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Gotta say I’m digging that anarch hairy vamp tummy on Nines. Same way with Taika’s in OFMD before learning all his Zio laundry. I need a cigarette…

I a new big boy👹

...and your enemy closer

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#what do you do if you were too bullied by life and neurotypicals to engage in the original tumblr wave but always peeked at its contents and wanted to be that bad agnsty girl so you’re a bit familiar with the whole shtick, and ten years later you’re kinda feeling like a veteran even though you had like two posts between 2013 and 2017?

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♚Get to Known me Meme, Royalist Edition♚

♚[12/15] Memorable Royal Moments - The Assassination of Empress Elisabeth♚

Elisabeth of Bavaria, popularly known as Sisi/Sissi, was the famously beautiful but deeply troubled wife of Franz Joseph I. She had a very informal upbringing, and the rigidity of court life was stifling to her. She became obsessive over her health and appearance, exercising constantly. She had to be sewn into her tight corsets and spent hours daily on her hair.

After the death of her only son, Crown Prince Rudolf, in 1889, she sank into an even deeper depression. She wore mourning for the rest of her life and spent increasing amounts of time travelling abroad. In 1898 Elisabeth travelled incognito to Geneva, Switzerland, despite rumours of assassination attempts.

On September 10th, she and her lady in waiting left their hotel to catch a steamship bound for Montreux. While walking there, she was approached by 25-year-old Italian anarchist Luigi Lucheni, who proceeded to stab her with a sharpened file. Lucheni would alter say he’d come to Geneva to kill a sovereign, and it didn’t matter who it was. His initial target was the Duke of Orléans,but he had left the city and so he settled on Elisabeth instead.

After being stabbed,Elisabeth collapsed but was helped to her feet and managed to get to the ship. She lost consciousness on the ship again, and her lady in waiting cut the laces of her tight corset so she could breathe. The Empress revived long enough to say she wasn’t in pain and ask what happened, before collapsing yet again. A brown stain was then noticed on her left breast, and the ship was turned back towards port. By the time they’d carried her back to the hotel, Elisabeth was dead. Lucheni was apprehended and sentenced to life in prison, but was found hanged in his cell, an apparent suicide, in 1910.

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A drawing book of the later Empress of Austria.

On the flyleaf handwritten in pencil (transl.) “child’s drawing book of the later Empress Elisabeth of Austria, Duchess in Bavaria. From the estate of the Countess Camilla von Otting, her governess and courtlady”. 40 pages, predominantly pencil drawings, but also watercolours, among them the coloured draft of a congratulation for the name day of her favourite brother Carl Theordor nicknamed “Gackel”, signed “Possenhofen - Elisabeth”. The drawings depict primarily the family castle Possenhofen at Lake Starnberg and its surroundings. There are several landscape and tree sketches as well, partially with place names such as Jakobsbrunnen, Possenhofen, Garatshausen, Oberzismerung and others. The book also includes self portraits, studies of the head, of figures, fashion, animals, etc. An entire page dated “26. October” (probably around 1844) is dedicated to the portrayal of the travel preparations for the winter sojourn in Munich.

Source

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Sht like this is hotter than the sun for every Russian lol

Literally this is what she's supposed to do but it's so sexy to actually do it

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God bless the vampire pop culture, and VPN.

who gave them the right to flirt like that on the main??????

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WHY THE HELL YOUTUBE DID NOT SHOW ME THIS?????

mamma mia, here louis de pointe du lac goes again!

(youtube)

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God my posts are chaotic.

I’m sorry. I can’t do anything about it. If I do, I’ll finish writing one post by the time I’ll retire.

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I keep going to DBT sessions, even though I still have no idea what my diagnosis is. I just feel like it helps.

Like I’m still pretty sure that if I go to the first psychiatrist he’ll repeat his NPD diagnosis, and I’m EVEN MORE SURE that the second one will defend her BPD one. The lady I visited like 1.5 years ago that prescribed me my first medications (which did not do like anything mostly) will also repeat herself on Anxiety disorder.

I absolutely adore my new therapist, turns out I got into maybe THE ONLY one clinic in my part of Russia that recognises the existence of adult ADHD, she has ADHD herself and the more I talk to her, the more I recognise some traits of the disorder in myself. KNOWING THAT THERE IS 999999% CHANCE THAT IF ILL GO TO A PSYCHIATRIST HE WILL NOT SUPPORT THIS ASSUMPTION AND SUGGEST SOMETHING ELSE.

Like how do you people get diagnosed. HOWWWWW.

I resonate with some of those diagnosis, to some extent, but not having any specific box to put yourself into, or any specific medications for your needs, types of therapy that has enough research base and proven effectiveness, it’s not cool.

And let’s drop a freaking WAR at the top of it, alongside with your country showing some early signs of a failed state stage, your entire government in strong need for some Haaga trial. with everything that goes along in internal and external politics.

We should really talk more about the impact of political regimes and it’s actions on mental health. Or I might just not know those voices, creators and writers.

The potential i feel in this type of therapy is boundless, but you know you can’t do everything right at the first take and it messes up your motivation and self-esteem. I often hear that some people take two or even three courses to ensure they have learned everything, maybe I’ll do the same. But also isn’t it makes you relax even more knowing that you can take the course as many times as you wanted so you don’t need to train that much or pay that much attention to the materials???

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This blog idea kinda stagnated for various reasons, and fear of political persecution is not the least of them.

But still, I did not delete it, I keep thinking about it, and by writing something here I exercise my thinking in English and just overall keep figuring out blogging. It’s not easy fare I say, like whoever can post something at least once a week is my hero.

So here’s a recap of everything that happened with me, and around me. I’ll post each of those things as a separate post otherwise it will become smth that Russians call простыня (aka unnecessary long text).

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You can't win with ASPD, because if you mask then you're a liar. If you make an effort to treat people with compassion you're manipulative. If you display symptoms you're either an edgelord or a scary sociopath not worthy of respect.

You'll struggle your entire life with the trauma that caused your disorder while people discredit your experiences, because obviously you're not allowed to feel pain or let anything bother you.

Chasers fetishize your disorder while ableists screech about how you should be locked up, denied basic human rights, or put down. Media that glamorizes your disorder for shock value will make beaucoup bucks while you're unable to find a single therapist willing and able to treat you. Psych literature will state that you're emotionally volatile while onlookers call you cold and incapable of human emotion. Psych literature will state that 50% of people with your diagnosis have a comorbid anxiety disorder, but textbooks will claim people like you are unable to feel fear in an effort to dehumanize you.

Any resources you find will be buried between ten times as many resources for victims of people like you, telling them to run and teaching them how to manipulate you. Even educators will fail to discuss your diagnosis in a practical way because they're too busy name-dropping Bundy and Dahmer. You will be told to fix yourself without any help doing so. You will be told to fix yourself while being told that people like you are beyond saving. Other abuse survivors will tell you to not interact with them, so you'll make your own spaces and then they'll follow you into your own spaces to harass you.

People armchair diagnose politicians, cops, and abusers with your disorder as an explanation for their bigotry and cruelty. People armchair diagnose CEOs with your disorder to prove that you have some kind of unfair advantage over everyone else in society. They'll write articles about it for clicks and clout and everyone in the comments section will vent about their ex.

If you complain about any of it they'll accuse you of gaslighting and proving their point - that you're a terrible person who's not a person at all.

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Able-bodied: someone who isn’t physically disabled.

Able-minded: someone who isn’t mentally disabled.

Neurotypical: someone who isn’t neurodivergent

They all mean different things. There are huge overlaps but you also need to keep in mind they are different things. For example, someone can easily be physically disabled but able-minded. Someone can be neurodivergent but able-bodied. Some people are all three. Keep it in mind.

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the cigarette kiss

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Help Iranian people in their fight against religious fundamentalists by spreading the news.

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There is barely any news coming from in Iran as the internet is shut down. Please help us by spreading awareness about what is happening in Iran. Don’t let our voice die down.

Fuck the police

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I know that it's hard to hear about innocent people dying. I know it's hard to care about politics especially if it's from other countries or if it doesn't affect you. it might be depressing for you to hear about these things happening but imagine living it. it's our last chance to win this fight, if we don't the internet is gonna stay limited, more people would die from poverty and police brutality, they will be more strict about the hijab and more afab people would be arrested. maybe you're asking yourself what can I do about it? maybe you're thinking that it's none of your business and sharing posts won't do shit. maybe you're right, at the end of the day it's our revolution, it's our fight. and I swear that we're trying our best to overthrow this brutal dictatorship.

but they're killing people, using minors as police, using schools and ambulances to hide police forces, they are breaking into people's houses and beating and arresting protesters. so I beg you to talk about it and share the news. the only reason that they haven't shut down the internet completely and haven't killed 1500 people like in 2019 is that the world is watching us, the world knows about us. after 44 years of oppression and fear and violence finally our voices are being heard. so don't let people call it a color revolution, don't let them call it islamophobic to burn a veil. these are some tactics that the government use to silence iranian people. so just ignore it and get your news from iranian people instead of so called "leaders" of the protests.

help us if you can, be our voice.