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haven’t used this blog in a WHILLEEE goddamn. but hiii um anyways im lovesick <3 /pos I think but oh my god. i cant stop thinking about this FUCKING GUY !!!!!!!! im hbbchdhdhdbhccbjjvkvjbxb. 🥰
#KM CRINGGEEENI JUST. AGSUHHDHH#i dont have any friends I csn say this to much. but AAAAH!!!!!!#and the best part is that it honestly seems like it is mutual. maybe i am wrong However when I Do talk to ppl they say#‘oh my god youre such an idiot he’s head over heels for you’ man i Hope So.#one of these days ill ask to hold his hand. romantic i know. im grayaro ok leave me alone#but tis just !!! oh man I am full of love for this boy!!!!! he is so kind to me. & his smile.#GOD I AM SUCH A LOSER MUTUALS IF YOU SEE THIS NO YOU FUCJING DONT.#im having my dumb high school romance leave me alone. praying it goes well bc I am Seriously considering asking to hold his hand#if i get rejected it will be Rough. well actually it’ll be fine but I built stuff up in y head now im scared#ITS OK TOBIN YOURE (beep) YEARS OLD. YOU WILL BE OK ITS JUST A CRUSH OJ SOME GUY#anyways. sorry. couldn’t sleep needed to yell somewhere That’s What The Alt Is For!#gn now 😴
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why does tumbolr have. to have. pornbots. like genuinely i didnt need to see that shit in order to block them i am sooo uncomfortable now !!
#im. literally WHY#that one just straibghtup. was p/rn <- NOT GETTING THIS IN THOSE TAGS IDEK WHAT OWULD HAPPEN BUT.#usually its like. someone wearing smth thats VERY revealing. in a like sexual way. this was just straight p/rn.#i didnt need to see that!! bro!!! why!!!#this goes on the altttt <3
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why do i literally always knick myself shaming. this is genderfluid phobic
#sometimes i want hairy legs bro !!! sometimes i dont !!! when its one of those times i dont i dont wanna bleed out tryna get it..#i like having Smooth Legs man idk. i dont wanna BLEED OUT tho#i knicked myself so bad this time worse than ever 😭 bro wtf. i need to be more careful i guess 💔#anyways hiii everyone im fine 👍 just knicke myself shaving rip. going to bed now i think :] night night
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sorry this blog has been so depressing lately oof. it started off as fun and games but ts basically just kinda like.. whatever unfiltered thoughts i dont wanna post for 450 ppl to see and lately theyve been depressing bc thats just where im at. promise they wont always be tho. love u all <3
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I FIGURED OUT WHY ALL OF A SUDDEN MY MENTAL HEALTH JUST WENT TO ABSOLUTE SHIT I FIGURED IT OUT
#this is AMAZING oh my god i thought i was just crazy and id been lying to myself the whole time i was happy#NO THERE WAS A CATALYST !!! THAT IS OUTSIDE MY CONTROL !!! ITS NOT ME !!!!!#unfortunately its really not anything i can fix but um. honestly should have figured out it would be this thing again#bc the only other time ive felt this bad in my life ever was from this same thing from different people. and im reacting the same way#im still making myself sleep on the floor and stuff which is such a weirdly specific thing how did i not piece this together#BUT THATS GOOD NEWS. THAT MAKES ME FEEL BETTER.#also vced w some ppl which was rlly nice i love u guys. sorry i disappeared for a hot second there#i dont have to isolate myself anymore cus now i know im not the bad one :D its fucking ***** and *** (irls im not vaguing about anyone)#so. good but also whoa gotta deal with them now my god.#ill be ok though. this is a good step
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healingisntlinearhealingisntlinearhealingisntlinearhealingisntlinear
#gughghgghghghghgghghhghghghhhghghghgghghhghghgh no t doing to hot lately#is it sltill called relapsing if tis not really. youre fault?#i dont control my mental illensses..#im FINE i just. god everything feels shitty n im paranoid and unrelaity and dissociated and i cant stop thinking about things and#i have to go back to school tomorrow i feel like im going to break down cryin as soon as i get there. god#i need to get out of here#vent tw
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we mentally ill up in this joint tonight boys 💪
#uhghhhgghgh i need sleep so bad but !!!! paranoia :)#its fine im fine i jus.t ughghhghgh im annoyed#distractions suck when you need sleep not a distraction. but i wont sleep anyways because i keep hearing fire alarms#and seeing shadows move. so thats not gonna happen lol#vent tw
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:[ dont feel good 2nite bossmen
#dysphoria and paranoia all at once witha hint of unreality. fun times#vent tw#ig??#idk ill be fine im just. ick
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my hair was extra poofy today i looked pretty
#we're being POSITIVE up in this bitch today !!!!!!!!#yasss!!! i love my curly hair and all the frizzes and the poofiness!!!!! it looks cool!!!! :D
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wish i had the guts to just wear a sports bra as a top and leave it at that. itd be so comfortable man
#its not even a dysphoria thing like that doesnt make me dysphoric#im just a Modest(ish) person i guess and that makes me too nervous#BUT I REALLY WANT TO.#idk. maybe i'll try it over the summer when its REALLY hot. or just look for shorter better breathable tops#more tank tops for sure.#but. ufgjkfhlkjfslj#dont rb
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ho wdo u turn off follower count. like i know other people cant see it but I DONT WANT TO SEE IT ANYMORE my god
#sorry its a paranoia night tonight rip... ppl accross the street where ******* **** last month w flashlights. makin me nervous#and im sleep deprived and stressed and mentally and physically exhausted. 2 ppl unfollowed me to day and its GETTING to me#i hate this damned website sometimes it makes me think so unhealthily abt myself. stop making yourself a product allyster jesus#youre a PERSON not a blog your worth is not determined by your number of fucking TUMBLR FOLLOWERS good lord..#i need to sleep tho bc im walking to a friends house tomororw morning i cannot be half asleep on that walk its fuckin dangerous#ill be ok tohough im gona try to sleep now if my headache isnt too bad. and if the paranoias not too bad. ill be fine#ahaha anyways. bye now love u mutuals#<3 its everyone else who makes me nervous i stay for yall and yall only#delete later#vent tw#GN NOW
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hi based tobintwo followers. today i bless you with my cat. he’s in a sink don’t you love him
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hrgnghgbjckkdsfjhf hgcjklhxb <- found out she might get to go to a science museum next week
#m. hgjlksj y ou know that feeling in fanfiction where the person is all warm bc they love someone. thats the feeling i have right now#about the science museam#i knew i was aro but goddamn
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i am no longer the product my weed smoking history teacher would be proud
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