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[therealsawako]

¿Study log? 07.01.25

Look at me making a nest to study by pushing all my stuff Infront lol, today was quite untidy lolz. XD

I studied only barely more than 5 hours tho

:(((((((

I can't seem to get out of this curse sadddd

Hopefully next week?

I mean, one week and I've consistently studied soooo....its okay? Is it tho?

Today I solved and learned everything I failed to unswer during the last week.

Today's playlist

Lol the Gojo one snatched my wig shy shy shy....the songs were so friggin horn- I mean, Gojos cool but I can't think him that way lol I was writing and blushing at the lyrics. Did I say my fav MHA character was Shigaraki? I'll write a whole essay about him someday. And BSD fav character is Fyodor lol.

[therealsawako]

Yeah male characters especially. Like I'm one feminine bitch but if I see a twinky anime dude? Fuck I wanna be him

Anyone else get motivation from anime characters???

Cause like, Dazai from bsd was canonically underweight (bmi 17.8) during dark era, and he is like, one of my biggest inspos. I don't even rlly know why

[therealsawako]

¿1st week stats?

It's total fast down.

And food had in-between :

Jan 1 : 00

Jan 2 : 735

Jan 3 : 940

Jan 4 : 570

Jan 5 : 720

Jan 6 : 465

Jan 7 : 00

Sauurrrr the average is 450 :P

Haven't weighed myself though :((((

Some foods I remembered to click. It was mostly turmeric rice, broccoli, chicken and eggs. Were poor so that's all good I've been eating since forever, lolz. :)

Btw my calorie logger notebook, isn't she kawaii? The previous one got ruined by "failed again binging rn" logs so new years with a new one.

[therealsawako]

¿Study log? 06.01.25

Today was 5.5 hours :((((

Purely of chemistry though, my weakest subject lolz. Actually I did about 180 numbers worth of questions and 20% I didn't understand and 9% I mistook.

Hehe....chemistry gotta study moreeeee. XD

And I checked them myself lol . Can't believe it took me a while day to study chemistry. But hopefully I'm getting back in track!!!!!

Annndddddd today's playlist :)))))

My study logs are just my playlist getting more and more dominated by illit lol, I wonder if I should just be a glitt at this point lol.

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˚ʚ♡ɞ Writing mystory ʚ♡ɞ˚

listening to Midnight Fiction while writing teen fiction. If y'all kind can try checking it out but don't think I'm pushy plz cause I'm shy shy shy :))))))))))

My previous story somehow got 1.04k view but this one is going downhill though I personally like this one more T~T

[therealsawako]

¿Study log? 05.01.25

Today was mainly physics after like six months of not touching it, Frick my brain for passing but...yeah I gotta study more. XD

And then some maths I didn't understand yesterday, I did them again. Plus social studies :((((

The chapter is on "social problems in Asia" and uhhhh it's harrowing I mean....its all SA and stuff like I wish Asia will learn about trigger warnings someday.

Today I studied 6+ hours finally :)))))

Will improve ! (Hopefully)

Doesn't change my disgusting handwriting though ;((((. It'll improve I promise

Today's playlist~

Yeah I've been obsessed will illit lately lol. I thought they were just okay before but the recent album "I'll like you" I have it on repeat lol. I almost wanna buy the CD butttttt I'm poor so no.

The anime op playlist gave me so much nostalgia attack in an hour my body was physically hurting. Ahhhhhhh

[therealsawako]

¿Study log? 04.01.25

Did a lot of maths and acted like the teacher while checking XD

It was pretty alright? For some reason, ever since my childhood I've been kinda good at maths BUT . Then I did social studies and it put me in place :p

But I did study a lot? A little over 5 hours? Hopefully I'll get my brains back :(

Handwriting reveal?

It kinda sucks though, when I was skinny even my handwriting was pretty T~T

Did a lot though but somehow scared to feel proud?

Today's playlist~

Illit songs are good, change my mind. I mean....sure the autotunes and stuff is kinda annoying but...fir simply vibing it's pretty alright.

They're rookies, they'll improve without unnecessary hate.

I lovelovelove shoujo animes hopefully their era will return :(((((

[therealsawako]

F M L

I jus w3ight3d myself and woootttt?

I weight like 69.2 kg??????

Like how?????

Like HOW??????

I mean ...I got into the binge cycle and stuff for nearly two years buttttt

I mean.....M SIZE STILL FITS ME ARENT I SUPPOSED TO BE AN XXXXXXL OR SOMETHING???

And I fricking was 41.9 like.....2 years ago ?

Wdym I gained nearly 30 kg in two years? Frick my metabolism :((((((

No wonder people are mean to me now

Okay so imma lose atleast 6 kg every month then I'll be down to the ugw by...5 months again?

I mean :((((((

That's pretty unrealistic let's face it.

Butttt I'm going to lose atleast 15 kg in 3 months.

Fuck my bone structure for gaslighting me

:((((((

Are y'all gonna hate me for being fat now

:(((((

I actually revealed this to keep myself accountable !

[therealsawako]

¿Study log? 03.01.25

just reading biology still boooring.

Hopefully the exam went well . I mean the multiple choices were meh butttt maybe slayed the written part?

Hate the old teacher though, man doesn't mark more than 83/100 I mean how???

It's science not literature. He judges by handwriting and what?

Hopefully I'll make a result I'll be happy with I gave up on mom, she won't understand the teachers tactics.

Today's playlist , been obsessed with nwjs lately ( as if I don't suddenly get nwjs syndrome often lol)

Studied a lil over three hours maybe?

[therealsawako]

Idk but this might be working???

i mean , it's not much and I'll sound jobless KPOP obsessed otaku weeb with no future when I say this but I had no human interaction for the last yearrrrr :((((((((

After I started binging I hated myself sosososso much I didn't even got out of the house and everytime I left home all I heard was,

"wow, you've gotten fat"

"have you gained weight?"

"you looked better before"

"you're so ugly now"

And it succccccks cause I was the friggin it girl before and no one else got commented on their body except me guess that's karma buttttt.

Today, I went school for the first time...and a guy that usually doesn't sit beside me was assigned to sit there and he acted friendly? I mean guys hated me already when I was skinny ( I guess popularity amongst both genders at the same time is impossible) but after I got fat they see me as invisible.

And then my old friend I avoided and was avoided by ( she's one of the metabolism skinny wants to gain weight type? ) , I gathered the courage to give a hi and she hi'ed backkkk.

And coming back home, I met a junior, and she talked to meeeeee.

The girl who especially was mean about my weight gain talked to me a lot and even asked what music I was listening tooooo.

I mean it was all positive human interaction?

Is there hope for me :((((((

[therealsawako]

Trying to be non phone addicted (and have a life outside 3d :(( )

my father got this Korean magazine from a workshop and yeah, it's like really cool.

I mean, I like indie stuff, and it's all about a city in Korea that is the centre of Korean indie culture, music, art, fashion etc.

It's cool but I miss my TV where I watched anime and drama TT

Sadly it had some problems and were kinda poor so yeah no luck until later.

Leftovers gingerbread from Christmas and a maxim coffee, 250 maybe?

I put the sanrio stickers on my headphones!

[therealsawako]

¿Study log? 02.01.2025

I spent majority studying bio cause I have bio exam and haven't touched the book for like two months XP

But ig it'll go well and then I wrote my story for a bit?

I was reading the biology book like crazy for maybe a bit over four hours?

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚Today's playlist ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

yeah can you tell I'm rewatching jjk and MHA ATM? All the nostalgia hitting me lol.

I even watched like 6 MHA episodes in between studies lolz. Wdym MHA is at its last season? As someone watching that for what ? 7 years I refuse to believe any show I've grown up watching can end :((((((

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Both my stories have nice ranking but tell me why no comments or likes TT .

[therealsawako]

Decorating photo frame

my aunt gave me a photo frame she got from work. It was low-key ugly? Not my type cause it was black and brown striped BUT !!!

I saw the potential. So I washi taped it up and put my Tubatu lomo cards and it looks sauuuuuuuurrr kawaii :))))))

Kinda proud but yeah it's giving jobless ikkkkk

[therealsawako]

Clips from uptown

I bought the clear claw clip and it even has a ribbon 🎀 !

The small transparent ones were given by my aunt! They're low-key big but cute anyway! :)))))

Star Kuromi??!!! They were a damn catch !!!! Begged my mum to buy that lol. Made her go the next day after she refused.

I mean sure I'm 17 but-

Same for the star ones ! They're all over Pinterest ! But I never found them before :P

They're like sauuuuuuuurrr kawaii

Had no idea they're y2k though!

Clips make me happy :))))

[therealsawako]

Can you tell that I really like watermelon? 🍉

The fact it was totally cause 13 years old me heard somewhere that watermelon is suuuper low in c@@ls is low-key sad but who cares. I love by strawberry and watermelon now

[therealsawako]

F@st and the food I broke it with

It was actually 27 hours but I forgot to start it in the app before 3 hours lolz.

It's nice if the food is yellow rice with nori and boiled eggs.

Estimated maybe 500 c@ls?

Then I had broccoli boiled and another egg after 4 hours soooo 750 maybe?

Not bad I guess!

Starting another 24+ f@st wish me luck!!!