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I absolutely love these panels. Not only does it show us a peek into Melinda's mind, but it subtly compares Loid (who's still acing the spy part of his job) to Donovan.

And can I just say how heartbreaking it is to hear Melinda come out with these sensitive things. Oh Melinda. Yor really has a way with people.

Melinda has high-functioning anxiety* and likely high-functioning persistent depressive disorder and/or smiling depression (for similar reasons), and her job and role to uphold the family's standing plays a massive part of that.

*High-functioning anxiety (HFA) describes a situation where someone experiences anxiety symptoms while maintaining a high level of functionality in their daily life. While they may appear successful, organized, and high-achieving to others, individuals with HFA often struggle with persistent worry, self-doubt, and fear of not measuring up internally.

Somebody go give Melinda a hug. I'm glad she's getting CBT/psychotherapy (or whatever Endo-sensei has chosen to call it) at least and keeping notes of the things she struggles to say.

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Oh yes, they have a cult!

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I just love looking at the fashion of the time period.

Damn, Endo-sensei, you did NOT need to make Loid look any hotter. 😂

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Twilight is, deep down, a grumpy, nervous, insecure man who overthinks everything

😂😂😂

Oh yes, he definitely has avoidant attachment.

The spy who could read everything… except for (real) emotions

This might contain spoilers!

One of Twilight's most fascinating aspects is his skill as a spy: he's a master of emotional disguise, capable of reading people with surgical precision in a matter of seconds. His work depends on it: detecting motivations, analyzing behaviors, and adapting to manipulate his surroundings.

As Loid Forger, his civilian facade, we see him as a kind, intelligent, educated man, a devoted father, and an exemplary husband. Everyone admires him, and in theory, he seems to have everything under control

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But here's where the paradox comes in: the closer he gets emotionally to someone, the clumsier he becomes.

Despite his sharpness in reading interests and behavioral patterns, he struggles immensely to understand simple, spontaneous behaviors like Anya's, who just wants to have fun like any child, or Yor's, a woman full of emotions, contradictions, and desires that don't follow strict logic..

His fake wife and daughter become his true blind spot.

Twilight isn't used to dealing with genuine bonds, only strategic roles

That's why being in a home for so long—one that demands intimacy, emotionality, and spontaneity—makes his structure falter.

If we pay attention to his inner thoughts throughout the story, we notice that his true personality is far from the "perfect man" everyone sees.

Twilight is, deep down, a grumpy, nervous, insecure man who overthinks everything in search of a logical answer. This clearly generates high levels of anxiety and stress for him, and sometimes he even comes across as a bit silly.

Very, very, very silly.

Because deep down, his seemingly "mission-rational" actions are actually him concerned about his family's well-being. The truth is, he's a softie, protective, devoted, and very selfless.

This contrast between Twilight (the hyper-rational spy) and Loid Forger (the exemplary citizen) shows us a constant duality between who he is, what he pretends to be, and what he could become if he allowed his emotions to guide part of his life.

By repressing his most vulnerable parts, he finds it difficult to understand basic emotional situations that don't fit his mental framework. Not because he's cold, but because his psychic structure has been shaped by trauma, duty, and survival..

This is where a key idea comes in: Twilight interprets human behavior as a transaction.

His mind functions like an analysis machine

It seems that from his experience, people act driven by an interest—they want something, they're looking for something—and his mission as a spy is to detect what that "something" is so he can use it to his advantage. This mechanistic view of human relationships has been useful for infiltrating organizations, achieving objectives, and penetrating circles of power… but it's useless in a home where what's expected of you is to feel, not to analyze.

Indeed, his interactions with women have been more strategic than emotional. These were likely women belonging to influential social spheres, where the bond was based on seduction, mutual interest, or emotional manipulation (something similar to the classic "honey trap," where charm is used as a weapon of persuasion).

That's why he suffers an emotional short circuit with someone like Yor, a shy, sweet, authentic woman who isn't trying to manipulate him or get anything from him. She doesn't fit into his "if you do A, it's because you want B" logic, and that completely throws Twilight off balance.

His personality, with its highly rational structure, uses intellectualization and emotional repression as defense mechanisms.

The same goes for Anya, whose spontaneity and tenderness have no "strategic reason" behind them. Twilight can't "decipher" her because there's nothing to decipher: she simply is. This highlights his difficulty in connecting with people emotionally, because his life experience has programmed him to operate from the head, not the heart. .

It's curious, if we look closely at his past, we see something very different from the cold, calculating man he has become. He was an emotional, sensitive, expressive, and idealistic child, even described as a "crybaby."

However, that child was broken by war. The death of his mother, the complete absence of adult protection, and the need to survive alone pushed him to build a protective shell. Coupled with his years in the military, his life became a continuous training ground, not just physically, but emotionally: don't feel, don't doubt, don't get attached, don't trust.

This pattern is reinforced by internalized beliefs, which is why when he realizes he's "slipping," he mentally punishes himself and labels it as a mistake.

But the reality might be that Twilight tends to develop an avoidant attachment style

Where he seeks more subtle bonds and represses emotions more easily. We see this in his connection with Handler, whom he admires as a mentor figure; Franky, his undeclared best friend; and Nightfall, whom he cares for and values as a disciple and colleague.

He clearly appreciates and worries about them, but the difference is that Twilight can coexist with them and deny his attachment more easily. This is because these individuals actively reinforce his belief that attachment is a sign of danger, as they are all involved in the world of spies. In contrast, Anya and Yor have caused an emotional earthquake within him. In just six months of living with his "fake" family, he already shows signs of genuine concern and authentic affection, and his defensive system begins to fail

All of this shows us that beneath the perfect spy is a man hungry for human connection, who has lived so long repressing what he feels that he now doesn't quite know how to manage real bonds.

What do you think?

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🕵️‍♀️ Theory: What Is Loid Forger’s Real Name?

Alright, guys—let’s talk about Loid’s real name for a moment.

I've been wondering about Loid's real name for a long time, and a couple of years ago, my first guess was James.

That’s because the manga has so many references to James Bond — like the dog’s name, all the spy elements, and the fact that Anya is test subject 007, among other things.

I even tried inserting letters into the text and figuring out how many letters his real name might have.

Then I stumbled across this post, and the theory there really stuck with me. It's clever and worth a read.

Another name I liked was Lloyd—since it’s almost identical to his current alias, Loid, it made a lot of sense.

But the most interesting discovery happened recently while I was rereading chapters 62.1–62.3.
There’s this little detail I hadn’t noticed before: a nameplate on the door of young Loid’s childhood room.

I took a closer look—and then I asked ChatGPT to help me figure out what name could possibly be written there, based on Loid’s previous and current aliases. I thought: maybe he was choosing made-up names similar in the beginning by the sound of the first letters or syllables to his real name, to make it easier for him to respond to them naturally.

GPT gave me several names that started with the same letter or sound as Loid, but one really surprised me: Conrad.

In my opinion, it's a very fitting name for him.

• First of all, the first letter on the nameplate really looks like a C, and the last one could definitely be a D.

• Second, Conrad literally means 'wise advisor' or 'bold counselor'-which fits Loid perfectly. The 'wise' part aligns with his role as a spy in Wise, the intelligence organization he works for. And 'advisor' was actually a nickname his friends called him as a kid.

• It’s also a Germanic name, which fits with the general European-inspired setting of Spy x Family.

I later checked the post again and saw in the comments that someone else had guessed the same name — which made me really happy!

The number of letters in this name actually fits as well😅😅

But as l've read before, in Japanese, there's no clear distinction between 'L' and 'R'— instead, the equivalent sound is transcribed with 'R.' So deep down, I'm leaning toward the idea that his name would start with either 'L' or 'R.'

I don't know how accurate my theory is, but now I'm looking at that doorplate again, and suddenly the first letter looks more like an 'L' than a 'C'…or maybe there's no name written on the plate at all, and it's just some random scribble?😭😭😭

The only thing we can do is hope that when the chapters about Loid’s childhood get animated (if I understand correctly, that’s supposed to happen as soon as the next season), we’ll be able to see what’s written on the doorplate of his childhood bedroom. Maybe it will contain the same kind of Easter egg — but clearer than in the manga — hinting at his real name, just like it happened with Anya’s name (which you can read about here), when the anime revealed a detail that we only officially learned much later, in the Short Mission 11, long after those earlier anime episodes had already come out.

Hey, if any of you have new (or old!) guesses about his real name-or if you spot a different name on the doorplate-let me know! I'm super curious.

Either way, it was fun overthinking this.

Thanks for reading!

P.S. English isn’t my first language, so please excuse any small mistakes 😊

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OMG THIS IS SUCH A BIG CHAPTER

I'm going to need more than a fortnight to process this

AND HOW BEAUTIFUL YOR LOOKS IN THIS CHAPTER. MY HEART–––

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I feel like the no. 1 reason they gave Jay amnesia and made him go missing was for the heterosexual romance. That, and they already had their buckets filled with Geo's crew, Lloyd's students, Zane investigating portals and the rb siblings.

I'm glad it's not Nya who had amnesia because a) that would deprive us of the sibling relationship we have SO been missing and b) I do not want to see the two men frantically searching for Nya (because she needs her own agency and to avoid rewatching Kai & Jay's heartbreak...).

Glad we didn't get Seabound part II, though in some cruel twist of fate, it seems the two who are the only ones to remember an entire season (Nadakhan) are the two to forget themselves. You could chuck in poor Zane too, if you want.

And if it were Kai... Well, we'd be deprived of the sibling relationship and I fear we'd just be having the pilots all over again but told from the team's POV and with a more mellow Kai. It's been so good to see Kai in a mentor role again. Remember him with little greenbean? (Of course you do, most the fandom is rightly possessed obsessed with Possession).

What made me write this? Ah, Nya saying Jay's the core of the team or something in s3 ep2. That's indisputable from the pilots to s2, where the team was smaller and Jay was that sassy, acidic, hilarious and genius twerp. But in later seasons, Lloyd's mounting importance overshadowed and consumed the core personalities of the OG4 and we see the same storyline on a shallow repeat... So is Jay STILL the heart of the team? Depends on how you interpret it, and whoever Jay is now.

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My lit brain is not doing lit. Lemme think on this... Ironically this sentence was playing in my head when I stumbled on this post.

{I heard your voice but missed you in time}

This line is beautifully tragic (and tragically beautiful).

Not only did LG fail to save CXS in time, but this lyric makes it sound twistedly ironic by wording it this way, as if he had a strong chance of saving him but failed anyway.

AND

He misses his life before this constant and endless rewinding.

He misses being with Cheng Xiaoshi without any weight attached.

But that time has been lost.

He'll never be able to experience it again.

All because he missed saving him in time.

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I like how this very real redraw feels like a metaphor. 🥹

braindead link click "theory" but it's more of a disjointed thought stumbling around like it's drunk

what if lu guang says this is the "last chance" not because he's running out of photos or because of a power limit, but because if he does that erase and rewrite thing one more time the literal fabric of time and reality is going to tear beyond repair

this thought was brought to you by me trying to draw a hand holding a camera, erasing it and redrawing it and erasing it and redrawing it and erasing it and redrawing it like twenty times, and when I wanted to erase and redraw it again I noticed a very visible cracked wrinkle in the paper and when I touched it I knew that if I redid it even one more time it would rip and everything i worked for would be gone

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Hmm...

LG's left hand is the one that grabs the camera; it's the one that went back to change the past.

It's also the one that's bloody and weighted.

The first(?) time they met, CXS grabbed LG's right hand; the one clean and unburdened.

But in the new versions of the timeline, he grabs LG's left hand; the bloodied one that dared to rewind time.

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Loid using Anya as a proxy for his own feelings. Provides distance and removes any potentially romantic implications to his wanting Yor to remain his wife. Puts on his best "Loid" face throughout and thoughts are fully invested in the mission. He's pulling back somewhat, albeit not consciously.

Yor meanwhile, back to the dead eyes of her pre-Forger era, but for different reasons. She knows now what she's fighting for so no longer struggles to remind herself, but in some ways, that makes things more difficult for her. She's realised she wants to share more of herself with Loid but can't bring herself to for fear of rejection. Thinking back to how she initially thought that Loid might be one of the only people who could understand her. And at the time, she had no intention of actually testing that, but now it could be on the cards, she's starting to doubt. She would rather not know, but at the same time, she knows she won't be happy in this existing limbo.

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@spatziline no hate but even tho it’s been funny seeing how many people in the fandom has been threatening physical violence against Loid for not understanding Yor’s feelings, it’s only evidence of how well-written his character is because it shows how conflicted he is.

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I couldn't pinpoint it yesterday, but I must admit that despite the pain something felt right about Loid not even thinking Yor could be in love with him.

Remember this?

This was Loid jumping to ask Yor to marry him for real, because she gave him signs of jealousy, and it could be useful for the mission to deceive her into a relationship.

Remember this?

Ok, it's not canon, but still, this is Loid rushing Yor into a relationship in order to take advantage of the situation.

He was looking for chances to make it happen before for the sake of operation Strix. So, now, Yor gave him CRYSTAL CLEAR signs of being in love with him, and he didn't catch on.

I can go into deep deep analysis, but this is Loid not planning on deceiving Yor anymore. This is Loid respecting Yor as a teammate, not an accessory. The idea of love isn't in his head at all now, since he's not thinking of it as a tool to use on Yor, and I love that for her.

She showed some vulnerability, and him not exploiting it immediately is the absolute best we could ask from Twilight at this point.

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*SxF ch119 manga spoilers*

This chapter was what I had expected from Endo-sensei: a combination of comedy and heartfelt/emotional scenes. What I didn’t expect was the throwback to ch.3 and Loid and Yor’s previous dates (extra mission 2 and ch35). It was a lovely way to show us how their relationship has changed over the past 6 months as The Forgers.

The difference this time was the bittersweet ending. In both, the extra mission and ch35, the dates ended in a lighthearted way: Loid and Yor’s misunderstanding was cleared up and the status quo of their relationship remained the same. It wasn’t the case this time. Yor wasn’t satisfied with Loid’s placate answer about their relationship. To me, this is a huge development on Yor’s side. While she didn’t have the courage to say that she wanted their arrangement to last forever, she still ask Loid about it. She also felt that she was selfish for wanting more which is something we rarely see from Yor. She didn’t want to be reassured about her role as a mother or even as a wife. She wanted to know what Loid truly thought about her and their relationship. This wasn’t something that Loid’s usual answers can clear up and I believe the status quo of their relationship will change one way or another.

I don’t blame Loid for over-analyzing Yor’s question about their arrangement and missing what Yor wanted to know. In addition to trying be more objective after the Mole Arc, he already thinks that Yor doesn’t have feelings for him. He had let his guard down because he cares about Yor’s feelings and it almost cost him his life and compromised the mission. It’s just a bittersweet situation overall.

Other things that I loved about this chapter:

- Gympie making a salve for Yor and making Hemlock give it to her as an apology.

- The city hall girls seeing Yor with Hemlock. This could lead to Loid hearing about it later and he might connect it to Yor’s question about their arrangement. The possibility is endless 👀

- I’m never getting over how Loid took her to the Hilltop Park that she showed him back in ch.3. And Yor saying that she doesn’t come here often anymore because the things that reminded her what she was fighting for is at her home aka the Forgers 😭

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I love Yor-Loid shenanigans. More Endo-sensei pleaseee🙏

I feel like their way of talking to each other has changed but I can't quite pinpoint what. A few people have pointed out that Twilight is just more direct with Yor (since she misinterprets any flattery etc)...

But for some reason, their discussion on the hill in the seal chapter stands out to me.

Loid's answers are direct, curt and true - which is honestly more low maintenance for Twilight since he doesn't need to honey it. Some have pointed out that is manipulation in itself, and while true, I see this as more his way of answering her in a straightforward manner.

Her risk of being detained, as viewed with her present knowledge, will continue to exist. He validates her fears. That benefits him and consoles Yor that her worries are valid and of concern, and he's heard them. But also, it's a 'I don't need to put on that smile I have to with neighbors. I can have a neutral face (often interested as misery or a rbf in real life), I can say it directly...'.

Got to hand it to Yor, she has great emotional intelligence.

Yes, Yor is drunk. But telling (phrased as a question, but as much a statement) Loid doesn't even care about her current state? Twilight's simple clarification is almost like banter to me.

He tells her to stop (shows us he feels fine advising/commanding (kindly) her as she is him), Yor questions his concern for her and Loid clarifies.

On the surface it's nothing much, but **something's** shifted and I can't quite pinpoint what, but it feels like the dynamic you'd expect between close friends.

Note: Twilight is not emotionally dense. He's taken Yor's previous actions (the honey trap rejection and general intimacy) into consideration and understands that she is not pursuing romance. So he respectfully treats her that way, and it will take time for him to realise that somewhere along the way that changed - and that's not just him reading into the lines and hoping (because it makes his mission easier) not peer pressure (as he genuinely wants Yor to feel and be herself... While he can still gently manipulate her where he needs to). As a spy, Twilight has had to hone his emotional intelligence. If anything, it's because his logic and reasoning skills far surpass his emotional intelligence that it gets him in a pickle.

Overthinking, you might call it, but it's progressed his missions countless times and without it he wouldn't be Loid nor Twilight nor *redacted*. Maybe not even alive.

(I'd play Link Click's *stop overthinking* to help him, but alas it doesn't exist in the 60s...)

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Endo-sensei introducing all our alternate endings and feeding the ao3 writers, methinks.

Hmmmm....

Martherson is an idea of a tragic TwiYor

The McMahons is an idea of a non reveal TwiYor

The Authens is an idea of a happy ending TwiYor

Is this a pattern, Endo? 👀

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👏👏👏

Je l'aime beaucoup. Merci @skippersxfamily.

Spy x Family 118 spoilers

We all thought that the reveal would happen by accident or after a real romance is established. But somehow Yor choosing to tell Loid not because she wants a genuine marriage but because she doesn't want him or Anya to get hurt is so much more powerful. Yor deciding to tell Loid could be seen as a moment of weakness, but I see it as a moment of incredible strength. She is going against both Garden and society would expect from her and taking control of her own life. She cares about her family and knows the only way to keep them in her life is to reveal her identity.