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I have to wake up in a few hours to work 10 hours at one job and ~3 hours at another.

I mean-

I *did* sign up for this 🥲

Staying grateful for them both.

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What could it possibly be now? 😌

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I can't get over how I was napping at my mom's when she opened a drawer that squeaked.

This wholesome woman goes, "shhhhh!" to the damn drawer cause I was sleeping 😂🥰

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I get on fb for 5 minutes and am annoyed af LOL. This why I don't get on there much.

Small town ignorance doesn't age, apparently.

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How can I explain to you,

that even to myself, I'm a danger to?

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Nah bitch

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That feeling when you know in your soul that something is wrong with your mother but she says "nothing's wrong!" (rather defensively)

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Oh holy orange bottles

Each night I pray to you

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Let myself be happy

🎤 Don't let me get me 🎶

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Hell yes.

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mood

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It gets too loud when it's too quiet.

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Why do all these things even matter?

*flashback to mom crying after a bad day*

Because it matters to them.

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I want everything to be okay so bad

But will I let it be?

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I've been asking my spirit team for help with the OCD....

I've been practicing...

It probably sounds so weird if you don't have issues with it.

It's debilitating for me, worsening over time.

Intertwined with anxiety.

"The act of doing and undoing,"

Perfection = people pleasing

When will it be satisfied, though? Undoing. Doing. Undoing. Doing.

It's never enough;

I wish I were exaggerating.