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themanontheside
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themanontheside · 9 years ago
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Independence Day
Growing up as a kid, I loved the 4th of July. The smell of fireworks accompanied by the loud bang and bright lights. Every year I would beg my parents to buy the biggest pack of fireworks the stand had. Bottle rockets, mortars, screamers and even sparklers. I’d stand in the street with my dad while we shot them into the sky while my neighbors looked on. July 4th was the most glorious time of year.
In 2014, I had just returned from my first overseas deployment to Afghanistan. The fireworks there were much different. They mostly consisted of mortar fire met with bright, glowing tracer rounds fired from our anti-mortar defense guns. Just as beautiful as the fireworks from home, just slightly more lethal. But July 4th, 2014 was a special day for me. That night, while my family shot off fireworks into the night sky, I proposed to my wife. We had been dating for almost a year, and I know that sounds short, but I was sure that she was the woman I was going to spend the rest of my life with. It’s a night I’ll remember forever.
In 2015, I was back at home again for Independence Day. This time, I was married. July 4th, 2015 will also be a day I remember for the rest of my life, but for vastly different reasons. Over the course of a year, I had turned into a different person than I was in 2014. I went from a man madly in love with his fiancée, to a man who began to take her for granted. We argued the entire weekend. There were threats of divorce, sleepless nights and lots of alcohol involved. I acted like a child and spent most of the weekend with a childhood friend while neglecting my wife. July 4th, 2015 was the beginning of the end of my marriage.
We grew cold towards each other. We fought over tiny things. We didn’t trust each other. We lied to each other. Things became toxic, with mostly myself to blame. In September of 2015 I left for Afghanistan for the second time, and I would return this time not to fireworks, but instead without a wife.
Now, it’s July 4th, 2016. I’m back at my parents house to spend the holiday with them, but this time alone. I didn’t even bother to buy fireworks this year. This year has been filled with depression, with self-blaming and heartbreak. I used to love this holiday, and hopefully some day in the near future I can enjoy it like I used to.
Happy ‘Merica Day.
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themanontheside · 9 years ago
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The best way to not get hurt is to never get close to someone.
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themanontheside · 10 years ago
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Fold me up,
take me out,
i'm portable.
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themanontheside · 11 years ago
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I'm tired of being in Afghanistan.
I hate it here. I miss my girlfriend. I miss my bed. I miss everything. I hate this place.
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themanontheside · 11 years ago
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They don’t make ‘em like this anymore.
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themanontheside · 11 years ago
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The holidays this year just haven't felt right. Maybe its because my girlfriend is 1000 miles away from me. Maybe it's because I'm so used to being away from my family. Maybe it's something else. It's just been a weird day. I need sleep.
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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Fanfuckingtastic.
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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If its who you love, it's who you love.
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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PARADISE VALLEY
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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Dear Marie - John Mayer (Studio version)
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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Seven Months
That's how long I've been in the Air Force. I left for basic last November and haven't looked back. In just those seven months I've been more places than I could have imagined. San Antonio, Biloxi, New Orleans, Dallas, Monroe, Tuscaloosa, Atlanta. I've been all over the southeast and soon I'll be in Valdosta. It's been surreal. I turned 21 in basic. I gambled in Biloxi in casinos and on a boat. I met people I will be lifelong friends with. I saw the Avett Brothers in Dallas. THE FUCKING AVETT BROTHERS. I couldn't ask for a better life. But still, I feel as if something is missing. I have this desire to go out and do more with my life. I have all these goals I have set for myself and I can't wait to go out after my 4 years are over and be the man I've always wanted to be. Life is great.
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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"There's no fortune at the end of the road that has no end. There's no returning to the spoils once you've spoiled the thought of them. There's no falling back asleep once you've waken from the dream"
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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Ohmygod please post Wildfire at you uploaded as mp3. <3
You can get Wildfire and the rest of his Houston concert here:
http://archive.org/details/JohnMayer2013-07-12.dpa4028.flac24
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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John Mayer - Wildfire
I have a feeling I'm gonna love this new album
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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My favorite part of being home
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themanontheside · 12 years ago
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August 13
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