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alexander sterling, i hate you

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Ellen Schreiber On Her Website For Vampire Kisses Inspiration

In the summer of 1998, I wrote Vampire Kisses. It was published in Belgium in 2000 (YAY!) and the fabulous Katherine Tegen of HarperCollins bought it in 2001 to be published in the fall of 2003.

The idea for Vampire Kisses came to me in three ways...

1. A character. 2. An image. 3. An obsession.

THE CHARACTER

In the late 90s, Id read an adult novel that I thought was kind of bland except for a very minor character--a rebellious teen girl. I thought if the book was about her, it would be interesting. That thought must have stuck with me--the idea that Id like to write about a character I thought would be interesting to read about. Beyond being rebellious I wanted to make my character confident, feisty, headstrong, fearless, and an outsider. And of course, shed have a sense of humor. And instead of her being the sidekick, the friend, or even worse--the antagonist--shed be the heroine!

THE IMAGE

At the time I was living in a four family apartment building which had a view of a small playground. It was the beginning of a hot and sizzling summer and I saw two goth girls standing on swings and swinging. The contrast of their black outfits, make-up, and hair against the rays of the blazing sun really caught my eye. At the time, I thought one day I might write a poem and call it Dark Angels.

THE OBSESSION

The character and image merged into my head and I couldnt get it out. I was ready to write. Once I married my character with the goth image, I decided she would be obsessed with something--and then it popped in my head--vampires!

THE ROMANTIC VAMPIRE

When I wrote Vampire Kisses all the vampires I was familiar with were bloody, violent, and negative.

I wanted to write about and explore the romantic vampire, without the gore. I liked the idea that a guy could be in love with a girl for all eternity and wanted to write about that kind of strong internal and eternal drive and relationship. My vampire would be rebellious too--in his own way--not the typical violent vampire--but the thirsty for love kind. And of course, hed be hot, hot, hot!

So the hot and sexy vampire that Raven would fall for wasnt going to be malevolent. He was looking for true love and a relationship he could sink his teeth into. That set him apart from other vampires in his world, and like Raven, hed be an outsider, too.

RAVEN

That was how Raven was born. Back in that summer of 1998 when everyone was out getting a tan and jumping in the pool, I was holed up in my apartment with my computer that faced a bare white wall. I began writing and creating the kind of character I wanted to read about-- a headstrong girl, who was fearless, feisty, and confident. I decided shed live in a conservative environment and dress differently than those around her. And to her it wouldnt matter. She wasnt about to conform--because that was who she was.

ALEXANDER

When I wrote Vampire Kisses I imagined Alexander as a young Johnny Depp. Hello! Need I say more?

Again, he wasnt going to be the typical vampire--he was going to be searching for a girl who he could love for eternity. Wed see him from Ravens perspective, hed be sexy, dreamy, and of course, mysterious.

TREVOR

I started with his appearance. He was based on a guy Id met while waiting for a plane at the airport. He had blond hair and piercing green eyes. I used him for the physical attributes of Trevor. Trevor was intended to be a character that offered romantic tension for Raven in the beginning of the novel. However, when I write I just sit down and put fingers to key board and Trevor began showing up in every scene! He was originally intended to be a small part, but he just kept showing up and driving Raven--and me-- crazy. Ultimately, by the time I finished the book, he had became a major character in the novel and now the series.

AUNT LIBBY

Aunt Libby is a combo of my Aunt Esther and my long time friend in Chicago. Everyone should have an Aunt Esther! Shes really loving and kind and always into talking about my love life. My friend, Andrea, is a totally hippie-girl, but much more successful in the arts than Aunt Libby. I think shes Jim Morrison reincarnated.

JAGGER

David Bowie has two different eye colors and I always thought that was cool. And twins always fascinated me--the bond that they must share must be so intense. So I had Jagger and Luna be twins--only one was born a vampire and the other born a mortal.

RUBY WHITE

Way before I wrote VK, I spotted a woman who was dressed head-to-toe in white. She was so striking I guess she stuck in my mind. When Raven got a job at Armstrong Travel, suddenly that lady showed up. She wound up being a great contrast to Raven, who is always in black.

DULLSVILLE

I placed Raven in a small town where it was most likely shed be the only one like her and could really stand out. And in a small town rumors spread quickly.

At the time, I felt like I was living in my own Dullsville. Even though I lived in a city-- I was pining for my own true love. The one that you can truly be yourself with and that you cant stop daydreaming about!

I always get the question... where is Dullsville? Is is based on a real place?

Dullsville is a state of mind. Most of it lies in my imagination, but a few parts are based on places Ive driven past. My mom came from a small town in Illinois and she told me they had events like a spring carnival. So I used that as a setting for the end of VAMPIREVILLE.

My husband and I would go for rides in Ohio--corn fields, barns, and pastures for miles. I used one of those houses for Beckys.

HIPSTERVILLE

Again, a town I created that isnt based upon a real place. Its a mixture of my imagination and streets in Chicago. Some readers ask if its Yellow Springs, Ohio. It isnt but Id love to go there--as it sounds like an awesome place!

As I began writing the novel, I didnt have any idea of plot or other characters. I just sat down and began to write. Trevor was a very minor character--just meant to be a blip on the radar screen. And at that time, I hadnt even thought of Jagger, Luna, and Valentine--or the Coffin Club.

VAMPIRE KISSES was first published in Belgium by Facet in 2000. It was called- De kus van de vampier.

Since my friends and family cant read Dutch, my brother Mark was kind enough to print some up in English. I didnt have an agent (here in the US).

I remember thinking, when I originally began writing Vampire Kisses... I thought maybe I could submit it to Facet, the publisher in Belgium that published Johnny Lightning. I had no idea it would go further than that. Now there are going to be at least eight novels and six volumes of mangas and both are published in other countries.

Im so happy I chose not to get a tan that summer. It pays to stay out of the sun, just like a true vampire!

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Official Vampire Kisses wallpapers from the Ellen Schreiber website!

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♥︎Raven♥︎

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Reasons why Vampire Kisses is a better vampire romance novel series than Twilight

1. Alexander Stirling does not try to Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girlboss Raven

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Gotta say I’m digging that anarch hairy vamp tummy on Nines. Same way with Taika’s in OFMD before learning all his Zio laundry. I need a cigarette…

I a new big boy👹

...and your enemy closer

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#what do you do if you were too bullied by life and neurotypicals to engage in the original tumblr wave but always peeked at its contents and wanted to be that bad agnsty girl so you’re a bit familiar with the whole shtick, and ten years later you’re kinda feeling like a veteran even though you had like two posts between 2013 and 2017?

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♚Get to Known me Meme, Royalist Edition♚

♚[12/15] Memorable Royal Moments - The Assassination of Empress Elisabeth♚

Elisabeth of Bavaria, popularly known as Sisi/Sissi, was the famously beautiful but deeply troubled wife of Franz Joseph I. She had a very informal upbringing, and the rigidity of court life was stifling to her. She became obsessive over her health and appearance, exercising constantly. She had to be sewn into her tight corsets and spent hours daily on her hair.

After the death of her only son, Crown Prince Rudolf, in 1889, she sank into an even deeper depression. She wore mourning for the rest of her life and spent increasing amounts of time travelling abroad. In 1898 Elisabeth travelled incognito to Geneva, Switzerland, despite rumours of assassination attempts.

On September 10th, she and her lady in waiting left their hotel to catch a steamship bound for Montreux. While walking there, she was approached by 25-year-old Italian anarchist Luigi Lucheni, who proceeded to stab her with a sharpened file. Lucheni would alter say he’d come to Geneva to kill a sovereign, and it didn’t matter who it was. His initial target was the Duke of Orléans,but he had left the city and so he settled on Elisabeth instead.

After being stabbed,Elisabeth collapsed but was helped to her feet and managed to get to the ship. She lost consciousness on the ship again, and her lady in waiting cut the laces of her tight corset so she could breathe. The Empress revived long enough to say she wasn’t in pain and ask what happened, before collapsing yet again. A brown stain was then noticed on her left breast, and the ship was turned back towards port. By the time they’d carried her back to the hotel, Elisabeth was dead. Lucheni was apprehended and sentenced to life in prison, but was found hanged in his cell, an apparent suicide, in 1910.

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A drawing book of the later Empress of Austria.

On the flyleaf handwritten in pencil (transl.) “child’s drawing book of the later Empress Elisabeth of Austria, Duchess in Bavaria. From the estate of the Countess Camilla von Otting, her governess and courtlady”. 40 pages, predominantly pencil drawings, but also watercolours, among them the coloured draft of a congratulation for the name day of her favourite brother Carl Theordor nicknamed “Gackel”, signed “Possenhofen - Elisabeth”. The drawings depict primarily the family castle Possenhofen at Lake Starnberg and its surroundings. There are several landscape and tree sketches as well, partially with place names such as Jakobsbrunnen, Possenhofen, Garatshausen, Oberzismerung and others. The book also includes self portraits, studies of the head, of figures, fashion, animals, etc. An entire page dated “26. October” (probably around 1844) is dedicated to the portrayal of the travel preparations for the winter sojourn in Munich.

Source

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Sht like this is hotter than the sun for every Russian lol

Literally this is what she's supposed to do but it's so sexy to actually do it

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God bless the vampire pop culture, and VPN.

who gave them the right to flirt like that on the main??????

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WHY THE HELL YOUTUBE DID NOT SHOW ME THIS?????

mamma mia, here louis de pointe du lac goes again!

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God my posts are chaotic.

I’m sorry. I can’t do anything about it. If I do, I’ll finish writing one post by the time I’ll retire.

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I keep going to DBT sessions, even though I still have no idea what my diagnosis is. I just feel like it helps.

Like I’m still pretty sure that if I go to the first psychiatrist he’ll repeat his NPD diagnosis, and I’m EVEN MORE SURE that the second one will defend her BPD one. The lady I visited like 1.5 years ago that prescribed me my first medications (which did not do like anything mostly) will also repeat herself on Anxiety disorder.

I absolutely adore my new therapist, turns out I got into maybe THE ONLY one clinic in my part of Russia that recognises the existence of adult ADHD, she has ADHD herself and the more I talk to her, the more I recognise some traits of the disorder in myself. KNOWING THAT THERE IS 999999% CHANCE THAT IF ILL GO TO A PSYCHIATRIST HE WILL NOT SUPPORT THIS ASSUMPTION AND SUGGEST SOMETHING ELSE.

Like how do you people get diagnosed. HOWWWWW.

I resonate with some of those diagnosis, to some extent, but not having any specific box to put yourself into, or any specific medications for your needs, types of therapy that has enough research base and proven effectiveness, it’s not cool.

And let’s drop a freaking WAR at the top of it, alongside with your country showing some early signs of a failed state stage, your entire government in strong need for some Haaga trial. with everything that goes along in internal and external politics.

We should really talk more about the impact of political regimes and it’s actions on mental health. Or I might just not know those voices, creators and writers.

The potential i feel in this type of therapy is boundless, but you know you can’t do everything right at the first take and it messes up your motivation and self-esteem. I often hear that some people take two or even three courses to ensure they have learned everything, maybe I’ll do the same. But also isn’t it makes you relax even more knowing that you can take the course as many times as you wanted so you don’t need to train that much or pay that much attention to the materials???

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This blog idea kinda stagnated for various reasons, and fear of political persecution is not the least of them.

But still, I did not delete it, I keep thinking about it, and by writing something here I exercise my thinking in English and just overall keep figuring out blogging. It’s not easy fare I say, like whoever can post something at least once a week is my hero.

So here’s a recap of everything that happened with me, and around me. I’ll post each of those things as a separate post otherwise it will become smth that Russians call простыня (aka unnecessary long text).