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The Letter from Conan

This short story 'The Letter from Conan' brings a story of a character who possesses powers in a Dystopian world.

There’s a knock on the door to my apartment. Quick. Abrupt. Loud. But the noise stops only seconds after it’s begun, and although no other knocks follow it’s enough to send my dog into a frenzy of protective barking – just as I’ve taught him to do.

Picking up my blade from the mantel by the door, I hold the hilt firmly in my hand as I turn the doorhandle and rapidly pull the door open.

I…

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Memory Loss - A Poem

Memory Loss – A Poem

The Void.

The darkness.

Blankness.

My mind.

Stunned.

“What do you remember?”

I don’t.

Shrug.

I shrug.

Another note.

Faster.

Longer.

“When was the last time you remembered?”

I don’t.

The Void.

It closes in.

Getting closer.

Closer.

Daily Darkness.

Daily confusion.

“Remember me?”

No.

I don’t.

Nod.

All I can do is nod.

Smi…

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New Year's Resolutions 2019

New Year’s Resolutions 2019

I won’t bore you with the ins and out of how this year was the worst it has been for me since 2014, but I will say that I plan on making 2019 a much better one.

Sure, I said that for 2018, and probably every year before that, but this year I truly mean it. I won’t let myself be tied up into the same mistakes I did last year, and I will be dedicated to more ‘Realistic’ resolutions than I had…

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The Day We Made The Snowman Talk

The Day We Made The Snowman Talk - a short story using the characters from The Pheonix Series. Hope you enjoy! Don't forget to follow while you're at it. #Christmas

“My Magical Snowman”

With one last heave, Joanna and Riley lifted the giant snowball onto the Snowman’s body to create his head, smoothing the split between the two snow mounds so it looked a little more natural – as natural as any Snowman is to another human being.

‘It needs a face now,’ Riley sighed, stepping away from his work and clapping the excess snow off his gloved hands and…

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Assassins Creed: Origins Review

Assassins Creed: Origins Review

This game devloped by Ubisoft was released in October 2017, but the reason I am reviewing it so late is because I was able to claim it by part of the Playstation Plus free monthly games just before Summer this year, and I am so glad I did.

Since the days that I owned an Xbox 360, I have loved the Assassins Creed series. The stories are so fascinating, and worlds within these games are always…

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Christmas Tag 2018

Christmas Tag 2018! It is here!

As a kid, did a sibling ever receive a present that you wished was for you?

YES! I distinctly remember once as I kid accidentally stumbling across some Christmas presents in the family office while I was playing games. I found a present that I had asked for and … for those who know me now you will be shocked, but I asked for Shrek the Third. I know. 

Anyway, I saw it in the pile and got really…

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Snow Has a Silent Sound

Snow Has a Silent Sound

“Does falling snow have a sound?”

As I step outside of my house into the street which has been coated in a blanket of pure white, I feel the crisp chill bite at face and the lightness of the falling snow as it lands on the tip of my nose and ends of my eyelashes.

It doesn’t usually snow in this town, and the sight around me of both children and adults throwing snowballs at each other in middle of…

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For starters, I want to apologise for my VERY long absence. Things came up in my personal life that I will not talk about on here, maybe one day, but definitely not yet.

Thank you to all of you who have stuck around and, thank you to those on my other social medias who have recently followed me.

If you want to keep up with me on a more day-to-day, I am very active on my Twitter and occasionally on Instagram.

Do follow!:

Twitter; Becky__Willson

Instagram; LibertyJoyBlog

Ok, let’s do this!!

  What was the last funny video you saw?

What do you do to get rid of stress?

What is something you are obsessed with?

Who is your favorite entertainer (comedian, musician, actor, etc.)?

What’s your favorite way to waste time?

Do you have any pets? What are their names?

LUCY!!

Where did you go last weekend? What did you do?

What are you going to do this weekend?

What is something that is popular now that annoys you?

These two…

What did you do on your last vacation?

What was the last time you worked incredibly hard?

Are you very active of do you prefer to just relax in your free time?

What do you do when you hang out with your friends?

Who is your oldest friend? Where did you meet them?

What’s the best / worst thing about your work / school?

If you had intro music, what song would it be? Why?

What were you really into when you were a kid?

If you could have any animal as a pet, what animal would you choose?

What would be your perfect weekend?

What do you think of tattoos? Do you have any?

What’s your favorite number?

What’s the most useful thing you own?

Have you ever saved an animal’s life? How about a person’s life?

If you opened a business, what kind of business would it be?

Are you a very organized person?

Have you ever spoke in front of a large group of people? How did it go?

What is the strangest dream you have ever had?

What is a controversial opinion you have?

Who in your life brings you the most joy?

Who had the biggest impact on the person you have become?

What is the most annoying habit someone can have?

Where is the most beautiful place you have been?

Where do you spend most of your free time / day?

Who was your best friend in elementary school?

How often do you stay up past 3 a.m.?

What’s your favorite season?

Which is more important, a great car or a great house?

What animal or insect do you wish humans could eradicate?

(WASP)

Where is the most beautiful place near where you live?

What do you bring with you everywhere you go?

How much time do you spend on the internet?

What do you usually do?

What is the most disgusting habit some people have?

Where is the worst place you have been stuck for a long time?

If you had to change your name, what would your new name be?

What is something that really annoys you but doesn’t bother most people?

What word or saying from the past do you think should come back?

What is your guilty pleasure?

If you could learn the answer to one question about your future, what would the question be?

Has anyone ever saved your life?

What benefit do you bring to the group when you hang out with friends?

How often do you curse?

What trends did you follow when you were younger?

What was the best time period of your life?

What do you think will be the best time period of your entire life?

What do you do to improve your mood when you are in a bad mood?

What is the silliest fear you have?

What are some things you want to accomplish before you die?

What is the best room in your house?

Who is someone who is popular now that you really like?

Where is the best place to take a date?

What smell brings back great memories?

How often do you help others?

What are you best at?

What makes you nervous?

What weird or useless talent do you have?

(Chipmunk Noise)

What are some strange beliefs that some people have?

What’s the funniest TV series you have seen?

Which TV show do you want your life to be like?

If you could bring back one TV show that was cancelled, which one would you bring back?

How have TV shows changed over the years?

What’s the best sitcom past or present?

   What’s the best show currently on TV?

What do you think about game shows?

What’s the most underrated TV show?

Or overrated?

What do you think about reality TV?

What will be the future of TV shows?

What was the best birthday wish or gift you’ve ever received?

How often do you binge watch shows?

What cartoons did you watch as a child?

What was the last movie you watched?

Do you prefer to watch movies in the theater or in the comfort of your own home?

What’s the worst movie you have seen recently?

What’s the strangest movie you have ever seen?

(Still loved it though)

What is the most overrated movie?

What’s your favorite genre of movie?

What movie scene choked you up the most?

(The Fault In Our Stars)

Do you like documentaries?

When was the last time you went to a movie theater?

Do movies have the same power as books to change the world?

Which do you prefer? Books or movies?

Do you like horror movies?

What was the last book you read?

What book has had the biggest impact on your life?

What was your favorite book as a child?

Do you prefer physical books or ebooks?

What is the longest book you have read?

What was the worst book you had to read for school?

How about the best book you had to read for school?

What book genres do you like to read?

Do you prefer fiction or nonfiction books?

What book has had the biggest effect on the modern world?

Do you think people read more or less books now than 50 years ago?

How fast do you read?

How often do you go to the library?

Now that indie publishing has become easier, have books gotten better or worse?

What song always puts you in a good mood?

Which do you prefer, popular music or relatively unknown music?

What was the last song you listened to?

What is your favorite movie soundtrack?

Are there any songs that always bring a tear to your eye?

(F that song)

Do you like going to concerts?

Who was the first band or musician you were really into?

Do you still like them?

Records, tapes, CDs, MP3s. Which did you grow up with?

What bands or types of music do you listen to when you exercise?

Do you like classical music?

What’s the best way to discover new music?

How has technology changed the music industry?

What are the three best apps on your phone?

   What’s the most addictive mobile game you have played?

How many apps do you have on your phone?

How often do you check your phone?

Do you always have to have the latest phone?

What was your first smart phone?

What is the most annoying thing about your phone?

What kind of case do you have for your phone?

Do you text more or call more?

What will phones be like in 10 years?

Do you experience phantom vibration? (Feeling your phone vibrate even though it didn’t.)

How do you feel if you accidentally leave your phone at home?

What do you wish your phone could do?

What sports do you like to watch?

Who are some of your favorite athletes?

Which sports do you like to play?

What restaurant do you eat at most?

What’s the worst fast food restaurant?

What is the best restaurant in your area?

Would you eat at a restaurant that was really dirty if the food was amazing?

If you opened a restaurant, what kind of food would you serve?

What is the strangest themed restaurant you have heard of?

What is the fanciest restaurant you have eaten at?

Have you traveled to any different countries?

Where is the most relaxing place you have been?

Where is the most awe inspiring place you have been?

Do you prefer traveling alone or with a group?

What do you think of tour group packages?

Where would you like to travel next?

What’s the best way to travel? (Plane, car, train, etc.)

What’s the best thing about traveling?

   How about the worst thing?

What is the longest plane trip you have taken?

What do you think of stay-cations? (Vacationing and seeing tourist attractions where you live.)

Do you prefer to go off the beaten path when you travel?

Where do you get your recommendations for what to do and where to stay when you travel?

What is your favorite piece of technology that you own?

What piece of technology is really frustrating to use?

What was the best invention of the last 50 years?

Does technology simplify life or make it more complicated?

Which emerging technology are you most excited about?

What problems will technology solve in the next 5 years?

What problems will it create?

Will technology save the human race or destroy it?

What piece of technology would look like magic or a miracle to people in medieval Europe?

What technology from a science fiction movie would you most like to have?

(Medical Pod from Elysium)

What scifi movie or book would you like the future to be like?

What do you think the next big technological advance will be?

Do you care about fashion?

What style of clothes do you usually wear?

What is the best pair of shoes you have ever owned?

What is your favorite shirt?

What is the most embarrassing piece of clothing you own?

Does fashion help society in any way?

What is a fashion trend you are really glad went away?

Who do you think has the biggest impact on fashion trends: actors and actresses, musicians, fashion designers, or consumers?

What old trend is coming back these days?

If you didn’t care at all what people thought of you, what clothes would you wear?

What is the most comfortable piece of clothing you own?

What is the craziest, most outrageous thing you want to achieve?

   What are some goals you have already achieved?

   What personal goals do you have?

Do you usually achieve goals you set?

What is the best way to stay motivated and complete goals?

What are your goals for the next two years?

How have your goals changed over your life?

How much do you plan for the future?

How do you plan to make the world a better place?

What’s the most refreshing thing on a hot summer day?

What’s the best thing to do on a cold winter day?

Where is the nicest place you have been to in fall?

What is your favorite thing to eat or drink in winter?

Do you prefer summer or winter activities?

What do you like to do in spring?

Do you feel like fall and spring are getting shorter?

Which season are you most active in?

Is it better to live where there are four seasons or where one season takes up most of the year?

What is the biggest holiday for your family?

Do you wish there were more or less holidays?

If you had to get rid of a holiday, which would you get rid of?

What is your favorite holiday?

What kinds of food do you usually eat on your favorite holiday?

What holidays have been over commercialized?

What do you think of online education?

What do you think of standardized tests?

Are bigger or small schools better?

Is teaching a skill that can be taught?

What will the future of education be?

What is your favorite food?

Do you like spicy food?

What foods do you absolutely hate?

What food do you know you shouldn’t eat but can’t help yourself?

When was the last time you had a food fight?

What do you get every time you go grocery shopping?

If your life was a meal, what would kind of meal would it be?

What do you think of buffets?

What would you want your last meal to be if you were on death row?

What food looks disgusting but tastes delicious?

My Return / Random Q&A in Photos&Gifs I hope you enjoy my comeback post! I will try and be posting as much as I can now that I have returned. Enjoy this q&a!

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Let's Talk about Mail

Getting Mail means so much sometimes...

Now hear me out, I understand this is a random thing to talk about as most of the population gets mail at least once in their life and its something quite typical where I’m from,  but honestly, for me, getting mail is a big deal.

Having a Chronic Illness and Mental Illnesses can be quite isolating, especially when most of the time I’m ill and in my room with the heating on, in my pyjamas watching…

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I Have Not Slept for 3 Weeks

I've been so tired, and here's why.

The title is pretty self explanatory, and I am so tired!

When I was younger I used to have REALLY bad insomnia and go weeks at a time without sleeping. I would spend my nights reading, tidying, writing, anything but what I was meant to be doing – sleeping – just because I couldn’t settle and drift off.

Back then however I did not have Chronic Fatigue.

I had fibromyalgia and IBS, but they weren’t…

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I Went Home

What happened on Mother's Day? Not much, and it was perfect!

This weekend on Sunday was Mother’s Day, so I went home for the weekend.

At first I told my parents that I couldn’t come up to see them as I’ve been ill, Ollie’s been ill and I can’t afford it, but because of a sudden turn of events that I won’t talk about that happened on Wednesday night, on Friday night, I called up my mum in tears in complete homesickness, anxiety and just plain sadness. I…

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As I have previously talked about in my posts two times ago, I mentioned my fear and dislike of the snow.

The snow here has melted away now, and lasted in the area for about three days, and I thought that I may stay in my room and stay away from the snow and the memories that follow it until this time.

That is until Ollie and my friends wanted to go to the pub.

The pub was about a twenty minute walk away, and I would have to walk through thick snow and a blizzard. Why they wanted to go to the pub, I don’t know, but I thought I would join them.

This meant going out in the snow.

I wrapped up warm – scarf, coat, hat and gloves – and then ventured into the snow.

And with good company, it was actually quite fun.

We acted like kids and had a snowball fight. We were going to make a snowman but didn’t have anything that we could decorate the snowman with so decided against the idea. We jumped in the snow, pushed each other in thick mountains of snow – my friend got covered in snow when Ollie pushed her into a snowy bush! It’s fine, she pushed him back into another bush.

Snow is glossy and cold, and magical in some way.

After avoiding it for 3 years, it was fun to face my fears and play around in the snow, but it also made my heart pound as, thanks to my PTSD, my head was filled with memories and flashbacks, but thanks to my friends and Ollie, they helped me through it and I actually enjoyed myself.

Next time it snows, I’ll make sure to get out there and play in the snow, and maybe I’ll get flashbacks, but I’ll just make sure I’m around people I trust will pull me out of my foggy mind and back to reality.

Thank you to my friends and wanting to go to the pub. It made me face my fears and I appreciate the support and help you all gave me.

Let’s just say, if you have a fear, Face it, but make sure you’re around people you trust who can help you if things get too much. You never know, it might not be too bad. Of course if the fear is a person, don’t face them as it could get dangerous! Just take care, and keep going.

I believe in all of you!

  Becky x

I went out in the snow... oh no. As I have previously talked about in my posts two times ago, I mentioned my fear and dislike of the snow.

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I'm Sorry

I'm sorry if I haven't been the cheeriest, but I promise I am trying!

I feel at the moment, that my posts have been very depressing, and I apologise for that, it’s just how my state of mind is at the moment.

Although I’m out of hospital, and I feel as if living is actually worth it now, I still feel depressed and as if life is just droning on.

I wish I didn’t feel like this, and I wish that the happy little spirit in me would pop up more often, but its not. I’m…

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It's Snowing

Snow is amazing, but not for everyone.

So, it’s snowing.

And I thought I’d be happy to see the snow, something that is so rare in England, and yet I’m staying in bed with the curtains drawn.

I have so many happy memories in the snow; building snowmen with my best friend; snowball fights with my friends; kissing my boyfriend in the snow as its fluttering down.

And yet all of those memories are with my eXes … ex boyfriend, ex friends,…

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I am home!

I feel lost, but at least I feel loved.

I’ve been home for the last two days, taking the time to settle back into university life and back into my home in halls, which is why I haven’t updated you lot until now.

I was going to do a post every day while on the psych ward, but the wifi blocked so many things and there was barely any signal so I couldn’t post anymore since the first day, so I’m very sorry.

Since being in hospital I was…

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Psych Ward Diaries: Day 1

My first day on a psych ward went a little like this...

Now, I’ve been on a psychiatric ward before, but that was back in 2014 when I was 16. I was put in the adolescents ward with ten other teenagers, all struggling with mental health issues as well as puberty.

It was loud! Here however, it’s quite quiet.

I think I’m the loudest here, especially when it comes to my panic attacks. I’m crashing and banging things, making noise, all by accident thanks…

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Am I Lazy?

If I'm ill, why do I feel like I'm just being lazy?

Sometimes I feel as if I’m lazy, especially since one of my illnesses in Chronic Fatigue, causing me to be exhausted constantly.

I get ill almost every other week, be it with a virus, a cold, the flu, a stomach bug, or a flare up of one of my many illnesses, and this will leave me bedridden for a couple of days, sometimes even the whole week, leaving me to look around the four walls of my bedroom…