theunwaveringwoman

[theunwaveringwoman]

Why does this have to be so hard?!?

It’s 11:38 pm and I’m on vacation away with my son. I should be asleep as he is but because of a text message exchange with my son’s father I can not sleep.

Why does co-parenting with a narcissist ex have to be so damn hard? Why can’t I have a weekend away without it being interrupted by my ex? Why does every time I have my son and we are enjoying life does my ex have to pop in and be intrusive?

Why do I have to continually have to answer to him???

There is part of me that wishes I did not have to respond to his messages. There is also the part of me that knows if I do not respond the messages will be relentless. It’s a never ending tail chase. I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t.

I don’t show how this affects me in front of my son; I put on that happy face and get right back into enjoying life with him because I feel he should never have to see me hurt or suffering because of his father. I have to, in a way, protect him from the hurt I am put through. He should have a “normal” 5yr old happy life. He knows his Mommy is strong.

For me I just want the BS to stop.

[theunwaveringwoman]

Need a space to vent.

It’s not easy being a single Mom and having to co-parent with someone that is acts more like a child than proper role model/parent.

How hard can it be to a child to have one set of rules/guidelines at one house and minimal at the other?

I feel for my child and try my best but it is difficult.

Speaking with my child’s father about these things is a losing battle as it’s thrown in my face that they should be able to do what they want and act their age which right now is 5yrs.

My child does have all the opportunities that a 5yr old could have - going to the zoo, the park, the beach, biking, play dates, etc and at the same time having responsibilities like feeding the dog and cat, helping with laundry, cleaning up after playing with toys/games, and helping set the table for dinner. I reinforce manners - saying please and thank you, proper ways to ask for things, how to politely say no, and how to work through emotions when over frustrated.

I feel at a loss that it’s all being undermined and after a weekend with the other parent it takes a day to get back to home normal.

Ugghh, thanks for reading 🙃

[theunwaveringwoman]

Hello Tumblrs, here it goes. It’s my time to share - the ups and downs, the good and bad, the beautiful and ugly. My thoughts, feelings, just me.

Who is me? I’m a woman, a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a partner, a Mother. Each is a different aspected all rolled into one - the beginning was easy and as time passed and I grew more titles became me. These all shaped the woman I am today and who I become tomorrow; because I’m nowhere near done with who I want and am capable of becoming.