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I really feel like my obsession over ships and fanfiction comes, at least in part from my own difficulties with romance.

I have been out as queer for most of my life because I'm lucky to have such a respectful family, and yet I still really struggle with labeling myself as aromantic or arospec. A lot of the stress comes from not entirely knowing if what I'm feeling really counts.

I do like being in love, I like flirting, I like pining over people, I typically enjoy dating, or at least I don't like not being with someone. But at most points, I just don't really see a difference. I love my partners in the same way I love my best friends. I'd be happy to spend the rest of my life with them, I'd even kiss them if it was socially acceptable.

And it feels like just as much as I enjoy the typical parts of a relationship, I also hate them. I find myself getting irritated at the people who I am seeing for simply expressing that they love me. It feels so wrong because they're being kind, but it doesn't make me happy. It just makes me want to be away from them. After expressing this to several people, they tell me, "You just haven't met the right one yet." And maybe that's correct, but it's so disheartening. I want the fun, cute relationship things in theory, but I hate it in practice, and it's so unfair to the people I date.

It also feels like such a heavy label. I can not imagine meeting someone I genuinely adore and having to explain to them that sometimes I just can't love them and that I can't see a difference between them and my close friends. So I just power through it until I get so miserable that I push them away.

In media, though... I love romance media, and I love seeing the unrealistic confessions and the cutesy moments. The point in the story where they finally admit to liking the other? That's everything to me! If I experienced it, I'd probably die from embarrassing, but when it isn't me, it's like...

WOAH!!!

I wish feeling the love of a real person made me that happy, and I wish I really understood what was happening with me so I could at least know how to work with it.

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I'd kill for these two

First post..,,. Hi

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Does anybody have any league era jayvik fic recs? I adore arcane, but I crave that dynamic (and the bickering that comes with it)

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I met a guy on a League server the other day who said that Viktor was the worst Arcane character because his motivation was unrealistic, and he was boring. He followed this claim up by saying, "The only reason people like him is because he got a Twenty One Pilots song," with full seriousness. This was not the first awful take he shared, but it is the one I've been seething over since it happened.

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I am actually fascinated by people who can love multiple pairings at once. It's baffling to me because, like, I'm so obsessive about ONE ship. How do you do it when you're a multi-shipper? Do you have multiple folders filled with 2k+ pictures or videos of them? Do you have a preference? How do you function throughout the day, because I can barely not burn down my house making lunch because I had to go listen to a song that reminded me of my babies. And don't even get me started on people who can be in multiple fandoms at once!

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If I had a nickel for every time I shipped a guy with his mystical, scary creature boyfriend

I'd have 2 nickels, which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice.

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Truely love the internet because what do you MEAN the director of tangled made Jayvik art back in like 2021? WHAT DO YOU MEAN MEL'S VA REPOSTS FANART OF THEM????

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Christian Linke may claim that Jayce and Viktor weren't intended to be gay. This doesn't really matter, though, because the first words that came out of my mother's mouth upon seeing them were, "Gay, they're gay for each other, right?"

And that's all that really matters.

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Giving angel ocs feathery ears >>

I love drawing her so much, evil little angel woman <33

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I'D GLADLY WELCOME BOTS WITH MEN IN BIKINI.

WOMEN IN BIKINIS, DO NOT INTERACT.

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Actually obsessed with whatever the heck alhaitham has going on. Feeble scholar, never puts in overtime, stopped a government coup to keep his 9 to 5. Does not want other people to talk to him, has been carrying around the same book for months, drops the most annoyingly cryptic message and then leaves. He is the most ordinary guy ever and at the same time a complete weirdo

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👀

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My favorite pair of pants

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Dottore doctor man