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food insecurity in my house growing up has actually destroyed my appetite now. my mother always controlled what i ate, it's not like we didn't have food in the house. but i was never allowed snacks, so every time i went to a friends house i would stock up or whenever i was home alone i would sneak food from the pantry. i was afraid when i moved out i wouldn't be able to control my eating habits since they were always regulated by my mother, and i'd gain endless weight, but i've actually had the opposite problem. having infinite access to whatever food i want has absolutely ruined any kind of food for me. i was happy for like the first month bc "omg i can finally eat whatever i want!" but recently it's felt like a chore. food never sounds good anymore, nothing i can even think of. grocery shopping has became a rather hard task because i can't find anything i'll actually eat out of the the entire store. i've noticed i've eaten less and less calories by the week and i'm starting to not feel as well physically but i can't be bothered to try and do something about it. the worst part is it's also recently left a part of me empty, (pun not intended) I'm hungry and i know there's food, but i also know i'll never feel the satisfaction i used to get eating ever again. it's painfully mundane, its a chore to deal with.

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Patrick Bateman

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Charley

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walking dead mostly art dump lol

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