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Reasons to not to eat today:

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SO I WON'T LOOK LIKE THIS.

I actually have been making progress at the gym, but weight is still the same and definitely higher now, after christmas. I like my legs more, my waist is there again, but I am 12kg heavier than last christmas. And comparing to my body at the start at the year when in a really small time I lost 10kg (we talk about some weeks) I am just really fucking fat. After all I have been gaining 19kg in a year from my lowest to the highest; 62kg against 81kg.

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when everyone is worried about your health but you‘re just a chill guy who wants to lose some weight

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star ving art1st

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“When hunger happens in a normal fasting situation, it comes on like a wave that you need to ride out. You might notice the hunger, feeling it build, and setting off those alarm bells in your brain. You might feel like it’s never going to go away, but then after a few minutes, it does. And it will get better over time.”

-Dr. Alexis Shields, “A Comprehensive Guide to Fasting”

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Think about it, being fat is never ever fun. It's not fun to

1. Be called the fat one

2. Take up other people's space

3. Worry about shopping because you can't fit into clothes

4. To be called older than you are

5. Weigh yourself infront of others

6. To get bodyshamed by everyone as a "joke"

7. To always be insecure of yourself

8. To hate what you see in the mirror

9. To have low self esteem and confidence

10. To look big even in huge clothes

Moral? It's. not. fun. to. be. fat

And the list goes on..

Ik cuz I've been there...and let me tell you, you can't just body positivity your way into it...you'll always hate yourself inside. I know it

Skinny will always be in fashion. Its a fact.

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it is not a sin to want to be thin

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How life been feeling lately

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TW: su1c1de att3mpts and s3lfharm

I have been at psych ward in compulsory treatment for a week now, because I tried to k1ll myself twice last week. My su1c1dal and ed behaviour is more psychotic nowadays, and I am so fucking out of clue altought I am getting outta here tomorrow. Everyone starts to say, that they just can't help me so much anymore; they just put me here, keep some days, and put back home. Then I try to k1ll myself again sooner or later, and here I am again.

In ward they don't care so much do I eat or not, but I have been eating. I look some other ed people with tube in here, and I have this one though: I am not gonna come back to ward with ed EVER. So I keep silent, purge some meals and just won't tell anyone. I feel so much anxiety after every meal and they probably think I am better with ed and I tell everyone I am better, and at same time I just can't wait I am back home tomorrow and can start to ⭐️ve and exercise so much I want, start to weight myself again and just start to see my collarbones to come to show again and weight going down.

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It's been a while,

but back here again.

I tried recovery, but I feel like I just end up here everytime.

It's not being skinny anymore. It's being invisible. Small, beautiful and light like a butterfly. It's numbing things I don't want to feel.

My crush is moving from finland to sweden, so that's fucking it. I really liked him, and now... I don't want to feel. He made me feel so wanted and beautiful and I don't want to even think sbout it. I think he was like a missing piece from my life. It kind of replaced my disorder for a moment.

Now I need something again.

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I feel like everything is normal, and I am okay.

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I losted my track so fucking bad. But then I remembered that I have a fucking art exhibition opening in three weeks, soooooo... Somewhere around -10kg is my goal to that, because I have to look like my best there. At least if I drop 3kg in one week, I am at my goal in three weeks.

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I just want to be thin already.

The most I regret that I asked help in January, when I had lost 10kg in one and half week, because I didn't eat in that time anything. After that I started to gain, and right now I am 17kg heavier, than start of the year.

So I hate myself SO FUCKING MUCH. In this time I could be in that 35kg what is my goal, instead of being again so fucking fat.

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Th1nspo

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