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Mauro C. Martinez (American, 1986) - Trust (2022)

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grand wizard and his young apprentice

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i was born to magnus my protocol and my archives, camp my here and there and malev my olent

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Made this for the Wrong Organ discord server

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Had this dream where I was in a cult and volunteered to be eaten alive. It was very peaceful and everyone was polite, sometimes telling me stuff like "I'm taking a bit of your thigh, it'll be great with some lettuce" and I'd be like "Oh ok cool"

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We gonna drown in blue🩵🩵

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forever thinking about how the magnus archives really fumbled the Flesh. there was such potential there beyond just meat and whatever jared hopworth’s deal was. there’s the body, there’s the lack of control over it, there’s changes against your will, and sometimes hatred for it. there are uniquely horrifying bodily experiences that could have been explored that expand on it wholly. to me, the Flesh is the one fear i think never got enough development.

as a trans person, i identify with the flesh. i’m sure i’m not the only one, but the idea of a trans exploration of the Flesh and its nuances has fascinated me since i first listened to MAG 111, when we first learned about smirke’s 14. i would’ve loved (and still would) a trans or trans-coded Flesh avatar (because jared hopworth just does not cut it for me). jared’s flesh garden is something i think about often, though. the way the plants are tended, groomed and transformed into something else, people twisted into flowers comprised of their entire beings, still able to feel and exist with the horror of living as something you are not, something this world has shaped you into. i think a lot about a Flesh avatar with a similar premise, too. someone who saw themself transforming into something - someone - they couldn’t recognize, instead taking hold of it, molding their own flesh, cutting away and adding pieces, in an eternal state of visceral metamorphosis. and they wouldn’t have it any other way.

to me, the flesh is more than just meat. there are so many angles to look at it. the idea of feeling your emotions so viscerally they only manifest as bodily sensation, as nausea, as bruises and bleeding and bile, and you don’t have any idea why this is happening to you, because you’re fine. you’re fine, aren’t you? your mind is fine. sure, your head is pounding and your stomach feels like it’s a burning hole within you, and your bones ache so much you can’t move, but you’re fine. (for me, this is a big part of my being autistic. my feelings tend to register in my body before they ever do my brain). your body is turning against you in new and horrible ways, and you don’t know why. and the Flesh feeds on that confusion and pain. it loves it.

the Flesh genuinely had so, so much potential, and i wish there had been more on it, something that made it truly horrifying, especially since i think a piece of TMA’s fanbase found something in it that scratched their brains from the beginning.

anyway, yeah, i have feelings about the Flesh.

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TMA Entity Playlists

Collective/Master

The Eye

The Vast

The Spiral

The Hunt

The Buried

The Lonely

The Dark

The Stranger

The Slaughter

The Corruption

The Web

The Flesh

The Desolation

The End

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Hi I'm curious, what TMA entity would I be an avatar for?

I love TMA and to solve my mental problems I obviously have to insert myself into it. But like I have no clue which entity really makes me go "that's so me" ya'know?

Because I have a massive fear of death, I feel uncomfortable in my own skin and can't recognize myself when looking in the mirror, I feel like my brain is tricking me a lot, I cry when thinking about how insignificant we are compared to the universe and life, and I don't like people leaving me.

But I also love weighted blankets/stuff animals, I tend to lie a lot, I love gore/horror movies, love cannibalism a a metaphor for love, I really like to chew/bite things (like my skin and other people), I LOVE watching people but hate being watched, love the look of overgrown vines and moss, love drawing eyes on any possible suface , I love the sky and the ocean, and I think fire is really pretty.

So does it depend on my fears or what makes me comfortable? Help, the autism is strong with this I want answers.

(It's been a while since I've re-listened to TMA, so sorry if the answer is obvious)

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I’ve been wanting to do a thing like this for a while. Behold my amazing animu mongah skills there wow swoons

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Sooo i have a CRAZY idea, guys what if we combined the Futuristic Four and the Hope Kids guys please please PLEASE I NEED IT

It would be such a cool group! Plus if we’re bringing back rotbtd we might as well do what they did back then and make a group of 8, i forgot what it was called but it was the og big four, Elsa and Anna, then Kristoff and Eugene and they cooked every time (almost)

Anywho uhh I’ll probably post more of them but for now i gotta figure out what to call this group