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tyler is a little embarrassed by it all, not that his family are the kind to do the whole matching thing -- he got over that when he was a kid -- having to explain it to asher. it's not that he thinks he'll think anything bad about it, but tyler knows asher's family isn't that type and he doesn't know how to... deal with that. tyler leans down to kiss asher softly, cupping his face in his hands. "i'm cool with it. i'm totally cool with it." it felt like a massive acknowledgement from his family, like they were totally okay with the fact tyler was dating a guy, so much so that they wanted him to be a part of the family. just like that. it was sort of... freeing. "oh, don't think you're gonna get out of all the probing questions just 'cause you wear the sweater. my sister is gonna grill you and my brother-in-law is going to be so embarrassing." he smiles, bumping their noses together before he takes the sweater out of his hands and lays it down next to his own. "but my niece is going to adore you. they all will, because you're you."

asher eyebrows shoot up at the package, "whats this?" he doesn't wait for an answer before opening it and pulling the sweater out. he holds it up in the air, still confused until tyler is explaining further and it dawns on him that tyler has the kind of family that actually does this kind of stuff, "hey, i'm cool with it." he's careful with his tone, because he is okay with it - its just new to him. his family had never really been like that, "unless you're not cool with it. i think its nice that she wants me to feel like part of the family or whatever." his laugh is only a little bitter, "its a way better welcome than you'll get from my family."

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FUCK YOU! reds @ cardinals - 6.30.24

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closed starter for: @littlcfreaks

"look, i know this is dorky -- don't say it's not -- but my mom wants you to wear this. she wants to... make you feel like part of the family." tyler pulls a face and hands the wrapped package to asher. he had tried to tell his mom no, that he wasn't going to make asher be a part of the weird matching sweater thing his family does, but she wouldn't take no for an answer, so here he was. "you can totally say no, or we can just make an excuse and not even go. i don't have a problem with that. we can make arrangements to do it another time. or... never, if you want that. am i talking too much?" he's talking too much.

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"SOOOOO... WHAT IF WE KISSED...?" PROMPTS * assorted dialogue for tossing out the idea of being in a relationship or just kissing and seeing what happens after, adjust as necessary

i hear you're a good kisser.

are you staring at my lips?

how about a kiss for old time's sake?

maybe we could experiment a little.

have you ever thought about kissing me?

is there even an "us?"

a little bird told me you're a really good kisser.

could you see me as... more than just a friend?

what's a little fooling around between friends?

i'll admit, i have thought about you like that.

kissing you sounds like a very good idea.

i've been meaning to ask you out for ages.

maybe we could... see what happens.

there's no harm in a little experimentation.

did you want to kiss me back then?

for what it's worth, i really enjoyed the kiss and i wouldn't mind doing that again sometime.

could we pretend this is our first kiss?

maybe we could go on a date sometime.

you could start by coming closer.

just wondering what you taste like.

i saw you looking at me earlier.

could we talk about... us?

i'm not interested in anyone but you.

i bet if we tried, we could make it work.

a kiss won't kill us.

wanna makeout?

quick, kiss me before they walk over here.

i've wanted to kiss you for a long time now.

i never had the courage to ask you if you'd kiss me.

could i keep seeing you after this?

i really enjoyed it, by the way.

you're a much better kisser than i expected.

well, that got out of hand quickly.

maybe we should redo our first kiss.

next time, we should make it a date.

can i kiss you?

kissing sounds really fun right now.

have you been kissed before?

i never liked kissing until you.

you are... unbelievably good at that.

give me a minute to catch my breath.

your heart is racing.

are you okay? you look very flustered.

are my cheeks burning?

figured we're both about to die, so what the hell.

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cardinals @ nationals - 7.5.24

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braves @ cardinals - 6.24.24

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cubs @ cardinals - 7.13.24

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cardinals @ pirates - 7.4.24

+ bonus

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Mike Faist as Danny The Bikeriders (2023) dir. Jeff Nichols

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nsfw prompts that don’t sound like a bad porno

i’m always tired of seeing the cringiest sentence starters for smut so i’m back at it again kids. feel free to adjust sentences or specify who does the action. 

ACTIONS: 1. for one muse to give the other oral 2. to skinny dip with my muse 3. to shower with my muse 4. to take a hot bath with my muse 5. for sex in public 6. for sex in the car 7. to catch my muse naked 8. to undress my muse 9. for sparring to turn into sex 10. for an argument to turn into sex 11. for make up sex 12. for friends with benefits sex 13. to tie up my muse 14. to blindfold my muse 16. to make one muse watch the other masturbate 17. for a threesome (specify muses) 18. for one muse to wake the other by fingering them/giving a handjob 19. for one muse to deny the other orgasm 20. for angry sex  21. for break up sex 22. for sex after a near death experience  23. for after battle sex 24. for sex to get revenge on an ex 25. for one muse to give the other a lap dance or strip tease  26. to make my muse whimper 27. for one muse to take the other from behind 28. for sex against the wall 29. for sex on a table/counter/desk 30. for sex in a pool/hot tub 31. for one muse to choke the other 32. for rough sex  33. for our muses to try a new position 34. for our muses to try a new kink together 35. for one muse to use a toy on the other 36. for one muse to sit on the other’s face

WORDS:  “touch me.” “kiss me here.” “you have to be quiet if you want to cum.” “say my name.”  “oh fuck-” “i need you so bad.” “i’m so wet right now.”  “i want you to touch yourself for me.”  “let me hear you, baby.”  “come for me.” “i want to hear you cum.” “harder.” “i need to feel you.” “i want you.” “you’re so hot.” “can i come yet?” “please, baby—” “i’m so close.” “i told you to be quiet.” “i told you to stay still.” “are you gonna be good for me?” “i promise i’ll be good.” “i’m not done with you yet.” “i’ve been waiting all day…” “you’re all i want.” “just kiss me, i can’t take this anymore.” “just shut up and fuck me.”  “i’m gonna fuck you until you beg me to stop.”  “say please.” “i could’t stop thinking about you all day.” “your fingers feel so good.” “your mouth feels so good.” “i want your fingers inside me.” “i want it to hurt.” “more—” “i want you to forget everything and everyone else but me.” “make me forget.” “i just want to feel something.”  “make me.” “be quiet.”  “they’re gonna catch us—” “yes— right there.” “that feels so good.” “does that feel good?” 

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𝐍𝐒𝐅𝐖  𝐋𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒.  (𝐏𝐓. 𝟏)

i. i wish i could explain what led to this. but for whatever reason, you’re getting this post, and idk when i’ll remember to post it bc it’s very late and it’s very likely that i’ll draft it, but we’ll see how it goes! i hope you enjoy them, and DO NOT ADD TO THE LIST!!! i WILL edit or make a new list once i’m conscious and the vibes are returned! ( if you like these, i would love to direct u towards THIS POST bc it’s a very very very good meme made by an exceptionally talented meme-maker! )

[  MY PLACE  ]:          sender and receiver return to the sender’s home, where things proceed to get heated.

[  YOURS  ]:          sender and receiver return to the receiver’s home, where things proceed to get heated.

[  BACKSEAT  ]:          while parked safely, the sender and receiver, fuelled by mutual passions, climb into the backseat of the car together to have sex.

[  DRIVER  ]:          while parked safely, one of the muses climbs into the other muses lap, leading to an immediately intimate situation in the driver’s seat of the car.

[  BEDROOM  ]:           after things get heated between the two muses, they proceed to take things to the bedroom, where things get even friskier.

[  SOFA  ]:          too impatient to get to the bedroom, the two muses end up taking things to the next level on the sofa.

[  FLOOR  ]:           either by choice or by clumsy and painful accident, the two muses end up entangled on the floor, where they proceed to have sex.

[  KITCHEN  ]:          unable to resist, the sender and receiver proceed to have sex in the kitchen.

[  OFFICE  ]:           one of the muses has to work late and alone one night; the other decides to pay them a visit, and things immediately take a heated and intimate turn as they get frisky in the office.

[  OFFICE  DESK  ]:           after spontaneously sweeping the contents of the desk to the ground, the sender and receiver proceed to have sex on top of the desk.

[  WALL  ]:           pinning the other up against the wall, the two muses begin to have sex up against a wall.

[  WINDOW  ]:          while in a room with floor to ceiling windows, the sender and receiver proceed to have sex up against the window.

[  BATH  ]:          sender and receiver, while sharing a bath (either planned or spontaneously) proceed to have sex together while in it.

[  SHOWER  ]:          sender and receiver, while sharing a shower together (either planned or spontaneously) proceed to have sex together while in it.

[  PUBLIC  BATHROOM  ]:          while in a fancy restaurant or bar or hotel, the sender and receiver meet each other in a (clean) public bathroom with nobody else inside; they proceed to take advantage of this, and have sex in one of the cubicles.

[  LAKE  ]:          after going skinny-dipping together, the sender and receiver proceed to have sex in a tranquil, romantic, secluded lake.

[  WATERFALL  ]:          after taking a midnight swim together in a secluded lake, the sender and receiver notice a nearby waterfall, and things proceed to get frisky while they explore it and each other together.

[  STORAGE  CLOSET  ]:          when the mood strikes both the sender and receiver in a public setting, they both find a small storage closet together, and have sex inside.

[  LIBRARY  ]:          having found a guaranteed private part of a library, the sender and receiver begin to get frisky behind the bookshelves.

[  GYM  ]:          after a heated and energetic training session together, the sender and receiver, at the conclusion of the sparring match, proceed to have sex on the gymnasium floor.

[  CINEMA  ]:           while in the back of a largely unoccupied movie theatre, the sender and receiver proceed to get frisky in the back row.

[  MILE-HIGH  ]:          while on an airplane flight together, the sender and receiver decide to mark the occasion by having sex in the airplane bathroom.

[  DRESSING  ROOM  ]:           the sender and receiver proceed to have sex together in a dressing room.

[  TENT  ]:          in the middle of the night, one of the muse’s slips into the others tent, and they proceed to have sex together.

[  MOTEL  ROOM  ]:          sender and receiver end up having sex together in a motel room.

[  HOTEL  ROOM  ]:           sender and receiver end up having sex together in a hotel room. ( good for one-night-stand threads! )

[  WEDDING  ]:          while attending a wedding party, the sender and receiver decide to slip away from the celebrations and have sex in a more quiet part of the venue.

[  HONEYMOON  SUITE  ]:          after getting married, the sender and receiver slip away from the celebrations early and have sex together in the private luxury of their bridal suite.

[  TOWER  ]:            as they explore the abandoned ruins of a barely standing castle together, the sender and receiver proceed to get frisky in one of the strangely romantic, ivy-strewn towers.

[  FOREST  ]:          while wandering through a heavily wooded area together, the sender and receiver proceed to have sex in the midst of the wilderness.

[  PICNIC  ]:          after a romantic picnic in the countryside, the sender and receiver begin to get intimate, and have sex on the picnic blanket in the midst of the empty and beautiful nature.

[  BEACH  ]:          having found an isolated, untouched cove together, the sender and receiver begin to have sex on the shore of the idyllic beach.

[  BOAT  ]:           the sender and receiver proceed to have sex on a boat (either out at sea or still in the docks).

[  MEADOW  ]:          the sender and receiver begin to get frisky in a clear, untouched meadow.

[  NEW  HOUSE  ]:          having just purchased their first house together, the sender and receiver, so elated by their milestone, decide to celebrate by having sex in their new home before unpacking.

[  SWIMMING  POOL  ]:          as the pair go for a late-night swim in the local swimming pool, the sender and receiver begin to get frisky in the serene and empty pool.

[  SHELTER  ]:          rushing through the rain together to find shelter, the sender and receiver, both drenched to the skin in the downpour, find themselves getting frisky in the shelter of an isolated and empty garage.

[  CAROUSEL  ]:          when they visit a closed funfair in the middle of the night, the sender and receiver go on the carousel together, and in the isolated light of the carousel, they proceed to have sex in one of the wagons.

[  FERRIS  WHEEL  ]:          when visiting a closed funfair in the middle of the night, the sender and receiver stop the ferris wheel when they’re at the very top, and get frisky beneath the stars and above the world.

[  LOVE  TUNNEL  ]:          when visiting a closed funfair in the middle of the night, the sender and receiver slip into the love tunnel, and have sex in one of the carriages inside the tunnel.

[  SAFEHOUSE  ]:          the sender and receiver begin to have sex with each other  while hiding together in a safehouse.

[  CABIN  ]:          seeking warmth and shelter from a huge blizzard in the area, the sender and receiver find a cabin, and end up having sex in front of the fire as the storm rages on.

[  PARTY  ]:          while the sender and receiver attend a party that neither of them have much interest in attending, they slip away to a quiet part of the venue to have sex together.

[  LANDMARK  ]:           while exploring an area, the sender and receiver proceed to have sex in a renowned, but currently unoccupied landmark (e.g. the london eye, the statue of liberty etc– )

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roman was never going to keep his opinions to himself, not if carter was involved. hell, if carter wasn't involved, he'd just find out anyway because roman would drag him into it, make it his business, too. roman sighs, reaching across the table to tangle his fingers into carter's hair. "don't be such a dick. you're not gonna end up alone. you just... need to find better people to fill your cup, y'know? like... like maybe not a dickhead who makes you feel like--" pulling a face, roman waves his hands at carter generally "--all this."

he did know what roman thought. he hadn't been very good at keeping it to himself through his entire relationship, not that carter could really blame him. if the roles were reversed, roman likely would have received the same treatment from him. he groans, head falling forward with a thunk against the table, "yeah, man. i am. i'm scared that i'm gonna end up alone like everyone else in my miserable ass family."

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if there was one thing tyler was always going to make sure of, it was that asher couldn't close himself off to the world and be miserable alone. sure, he could be miserable, but he was going to do it with tyler right there beside him. he made that promise to himself very early on and he has yet to break it. "you'll let me be delusional forever, huh?" fears and concerns and worries were always darting through tyler's head, probably at quite an alarming rate if he wanted to really think about it. whether asher noticed the clues or not was yet to be seen but if he could and he was ignoring them for tyler's sake, thank god. it was what tyler needed. growing up, people used to hone in on them, make him talk it all out. he'd have to sit and recount all the awful things in his head and it just made them manifest, become real. like this, having to ignore them whilst asher did, it made it easier. because if tyler didn't pay attention to them, they would fade away. besides, they weren't even bad things. not like when he was a kid. now it was just about the future he saw with asher, how it might go badly one day. but he didn't want it to and ignoring it meant that it wouldn't. that's certainly what it felt like and tyler could and would live with that. "you never worry about anything." which was certainly not true but tyler could let them live in a world where neither of them had any worries. just for a little while. tyler could definitely let himself get interested in being up against the wall with asher but. of course it doesn't last because of course he actually wants to watch fucking bridgerton. tyler huffs, kicking off his shoes and wandering into the living room to sit beside his boyfriend. "i can't believe you were actually serious. such a dick." tyler's eyes roll affectionately, leaning over asher to kiss the side of his face. "think you can keep an eye on it whilst i make myself busy over here?"

he's just so fond of tyler; relationships had never been easy for him. he tended to be closed off and distant - tyler's personality didn't leave room for that. he was good at washing the worries off of asher's shoulders and asher was getting better at allowing it to happen instead of fighting against it. it was slowly becoming the first thing in his life that he didn't seem to care about his father's opinion on, or his brother's. even though he was sure they would love tyler - how could anyone not? "well, then, i'll let you pretend for as long as you want." he's not really sure what to make of the range of emotions that cross over tyler's face; subtle, but enough changes to the arch of his eyebrows and quivers of his lips that he knew something was going on in his head. as usual; he ignored it, because that was the easier thing to do and asher was terrified that one day something would happen that he wouldn't know how to handle and tyler would realize just how hopeless he actually was - no matter how much he pretended. he sighs, head tilting back and eyes fluttering closed as tyler kisses his jaw and he just nods, "you always try, baby. not worried about that." he doesn't really remember the walk to the apartment, just that he was pressed into tyler's personal space and wrapping his arm around him protectively, holding him tightly so he couldn't walk too far away. once they're inside; asher barely lets the door close before he's shoving his body against tyler's until his back was pressed against the door. it doesn't last as long as he wants - he also wants to watch bridgerton. without a word, he walks into the living room, the jacket he had worn to work discarded on the chair before he sits on the couch, attention on the tv as he navigates to bridgerton, the soundtrack instantly filling the room.

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i'm back

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everything marshall says makes so much sense and yet none at the same time. alec understands why he couldn't tell anyone, including him. but it doesn't make it any nicer. it doesn't mean he's happy or okay with the fact that he was kept in the dark about this for so long. he feels awful for being upset about it, like it's not his place to be upset by any of this. "i know. i mean, i don't, obviously. but it... it's not like i don't know what it feels like to hide things." he has no idea how he would go having to hide a relationship for twenty years, especially not from his family. it makes him feel sick to think of marshall so happy but never being able to show it publicly. he doesn't even know this other man but his heart aches for him, as well. marshall pleads with him and there was really no chance of alec leaving him right now anyway but he certainly can't now. he reaches out for him, drawing him into the safety and comfort of his arms, closing his eyes as tears well up. "why did you break up with him?" maybe they shouldn't do this right now, in the middle of the kitchen but the idea of moving away from marshall even to sit down makes him want to cry even more, because now that he has him in his arms again, he hates the fact that he didn't even for a minute.

"because it wasn't just my thing to tell, alec." he inhales once again and he can't say he's enjoying any of this, particularly when the other man begins to wander away. "it became habit. don't talk about it, hide it, forget about it. it's not been fun. it's not fun to lose something that nobody around you knows anything about and feel unable to even admit to it because it might upset the other person. it might impact them in some shape or form. i didn't tell you because by the time we'd met, it had been almost twenty years since we'd even been together in the first place. because - it wasn't...it wasn't natural for me to talk about it. it was natural for me to hide it, pretend it didn't exist. so i did that - i still did that...until i saw him and i realised i couldn't bear the thought of you being stuck in a situation you were completely unaware about. i couldn't do that to you. i could pretty much handle anyone else being nonethewiser, saying whatever they wanted to, but i can't - i cannot physically do that to you." he frowns, deciding to stride closer, to feign confidence. "you are the love of my life, alec. a few weeks in i knew i wanted to be married to you. i knew i wanted the whole world to know about it. it's different, it's entirely - it's all..." he exhales sharply, a humourless laugh escaping his lips. "i'm really sorry i didn't tell you. i really am. but please don't walk away from me...not now. i'll do anything - i'll tell you anything, just please...please please don't go right now." his voice cracks, as tears fill his eyes. "please, baby."

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alec nods, the pit in his stomach growing heavier as he listens to marshall speak, explaining it all. it doesn't really help, it doesn't make him feel better to know that marshall had never told anybody else, that he's the first person to ever know. he figures he should feel lucky, special, blessed. it just makes him feel sick that it's taken this long for him to know and the only reason is because marshall actually saw him. he laughs sadly, rubbing a hand over his mouth. "the only reason you told me," he starts quietly, "is because i might meet him." alec shakes his head, pushing away from the counter to wander towards the door. "i understand why you didn't tell your family, though it's not like they wouldn't have been understanding, marshall. they would've listened to you and cared for you and been there for you. they always were anyway, so i... fine. whatever. you didn't tell them. why didn't you tell me?"

"yes, i've seen him. i bumped into him at the bar. winnie invited him for a drink, he doesn't know about - he was my friend. we were friends to everyone around us. friends and team mates and that was...that was all anyone thought we were." he sighs shakily, finding it hard to maintain the gap between them. teeth nibbling at his bottom lip. "after that, it was just the norm not to talk about it. then we broke up and i didn't see him so it didn't ever seem - it didn't seem relevant to bring up anymore. then i saw him. i realised i couldn't - i couldn't not tell you. not if you might meet him. it wouldn't feel right. it wouldn't be right."

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he regrets not touching marshall any longer now because he feels like he needs the touch, he needs to be grounded by him. but now that he's put space between them, he feels as though he has to maintain that. even as his world sort of crumbles around him. "twenty years," he mutters, shaking his head. alec looks around and takes a step back so he can lean against the counter, breathing slowly. "why... why didn't you tell me about this sooner, marshall? i don't... have you seen him? is that why?" it's not an accusation of anything because alec knows marshall, he would never hurt him like that. but this just feels like such a unique form of torture for him. like somebody has plucked out his worst nightmare and made it come to life.

it wasn't a conversation he expected to go particularly well, but it didn't change how anxiety provoking it managed to be. he inhales sharply, and exhales as slowly as he can - not that it does anything to cause that discomfort in his chest to diminish. "no -- i did...i said twenty years. we were together for...twenty years." he murmurs the latter words softer still, before he's fiddling with his own fingers, unsure of where to place his hands. he can't reach out for alec again, not when he'd so clearly forced a distance between them. "well, close to - not exactly...but if i were to round up." his head tilts, "from about seventeen to about thirty-ish. we were...seeing each other."