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beautiful from the outside and ugly from within

i do not want to think about you and our toxic work environment

you said

"all these people are the same except me and you"

but you are a hypocrite and a backstabber too

getting to know you was to good to be true

you betrayed me and i wish that i have never met you.

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i am not good with having friends,

i always end up leaving them

trust gets broken, and i get disappointed

and they give the blame to "we are getting older"

they don't understand,

because they think that the world revolves around them

so i leave and say things that i mean

like "thank you for being my friend all those years"

goodbye forever,

friends that once meant so much to me.

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you drank it like ‘this is my last’

left a letter and layed in the bathroom; half dead

i am sorry that i couldn’t come around

i wish that i skipped school that day and asked you to hang out with me in town

i never thought that you would leave like this

and you will always be missed

gone after a week, but i still see you

in my dreams.

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to have a change of mind

i won't let myself to do so

for i have already found a person that i adore

the year is 2019, you're back & i am here

after three years of having no contact

all we do is laugh and talk on the phone

telling each other how much we've grown

while heartbreak has left the chat

we fill each other's minds with intellect

of what we have learned ever since the love between us left

and i don't want you as a lover anymore

i can't bare to lose you like before

i would rather want you as a friend

which only death can do us apart

instead of loving you as a lover and then breaking your heart

you deserve someone worthy of your purest love

and don't you try to wish that on me

i am sorry, i am not the one you should think highly of

i am not worthy of your love

anymore.

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one day life will take you from me

it happens all the time

i experienced it once and spent nights crying

so before the time comes when life takes you from me

i hope that you know

that every day my love for you only grows

and that you are the only man that i adore.

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the seasons will do their changing

the days will turn into nights

and i will spend my time writing until you arrive

i will wait for the night to come

so i can pray to the sky

and i will let the stars know

that you aee the only man that i adore

hoping for the wind to bring you soon to me,

because i can't wait to see you

as i am looking at the place we sat

i can see you, it is as if you have never left

I am not bereft.

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you are good at everything that you do

drom the way that you draw and the way you make art

to the way that you write about your muse.

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to be honest

i only want a kiss from him on the lips

to end my night with.

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sooner or later

you will offer an apology,

but it will mean nothing to me

being together was not a blessing,

everything you left me with was to be stressing

how could i let you ruin my life?

every time i let things slide

and make myself a mess

then i get bereft

and this time, you have crossed a line

You have disrespected me the whole time

thinking that you're sly?

i am leaving you without saying a word

i am backing off without any hurt

you have not realized it yet and this time i won't come back

our friendship won't be recovered

losing you isn't a loss, but a lesson.

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you place your hand on my thigh

just the way that i like

we are sharing kisses in the dark

it is just us and the moon tonight.

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she used to get mad all the time

and blamed her problems on other people, because that felt right

and now she is at peace with herself since she realized

that the only person that held her back was her own mind.

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sommige nachten voelden lang aan

en bij bepaalde momenten was ik bang,

dus ik keek naar de maan

en ik maakte een wens,

een wens dat mij zal helpen met het genezen van jouw absence

maakt dat sense?

wat voelt het raar aan om jou niet meer in mijn leven te hebben

als ik ook beter wist, dan zou ik vaak aan jou zeggen

dat ik van je hou en voor jou blijf ik altijd trouw

ja, ik was in een diepe rouw

ik geef toe, het was moeilijk voor me, maar ondanks dat

weet ik dat ik een dagje ervan uit zal komen

dus rust in vrede, het is je vergeven

je bent verlost van alle stres in het leven

en je verdiende beter en heel veel meer

ik hoop jou weer te zien, ook al is het in een dream.

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even though we are not related by blood

your passing hit me like a truck

i am a mess

ever since you left

i try my best

not to shed

tears.

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you tell me the truth and keep it honest with me

that is why I don't want you to disappear

is it selfish of me to still want you here?

i don't know what i would do without you, dear

life's been lovely ever since you appeared

and it is so that i want more memories with you

i understand that your disappearance

is meant to take care of yourself,

but have you thought that with me by your side

your life would still be going well?

at the end of the day, the choice is still yours

i won't beg, i won't cry

i will cherish the moments that i have with you,

my mysterious guy.

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i miss you

and i miss the things that we used to do

you are no longer here

i wonder, how does it feel to disappear?

your presence was what kept me all these years.

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it is hard for me to say,

"goodbye, looking forward to seeing you next time"

without feeling the need to cry,

because spending time with you is never enough

ever since you came into my life

your existence gave my life a new meaning

one that i am blessed to be experiencing.

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you are one of my favorites in this world

and even though we fell apart

the memories of you will never leave my heart

you were like a sister to me

your kindness, bravery, and humble attitude

were the reasons that i looked up to you,

but i got blind

one day you became unkind

brave enough to let us go without saying goodbye

i wonder, where did your humbleness go?