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nancy graphics bc i love her <3 it's very cool to see how far her character's come ^ . ^

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Eleven for #inktober 11.

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i will appreciate will's ability to see the good in mike unlike this fanbase. he wasn't saying "this is who you used to be" or "this is what you could be." he was saying "this is who you fundamentally are." some bylers and mike antis should take notes

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so mike wheeler is a person who can remember, in vivid detail, meeting will at five years old, and recounts the whole thing at age thirteen with barely any effort beyond the emotional vulnerability aspect. he's also a person who remembers the exact second he met el, down to the tiniest details like the giant benny's burgers shirt she was wearing at the time, and he recounts this memory two years and four months after the fact. it's established at various different points throughout the show that mike consistently has a freakishly good, incredibly detail-oriented memory, and that it spans multiple years. and yet he somehow can't remember what he said during his argument with max just three months after the fact. that's concerning! it was a big moment! mike talked to el about it later, and it seemed like he was trying to tell her something important! but surely loss of memory isn't tied to character's heads being supernaturally messed with in this show. surely joyce wasn't worried about the inevitability of will not being able to remember anything when he was flayed. surely mike hasn't felt like he was going crazy since he was twelve years old! no way!!!

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“We used to be best friends…”

Mike between 85’ and 86’

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was going through my doc drafts and low-key got inspired to finish this one idk

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mike wheeler + text posts 3/?

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what kind of danger? mike, what kind of danger? danger danger.

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Okay so we all know that this is a precious Byler moment:

But one thing not being talked about is Mike's expression. Mike is staring at nothing in particular. Leaning into Will, resting his head on Will's shoulder. He's afraid of the future that awaits them. He can't completely focus on the moment, all he knows is that leaning into Will is comforting. He knows that he doesn't need to be on guard and hyper aware when he's with Will, because Will is a safe place for him.

It's not just a parting hug, it's a fleeting, precious moment where Will is once again a source of quiet strength for Mike. A moment of unspoken comfort between them.

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i didn't include this one in my 1x02 mike set but dshkdjf look at him

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season 3 scene redraw ?!

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" it's always been in the way my hand gripped his shoulder, the way i looked at him, I think. i'm not letting go, not again. "

(inspired by my current mood, a byler gif stamp f2u w credit)

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it's been three years and max's choked up and desperate cry of "i don't want to die, i'm not ready" at the end of s4 after being suicidal for the majority of the season still hits like a fucking truck. like she was so scared. she was so scared she was literally fifteen she was a kid she didn't want to die she just wanted to hang out with her friends and be normal but she couldn't. she couldn't

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mike has always read as a sad character to me. like, he doesn't have the insane lore like will or el or henry but there's just something sad about him regardless.

he expresses feeling so scared and so alone on only his first day of kindergarten, which suggests he'd already been feeling that way prior. to feel this strongly immediately is alarming. this also parallels to henry telling el he knows what it's like to "be different. to be scared. to be alone"

he's always alone in his basement when handling his bigger emotions

i think the whole basement in general is just sad. he tells el he spends all his time down there and was willing to give up his bedroom for her to have. we know nobody's going down there to check on him. there's a sense of isolation and avoidance of the world.

the flannel covering half of his mirror.

the songs on his playlist being depressing as hell.

mike's color being blue.

he jumps off the cliff without begging for an alternative.

outside of source material, his flaws are stated as being prone to emotional outbursts and mood swings.

the meltdown he has where he destroys el's fort says so much. he regrets what he said and did. he keeps darting back and forth from the door and fort, thinking why isn't she coming back? it's my fault. he takes it out on the fort and calls himself stupid over and over. his voice is cracking as if he's going to cry, but no tear falls out. he then looks at the aftermath, the mess he made, the fort he made for her and now destroyed. and we know his family's home. yet nobody's coming to get him. it's just sad

he reads as a neurodivergent character, but also someone with clinical depression. there's just something wrong, even if there really isn't, at least not in the way that "matters." something will always feel wrong no matter how good things are. there's just a deep hole in you that you were born with that can't ever be filled.

lines like "thank god you're not mike. blah blah blah. you'd be in constant pain" and "he's hurt. he's hurting. [cut to mike] it's weird now knowing who it was this whole time" and "a place of monsters. it is right next to you and you don't even see it." especially now that last one. now he's wearing the monsters when nobody else has before. so then.. what are these monsters in relation to mike??

he's just sad idk

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That fact that people pretend the only reason why Mike jumped off that cliff was because of Dustin is crazy. Like yes, he’s a natural leader and wants to protect people 100% but that is a 12 YEAR OLD boy who just jumped off a fucking cliff?? with no hesitation?? someone get Mike in therapy