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my body is a temple as much as it is a prison my body is a temple as much as it is a prison my body is a temple as much as it is a prison my body

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they should invent a sunday that doesn’t have this sinking feeling

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qualeasha wood, "bed rot," 2024, woven jacquard, glass seed beads, and hand embroidery

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Already knew this was gonna happen. Saw it in a dream

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“From Palestine to the Phillipiness…Stop the US war machine” seen in Mexico City

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Fiona Apple in a suit of armor in NYC, 1997

Photography: Joe McNally

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Fiona Apple photographed by David Corio, 1997

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you have to let yourself be a weird woman or you will not survive

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"It doesn't have to be like this. We could have it so much better"

Calligraffiti in Chicago, Illinois

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I keep making the same mistakes!

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i love re-consuming media i used to love when i was younger. like wow! child me still is in me i am holding her hand and keeping her safe and doing her favorite things with her!!!!

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— Franz Kafka

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yes yes orlok as the grotesque manifestation of ellen’s hideous lust, monsterfucking blah blah blah. Hot.

But thomas… the lover that witnesses.. accepts… soothes… He saw her at her most depraved and still held her… you guys. He was the only other person who had *seen* what she saw in her dreams. He was there in that castle… was inflicted by orlok’s perversions. In the flesh. Still he made it home. Then he watched her, frothing at the mouth and shaking in demonic fury, to then crawling and begging at his waist for mercy, then a moment laters she’s looking up at him with the very devil in her eyes and tongue… and still, he held her! As she truly sobbed. He told her it was okay, that he had seen it too. Continued to love her as his woman, descend to hell and destroy the demon for her. And Ellen loved him too! She says she felt he was sent to her, made her feel normal and okay. Her salvation. A love that feels like depollution… to be so inspired by your love for somebody that for them you go, willing, to the altar as a sacrificial lamb. Her love for him gave her purpose! I love them… not orlok nor any contract could ever dissolve the bond between them.

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After much deliberation I've decided I'm gonna start making quilts and I'm going to make sloppy messy quilts for everyone I love then slowly but surely I'll be making beautiful quilts for everyone I love and I will have a fucking ball along the way and your homes will all be full of quilts.

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crawling back to you

i started this year wanting to read more, journal more. as ive continued reading bell hooks this quarter, i notice how her essays, despite them being academic essays, they are very easy to digest for the reader. akin to a journal entry, she places her thoughts and opinions eloquently as it follows her stream of consciousness as well.

as i wrote in my journal, i thought about how there are topics i want to speak of, to talk about. in the current political climate, i find it hard to speak about my actual thoughts outside of my trusted friends. in those situations, i find myself filtering my true thoughts.

i was interviewed last thursday in regards to undocumented students within my university, our lived experience, and the incoming administration. While i did want to speak every little thought, i found myself having to bite my tongue as there was a microphone right between me and the interviewer. daca recipients are in a perpetual state of limbo where we can only excel within the cage the us government has placed us in.

surveillance never ends in this country and it will not as we rely more and more on technology and ai. the censorship of tiktok sets a very damning precedent, and i fear whats to come.

ive crawled back to tumblr just to speak as i deem fit, where i feel these types of conversations were always more accepting than other media outlets. i remembered how i found solace in this site in middle school, and im looking for it now as an adult

crazy how cycles go