thisinotsu17cide

[thisinotsu17cide]

November 1, 2023

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Tape soon

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Icy gang forever

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Star fall

Please listen to me, I don't do songs like this, Expressing myself to that degree. When I was writing this song, I was thinking to myself how can I connect with something I don't fully grasp? How can I truly feel you if you keep me at a distance? the Intent of what I'm saying is not having a heart the love I had for her is gone even if she hates me or still have love for me deep in her heart, Alot of times I think about what we had and finding myself looking back on what we talked about how I even got in love with her. It’s about the energy being off—like there’s no love in the way we move. It was at the point where the hurt overshadowed the good, Lyrics: Love gone, you gon love fall thought you ever know, hurt me, hate me, love me I won't ever love text me, call me, block me, you want ever learn, ghost me, kill me, fuck me, we won't ever talk, ohh, no love when you move how can I love without a heart? Honestly, she changed my Perspective on what love is an what it means to me I hope someone out there could understand what I'm coming from, fuck you anna.

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thrasher

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self explanatory

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Why not¿

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lost

Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m just wandering through life without a clear direction. It’s hard to explain, but everything seems so confusing right now. I’m surrounded by people, yet I feel completely disconnected from everyone and everything around me.

I thought by now I’d have some idea of who I am or what I want to do, but instead, I feel like I’m just drifting, unsure of where I’m headed. It’s like I’m stuck in this in-between place, not really fitting in anywhere. I see others moving forward, figuring things out, but I’m just standing still, lost in my own thoughts.

Sometimes I wonder if I’m ever going to find my way or if I’ll just keep feeling this way forever. I’m trying to figure things out, trying to find something that makes sense, but nothing really clicks. It’s frustrating because I want to do better, be better, but I don’t even know where to start.

There’s this emptiness inside that I can’t seem to fill, no matter what I do. I wish I could find something, anything, that would help me feel like I belong or like I’m on the right path. But right now, I just feel lost, like I’m searching for something that I’m not even sure exists.

—Cam

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alone

I don’t know how to put this into words, but I’ve been feeling so lost and alone lately. It’s like I’m stuck in this never-ending cycle of sadness that I can’t break free from. I try to be strong, to push through each day, but the weight of it all just keeps pulling me down.

I feel like I’m surrounded by people, yet I’ve never felt more alone. It’s as if no one really understands what I’m going through, and I’m scared to talk about it because I don’t want to be a burden. Everyone around me seems to have it all figured out, while I’m just drifting, not sure where I’m headed or if I even matter.

The nights are the hardest. That’s when the thoughts come flooding in—the doubts, the fears, the overwhelming feeling that I’ll never be good enough. I wish I could just shut it all off, but it’s always there, this constant ache in my chest that won’t go away.

I’m trying to keep it together, but sometimes it feels like I’m fighting a losing battle. I want to believe that things will get better, but right now, it’s hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just feel so empty and tired, like I’m barely holding on.

—Cam

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I HATE IT

Sometimes I fucking hate myself. I hate the person I’ve become and the things I’ve done in the past. I fucking hate myself for it. Even the things I do now—I hate them too. I’m trying to change how I go about things, trying to change mentally and physically. But there’s still a negative thought in my head, always telling me, “No matter what you do, you’ll always be that depressed, no-good boy that no one wants, and you’ll always be alone. "Sometimes I fall into that thought and go back to my old ways. When night falls or when I’m alone, I think about my cousin and get messed up, knowing that it should’ve been me instead of him. I feel useless in this world, knowing he could’ve been something great while I sit and waste my time, doing nothing that matters. I’ve been feeling like this since I was 14, and I’ve wanted to kill myself since I was 15. If I die right now, don’t feel sorry for me—I deserved it. I hope someone can save me before it’s too late. I hate being alone, feeling empty, feeling useless. I just hate being and feeling lonely. I’m trying to change that and do better in life, but sometimes I feel like it’s my fate to be alone and die alone, with a gun to my head, knowing no one could save me and I couldn’t save myself. The only thing keeping me from sinking back into deep depression and killing myself is change. Maybe down this dark road, there’s light. If I get through it, maybe I’ll change, and my life will change for the better.

—Cam

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Die young ⚰️🖤

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Sleepless nights ⚰️ <\3

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Hello

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999 <3 bad vibes forever <3

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One mo bf the night ends much luv 🧛🏽🖤🖤🖤🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼