Actually, another really important thing I wish not only r/rbn types but people in general knew is that most child abuse and parental entitlement are based on very common cultural values rather than being the result of one rare personality disorder.

A lot of parents think they have to be controlling, violent, and authoritarian to be good parents. They think that if they don’t do it, their children will become evil and spoiled.

They treat children as either objects to be molded and used as they wish or as wild animals that must be tamed through constant punishment and monitoring or else they’ll become dangerous.

Parents treating their children as property is not a new thing and it is not limited to mentally ill people in the least. It is the historical standard that a lot of conservatives want to reinforce.

Instead of demonizing mentally ill people, I suggest supporting youth rights and fighting social norms that make minors into people it is acceptable to hurt and dominate.