thegildedvoid

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love language

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Be nice to femme boys motherfuckers. They are brave and they get so much shit talked about them for no reason. you better tell him hes fucking very pretty and treat him right or im crawling out of your tv with a meat cleaver. Ask him his favorite album and validate his choice or so fucking help me

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Listen to the little voice in your brain telling you to act hornier. That's an angel talking and she's telling you how to get to heaven

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happy pride month to people who are in in-system relationships! internal dating, queerplatonic relationships, familial bonds, friends with benefits, platonic relationships, undetermined/unlabeled relationships, relationships that change labels, and everything else! monogamous relationships, polyamorous relationships, ever-shifting relationships, relationships that are solely in-sys, relationships that involve external people too, etc. having that kind of connection between system members is so special and i hope u have a wonderful month <3

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Creatures of the night

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with enough trauma and highly specific circumstances you too can have gay sex in your mind. but watch out! the horrors

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new gender idea: guy who is super masculine and uses he/him pronouns, but every time someone acknowledges his gender or asks about it he switches to feminine presentation and she/her pronouns and refuses to acknowledge the change

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I listened to tøp for like an hour straight while drawing, the spirit of twenty one pilots possessed me and now I have a whole drawing sketch

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there's something so unique and beautiful about being in a relationship with another part in your own system. like we share a bond and understanding each other in a way that literally no one else ever will be able to. we are literally each other's other half. holding him feels so right, it makes me wonder why I ever laid anywhere else before.

we're hoping this leads to a fusion between us down the line.. but for now we've each got more to process before we're stable enough. and I'm okay with that. because we have each other. and this is the most stable I've felt in so long. and he feels the same. we're on the right path. and holy shit it feels good.

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follow my art on insta

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we've been slowly going through the process of.. processing our breakup with our boyfriend and I guess it's my turn.

I'm not surprised I took such a hit. I handle the positive aspects of relationships, especially romance. I was in love. I felt very safe with our ex. and had that flipped on me...

I feel weirdly at peace? Like I'm pissed, but somethings... changed. I want to connect more with the other parts of the system. Before I was so spontaneous and would do shit without caution and without really listening to the others. I knew them, but I didn't know them. I wasn't involved in our life either. I didn't care about our art or our hobbies. I wanted to be my own person.

Now, I don't think I feel the same. For the first time, I want to make a painting. I spent the night just existing with M and D. I opened up about my feelings.. they listened. It was nice. I felt close to them for the first time.

Somethings changed in all of us. The three of us have been with each other since discovery a few months ago, but this dynamic that we have now feels so much closer and fresher. It feels like a breath of fresh air honestly... It's not so tense. We're not at each other's throats or worried about what each other is going to do. There's a new understanding. A shared pain because we've all been hurt by the same person in different ways... We get it. We understand each other in a way that no one else ever will and holy fuck it's so nice.

Specifically my relationship with M has changed in a way that just feels so comfy.. Like we are each others other half. Literally. I'm the positives of relationships, he's the negatives. We are ecah other's other half. And now that we've both gone through this breakup we can connect in such a beautiful way... I- I just can't explain it.

It's just so nice knowing I'm not alone. Like I didn't go through this by myself. I'm not the only one holding all these memories. We have a shared trauma. Multiple parts went through this and we can share it with each other and heal together. It's made us stronger and helped us grow closer.

God, our ex fucked us up, but he also has helped show us that we can grow back stronger than he'll ever get to see. And I think thats kinda cool.

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me: I don't think the breakup effected me that badly...

also me: completely changes parts of my appearance and personality. hides myself away from other parts and becomes extremely clingy when I finally come out.

ah. so maybe I was wrong.

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Hey you. Yes you. You with the fictives. Yeah.

Large amounts of fictives is not a sign of faking. You don't have to prove shit to anyone. Keep your peace, god knows you need it.

Dazai (he/him)

Morgue System

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you can't handle the uber instinct of our uber autism. obverse :forms multiple introjects of the same source/character:

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I'm the funniest alter in our system (real) 😝😎

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i genuinely think we should have more cross-gender acting in film. i think cis female actors should play cis male characters and vice versa without the characters’ masculinity or femininity being a joke and i think this ought to happen enough that it isn’t a big deal at all. cast timothee chalamet as marie antoinette he can pull it off. let gong li play an emperor. this will be good for everyone, especially me

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The term and concept of "rent lowering gunshots" has seeped into my mental vocabulary, and I've welcomed it there. Something I'm up to is gross and weird? Good, keeps the rent low. Keeps judgy people out. Post weird shit on your blog, do weird shit to your hair, be as fucky as your heart ever wants to be. If you're not the one making the profit, make yourself unprofitable. The aposematism of brightly coloured creatures is there to warn predators, not friends.

You have no moral obligation to make yourself palatable for those who would consume you.