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Elaborate.

I think I'm starting to have beef with a one (1) year old

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I have the eldest daughter urge to run way and start the new life

Im the youngest child but nothing was ever expected from my brother

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This room is filled with my mistakes and its haunting me

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I'd cry.

I'd cry if i knew how to

But i dont

I don't know how to cry.

I cried all my tears as a child and now there's none left, now i can only put it inside of my heart,and wait till it comes out as hysteria or anger, as a burning pain in my throat.

Can we reschedule my lobotomy surgery, Mr. Doctor?

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God please help me for I'm losing my mind

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And tonight ill ache with undefined sadness and longing for a reason i dont know

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When i was a little girl i was deeply religious

And i remeber i wanted to be a priest

But then i learned that a woman cannot be a priest only a nun

And i think that was the moment my rage began

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Fuck indeed my future plans were just shattered

Me at age 13, exhausted at school after staying up all night to read fanfic: I can’t wait until I’m an adult and I can stay up reading without any consequences!

Me, an adult, exhausted at work after staying up all night reading fanfic: Fuck.

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In another universe the sun is brighter

My friends are kinder

And my mother is happier

Yet in another univerese there's still you

And you're the same

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Im watching a girl dance tango in socks and higheels

It gave me a sudden nostalgia

And pain deep in the heart

i cannot describe

It feels like summer came 3months earlier this year

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Dont

Dont believe, its not worth it

No need for a god

Nor for angels of death

Nothing else

I dont need anything else

So long as you let me love you

And if you wont let me

I'll leave and I'll die

And you wont know

That im already gone

But ill come back like a shadow

Without a soul, without a face

I'll come back

And I'll love you again

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In another universe I'm still 7 years old and nothing has happened